TITLE TRANSLATION-Is this love?I didn't knew..you only tell me!

Hi my lovely readers...and welcome to all the new readers...Thank you so much for the support..please vote and comment!!..This chap is dedicated to all my new readers who started reading n voting!!

I wanted to thank my dear friend hgrhln for helping me a lot with ideas...Writing the past was just hard...i tried to write it as best as I can.

The past is divided into two parts...This is the FIRST ONE!!

  AADI'S POV:

"Aadi where are you dragging me to?",Angel questioned me.

"Angel wait for a while,you will know yourself".

"Aadi what if your granny or anyone gets to know that we are missing?"

"Trust me angel,I managed everything,We need this time to discuss something important".

Later we were seated on the mat,facing the small pond with angel in my arms,and our fingers intertwined.

"Angel ,I know you forgave me,but still I think I need to clear some issues of the past".

"Aadi it's okay,I wont mind,let the past be in the past"

"No angel,we cant move on properly unless we discuss the demons of our past,angel today ,here I will tell you a story,Our love story ,in my view...ready to hear?",She nodded a yes shyly.

"Angel there was a guy named aaditya kashyap,a rude arrogant guy,who never cared about anyone,everyone used to call him a monster,but none knows how much of aa broken soul he was inside...

 Then once, something happened to me,It was the sweetest thing that could ever be,It was a fantasy, a dream come true...It was the day that I met you...  

Now, this is a story all about how...My life got flipped-turned upside down with your entry.TARA,I still remember the day I met you

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"Excuse me....hmm..aadi..I am tara,this is for u",saying this you gifted me some rabbit,I then noticed the girl in a lavender colour chudidar,though her clothes were poor her face was glowing,You were like a breathe of fresh air,the air which I much needed.

"did u make this for me?".

 "yes it was from a sponge at home,i made this with my hands n colored it",Trust me till that day no one ever made an effort to altleast make something for me,I was lost in your eyes,you started igniting new feelings in me,I was scared of these new feelings,and the only solution was to cover my feelings with my arrogance,and I did that,I crushed your rabbit,You started crying,seeing your tears my eyes got moist,I did not understand what was happening to me.

But angel you did not know one thing,after you left I collected all those pieces of rabbit from dustbin,That whole night I sat mending it,I pasted it,And you may laugh,but after that day,it always stayed with me,holding a proud place on my table.

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With that I opened the basket and gave her the rabbit.

"You still have it?",she asked me crying.

"Yes angel I never lost it in the first place,sorry it looks horrible with all the patches,but in my eyes,it's so precious to me,and angel let me continue the story".

"Angel I never know what love and affection were!! You came into my life when I was in despair ...I felt god had made you just for me....It seems I searched all my life for someone like you,You used to mend me with your care and affection....And all my heartaches and pains slowly started to dissappear in your constant love and care but I never showed you what I truly felt,I always covered my true feelings with my rudeness".

"You never ceased to surprise me,Remember the time when our college took us to excursion trip to araku on dussehra holidays?

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It was my final year of college and dussehra holidays started....so the few students planned to go on a trip for araku valley,It was all so new to me,no one even bothered to ask me whether I was coming or not,because they knew Aadithya kashyap was never comfortable to mingle with crowds,and also I was always comfortable being alone.But then I saw you on the stair way,you were so excited for the trip.

"Appu monu you know they also booked a bus,I will go because I will miss seeing aadi in the holidays and I am planning to confess my love for him on the trip, and bus ticket is also cheeper,my dad could afford it".

"But tara,I wish we were going by air,It saves so much time",appu said.

"Hmm..but my dad could never afford it appu,You know it's my dream to be on a flight atleast once,you know from childhood,I used to go on my terrace,and watch a plane travelling in the sky until it disappears out of my sight,The small lights  of plane which used to blink through the sky,it is all so fascinating to me",I still remember your sad disappointed face when you were saying this.

I dont know why but my heart wished to fulfill your dream of travelling in plane,I went and bought the air tickets for whole group,knowing you will not come with me,if alone,But to my surprise,you were not even on the plane,My eyes only searched for you when I boarded it.

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"And you know angel I still remember the day you confessed your love for me.That day You touched my hand, and reached my thoughts, my heart, You looked into my eyes, and touched my soul....Through only a simple confession you changed me, with only a I LOVE YOU you moved me,With only a look you brought me life. You are my angel from above  ".

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" What did you say?".

 "I love you aadi",you said feebly and weakly. 

"WHAT!!!",I was still so shocked by your bold confession.

"I SAID I LOVE YOU AADI !! I.....LOVE...YOU...Did you here it properly now?"

Trust me my heart skipped a beat ...I have all these feelings to take you in my arms and kiss you,to love you - these weird feelings, and I've had this burning desire to express them. But I can't. I just can't. And these feelings - they're trapped and they're like stuck in my heart.. And I just felt so frustated.

And more over it was so hard for me to believe that you love me..Do you really love me or my status?How can you love me when my own family does not?Should I trust you?

"Did u ever look at your face in the mirror....ohh i forgot! Is your family even able to afford a mirror?how did u even dare to confess to me...if possible dont ever show me ur tramp face again",I need to make you hate me,I am nothing more than a piece of broken soul,who is incapable of  loving or being loved.

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"But angel you did not hate me nor did you leave me,you started loving me more and more,and trust me I started falling for you..Who cannot love you?

Your smile radiated every room you walked into....And all the men s heads turned and looked at you,Your beauty I could not resist.

Your voice as gentle as breeze,your I love you's started Soothing and cleansing and relieving all my pain.

This is your love- which in you I found Like the rising and setting of the sun...and I was proud that You love me,only me"

 "My angel, Whenever you used to look at me I used to feel you, whenever you touched me I heard your thoughts, whenever I saw you I used to explode inside..your love started making me alive again!"    

How much longer can I  keep deceiving myself that I wont love you...I could not last long? I started loving you because it feet right in the heart,   Finally I  figured out that the most purest and the best feelings in life are only felt from the heart, never understood from the mind. I FELL IN LOVE WITH YOU.

"Angel....The first time I saw you, my heart fell. The second time I saw you, my heart fell. The third time fourth time fifth time and every time since, my heart has fallen.

You are the most beautiful woman I have ever seen. Your hair, your eyes, your lips, your body that you haven't grown into, the way you walk, smile, laugh, the way your cheeks drop when you're mad or upset, the way you drag your feet when you're tired. Every single thing about you is beautiful.

When I used tosee you the World stoped. It stops and all that exists for me is you and my eyes staring at you. Just you, and my eyes staring at you.

I was able to find the words to tell you how much I love you .... I wanted to just scream to the whole world that I'm in love with you. "

"BUT THEN 

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So this was the first past of the past...did you  like it...trust me it was so hard to write it to show the past in aaid's view..tilll now we saw tara's view..i wanted to show it in aadi's view too....and the past mentioned in bold are from prologue,aao milo chale and the description...you can refer them once ,but they were in tara's pov.

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