YOU SURE?

"What did you and Bang PD really talk about?"
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"You've been acting strange ever since you came back from that talk and I don't know why... try to understand me, Taehyung, I-I want to help you- I'm your boyfriend, that's what I'm here for. I can see that you're sad and constantly spacing out in thoughts. My love, if there's something bothering you, please tell me."

Taehyung closed his eyes lightly, when he felt Jeongguk wiping his wet cheeks with his thumb. "Don't cry, Sweetheart. Talk to me, don't hide things from me, I can see how much it's breaking you." He said softly and Taehyung took his trembling bottom lip between his teeth.

"B-Bang PD... he told me that we need to take more care and b-be cautious."

Jeongguk furrowed his eyebrows, this is something he tells them every time, why is Taehyung suddenly so scared because of that? And why did he talk to Taehyung alone and not with both of them? "Is that it?" Jeongguk asked softly and Taehyung nodded against his palms.

He can't tell him the truth. He can't tell
jeongguk that their relationship is hanging on a silk threat, that will break with the smallest mistake.

"I've thought about it a-and i'm scared of the consequences, Gguk. I-I'm scared to lose you." Taehyung shivered lightly and Jeongguk quickly pulled him into a hug. "Don't be scared, I'm here, you won't lose me, silly. What are you talking about?"

Taehyung hugged him back tighter, burying his face into Jeongguk's jacket as soft sobs left his lips. The younger gently brushed his hand through the other's hair, heart hurting when he sees Taehyung like this.

"It's okay, baby," he whispered softly, kissing Taehyung's head. "Do you want to go home?"

Taehyung nodded, but didn't let go of Jeongguk, making the ravenette chuckle softly. "I'm not gonna go anywhere if you let go of me, hyung."

A small smile settled on Taehyung's lips, when he looked to Jeongguk, placing his forehead against his. "I'm sorry.." he whispered and Jeongguk just shook his head responding with a quiet 'it's okay' and a kiss to Taehyung's forehead.

Eventually they took a cab back home, paid the driver more to not tell anyone about who he met. Once they were at home at almost 12AM, the two instantly went to their room, taking the space of the bed next to each other. Taehyung pulled his phone out and pouted when he read a message he got when the two were outside. "Did you see the new schedule, bun?"

Jeongguk turned towards Taehyung and took the older's phone to look at it. "We have practice at 6 tomorrow?!" he groaned, giving the phone back to Taehyung, who was just as frustrated. "It's okay, we had enough free time after dropping that last album," Taehyung said, putting his phone away.

Shortly after he did that, he felt strong arms snake around his waist, causing the familiar butterflies to erupt in his body. "I'd rather sleep," the younger complained and Taehyung just knows he was speaking in a pout.

Smiling softly, Taehyung hugged him back, brushing his hand through the long raven hair of the other, making Jeongguk smile contently. Both closed their eyes.

"Hyung?" Jeongguk softly called out and Taehyung hummed, signaling for him to continue. "I'm sorry that I considered that you are chea-"

"No, it's not your fault. I'm sorry for acting strange.. I didn't want to worry you and when we were at the shop, Bang PD's thoughts were constantly in my head, reminding me to be cautious with you."

A soft sigh left Taehyung's lips when Jeongguk placed a kiss on his neck. "You could've told me, love. You said what PD-nim had said to you wasn't important, but it is... if it involves our relationship, if it involves you, it is important to me. I have the right to know everything, just as much as you do."

Taehyung felt tears burning in his eyes and he was glad that Jeongguk had his face buried in his neck, otherwise he would've seen it. Yes, Jeongguk has the right to know everything, but Taehyung doesn't have the right to tell him everything, even if it's the only thing he wanted.

"I didn't want to worry you" Taehyung lied. And it was the worst feeling ever. He hates liars, people who dare smile up to you and say something you believe in, only for you to find out it wasn't the truth and crush your soul. Most of the time, lying doesn't end up well anyways. Yet, here he is, lying to the love of his life.

"You worried me more when you acted like that," Jeongguk chuckled, placing another kiss to Taehyung's neck, to which he let out a shaky breath, as it send a small shiver down his whole body.

Jeongguk noticed that and smirked mischievously, before continuing to kiss his boyfriend's neck and jaw.

"We should sleep, gguk. we have to wake up early," Taehyung whispered, trying to get out of the younger's grip, but he only held firmer onto him, making it impossible for him to escape.

