Gxxod's POV

I just lost it.  I lost control again.  The moment that Bas finished explaining why he did not consider having dinner with Josh as cheating, I flung my phone to the floor and hit the wall with so much force that the entire trailer reverberated.

My phone started to ring. I thought that I had destroyed it when I flung it to the floor.  I picked it up and saw a very worried Bas, an almost crying expression on his face.  Somehow when I noticed that he looked like he was about to cry my anger melted.

I took the call and before he could speak I asked him in a frustrated voice, "Why do you listen to him, Bas?  Why do you listen to Josh? I told you that he is a smooth talker.  He doesn't have any good intentions towards you.  He only wants to have fun with you, nothing more."

"But that's exactly what I was trying to do!" he exclaimed.  "I was just having a little fun, nothing more.  I don't have anything more than friendly feelings for him."

"I know that you're only having innocent fun with Josh,"  I said as patiently as I could, "but it's not innocent on the part of Josh.  He will take advantage of your innocence and you won't be able to stop him when he gets the right opportunity."

"I will not give him the opportunity then," Bas said with determination.

"No, Bas, no!" I exclaimed.  "Just, please, don't accept any invitations to go out with him."

"Why are you so against my going out for a little fun?"  he insisted to know.  Should I tell him that it's because I love him so much that I don't want him to go out with any other guy?  Is that selfish of me since I am not there to bring him out on dates?  Isn't that how people in love feel about their loved ones?  Don't they feel possessive and jealous and want their loved ones only for themselves?

I was torn by all those thoughts running around in circles in my mind.  I was saving my declaration of love for a special occasion but I guess that bastard Josh won't let me.

"Bas,"  I said.  He looked at me, waiting for me to continue talking.  I sighed deeply.  "The reason I don't want you going out with anyone else than me is because...is because..." I hung my head in resignation, then I looked into his face on my phone, "I love you, Bas, I have loved you for a very long time."

His face disappeared from my phone!  He cut my call!  Why was that? Why???

I tried video calling him.  He did not pick up.  I tried regular calling him.  He still did not pick up.  What the fuck is going on.  I'm getting worried now.  Did he get upset by my confession of love to him?  Or worse, did he feel disgusted about it?  Should I have remained as just a friend to him?

So many unanswered questions circled my brain.