"Are you tired though?" the black-haired questioned and Taehyung thought for a bit, before shaking his head. "But we have practice in the morning."

"It isn't like we sleep a lot anyways," Jeongguk's lips caressed Taehyung's neck as he spoke, the brunet barely held a moan back. And it just went from zero to one hundred when Jeongguk softly nibbled on his skin, moving his body to lay on his side, and prop his elbow on the mattress, so he was looking down at Taehyung.

"You're so beautiful, Hyung," whispered Jeongguk before leaning down. Their lips met for a long time, where they devoured each other, discovered each others bodies with their hands- not that they don't know them already by heart. Taehyung, with a swift move, was now sitting on top of Jeongguk, legs either side of his thighs. Jeongguk chuckled in the kiss, causing Taehyung's heart to skip a beat.

There's one word Taehyung wouldn't hesitate to use when it comes to describing how being with Jeongguk feels. Magical. His boyfriend does things to him and let's him feel emotions he never knew he'd be capable of feeling. He never thought that he could experience a burst of euphoria on the day Jeongguk asked him to be his boyfriend, when they were alone, out at night. Or he never thought that someday he would understand what books mean, when they say 'there are butterflies in their tummy', but Jeongguk- he showed him how it feels. But adding to that, there was also the anxiety.

From day one on, both were aware that their relationship wouldn't be easy, considering they were public faces. So the fear of getting caught, getting confronted and in the end having to part formed inside of Taehyung, having only intensified after his talk to Bang Sihyuk.

Now he is scared to loose the love of his life to the expectations and responsibilities they have to fulfill being in an idol group.

And it's hard. Hard to hide, hard to be a secret, hard to lie and hard to act.

"Are you alright, love?" Taehyung snapped out of his train of thoughts when Jeongguk stopped kissing him, now looking at him with soft eyes and a worried crease in his eyebrows, as his hand cupped Taehyung's face, thumb tracing soft circles on his skin.

The brunet quickly nodded, a small smile tugging on his lips. The last thing he wants now is for Jeongguk to worry.

Jeongguk moved forward again and Taehyung was ready to kiss him, to taste his lips again, but instead, the younger slowly kissed Taehyung's cheek, the older not missing the soft swiping of the tip of Jeongguk's tongue.

A confused expression formed on Taehyung's face when jeongguk moved back again, doing nothing. "You sure?"

Confused, Taehyung moved his hand to his cheek, his eyes lightly widened and he moved his hands up to wipe his eyes. Taehyung had cried, unknowingly and Jeongguk kissed his tear away.

"I-I'm sorry, Ggu, I didn't notice.." Jeongguk smiled sadly and pulled the older male to his chest, hugging him tight to himself. Still overwhelmed, Taehyung didn't move at first, before completely relaxing. "We're not gonna do this, if youre not feeling well. It was a long day and you look like you really need to rest."

Taehyung felt miserable, weak and now like shit, not being able to please Jeongguk the way he deserves it. "I-I'm sorry, I know you wanted-

"That's not important, baby, don't apologize" he turned their positions to the side, so that they were now lying next to each other, still in a tight hold. "Close your eyes, bub," he whispered soothingly and Taehyung did, snuggling closer to him, feeling like a disappointment. "i l-love you," he stuttered out and Jeongguk hummed, whispering the three words back, while cradling his hand in Taehyung's hair, until the older finally fell asleep.

Jeongguk was still up though, looking to the sleeping beauty in his arms with a fond expression. Something was troubling his love, Taehyung never seemed so distressed before. He understands and knows, there will be consequences to their love if it gets public and he understands why the older was worrying so much, but his behavior makes it hard for Jeongguk to trust him, when he tries to assure that everything was fine.

It breaks Jeongguk's heart to see Taehyung like that, unspilled tears constantly sitting in his eyes, just waiting for the moment to roll down his cheeks.

"I'll make sure that you have no worries, my love," he whispered kissing Taehyung's forehead, whose body shuffled a little closer to him.

Maybe, it was a good thing too that Jeongguk has seen Taehyung like this, now determined to take the older's worries away. And if his worry is getting caught by publicity, Jeongguk will make sure to be cautious.

Much to their relationship's favor.

Jeongguk also slowly drifted off to sleep, with his now calmly sleeping lover in his arms.