
Broken
A/N: songs to set the scenes:
Broken by Lifehouse
Heaven by Julia Michaels (Final scene w/ Sarah & AJ in cabin)
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AJ's POV
I spent the past twenty-four hours in and out of sleep. My emotions were all over the place, and I just wanted to sleep to avoid thinking about everything. After my dance with Sofia, we got an Uber to the house and showered, individually of course. Then we settled in Sofia's bed laying across from each other and just talked. Telling each other how the past five years apart had been, stories about the years we lost together. We were learning the new us. We stayed up all night talking and laughing neither of us wanted to sleep now knowing when we'd have another night like this. Sofia was the first one asleep, and I couldn't help but stare at her until I drifted off to sleep.
The next morning, I told them that I would be flying to Canada to spend the rest of the break with Sarah and her family for Hannah's birthday. Sofia took me to the airport and hadn't said a word to me the whole ride. I understood why she was upset, but at the end of the day, break or not, Sarah was my girlfriend. When we arrived at the airport, I held Sofia in my arms before saying goodbye and letting her know I would call her when I landed. She nodded and wished me a safe flight and said she'd let me know when she got to Canada in a few days.
By the time I had made it to Canada and Sarah's family home, I was exhausted. To say her family was surprised to see me was an understatement, which I understood since nobody knew I was coming. Turns out they were surprised for a whole different reason. As soon as Hannah's eyes met mine, I could see the confusion and panic. This time I was the confused one, but I didn't question it. Sarah's mother let me know that Sarah had gone out with friends and would be back later. Her dad, however, welcomed me and pulled me out back to apologize for his previous behavior which had also surprised me.
I had been so busy dancing with her grandmother, I hadn't even noticed when Sarah had entered the house. What I did notice however was the fact Nick was definitely here. I wasn't an idiot, I mean Melonie texted me about Nick's post of him being here with Sarah, but I figured he was only here a few nights not for the entire break. I knew they had gotten closer when I found his jacket in her car and whenever his name would appear on her phone, Sarah would just clear the message and then give me her undivided attention. I trusted that Sarah was loyal to me, she had never given me a reason to think otherwise. I didn't want to assume she was cheating on me because look how my other relationship turned out because of it. Sofia is the only other person I have ever dated besides Sarah, and I didn't want anything to go wrong.
Once Sarah and Nick started their yelling match, I quietly made my way upstairs after telling her family goodnight. When I opened Sarah's bedroom door and saw Nick's clothes scattered around the room, I felt sick to my stomach thinking I had been cheated on. Trust. Something I was starting to run out of. The only thing I could do was hope that Sarah hasn't been cheating on me. I knew that I would have to talk to her soon. Kenny was nice enough to get me last night with no questions and after seeing the events that happened while I stood outside the car, I'm pretty sure he figured out what had happened. He kindly booked me a hotel and told me if I needed anything else he was just a call away.
I roll over and grab my phone seeing I have over fifty messages from Sarah and even more missed calls. I understand why, it was already 1am here in Canada, I had slept the whole day away. Instead of calling Sarah, I lay in bed contemplating my choices. I need to talk to Sarah and figure out our relationship, but I also want to call Sofia to have a little bit of peace in my life. I know I couldn't run to Sofia every time something happens in my relationship with Sarah. It wasn't fair to anyone. I will do what any other person would do. I roll over to fall back asleep, and I'll just handle it later.
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I smile to myself as I stretch my body. My eyes flutter open only to meet another set of brown eyes. "AHHH!" I scream jumping resulting in me on the floor. I hear Cameron laughing as he leans across the bed, "Are you okay?" I huff and stand up falling back onto the bed. "What are you doing here?" I look at him waiting for an explanation. "I got a call form Sarah asking if I've seen you, and then one from Sofia telling me that she couldn't get ahold of you. So, when I landed, I came to find out what happened," he says, and I roll over onto my back groaning.
Cameron lays beside me joining me in looking at the ceiling. "What happened to you? You only disappear when something's wrong," I was right, and I needed to do better about that. I couldn't run every time something happens or gets hard. I sigh turning towards Cameron grabbing a pillow to hug before I tell him everything. I tell him about my time with Sofia in Florida, and how we talked about our relationship and Dove. I add in how Sarah wanted a break a few days into the trip, and that I told her I'd do whatever she wanted to do. Then how I flew in two days ago to surprise Sarah only to be surprised with Nick. Cameron listened to everything never interrupting me but humming and nodding to let me know he was listening.
"Do you think Sarah cheated on you?" Cameron asks, which only makes me shrug. "I don't think so, but I don't want to assume anything. I'm just going to talk to her about it," he nods chewing the inside of his cheek. "Ask," I tell him knowing he was holding something back. "Are you still in love with Sofia?" I look back up at the ceiling thinking about his question. "I don't know, Cam. My time in Florida was confusing, and my relationship feels confusing with Sarah right now. I think a part of me will always love Sofia unconditionally no matter what. She's my best friend, and she was my first love. My first real relationship. If it wasn't for Sofia, I wouldn't be the person I am today," I side eye, and feel happy with my answer. Sofia and I are different people now, and I don't know if I'm in love with the woman she is now. "Alright, well let's get dressed so we can go eat. I'm starving," Cameron pushes me lightly out of the bed. I shake my head and smile getting up from the bed and doing what he asks.
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I nervously sit in the driver's seat waiting for Sarah to collect her things from her parent's house so we could take it to the rental house. After my brunch with Cameron, I sent Sarah a text letting her know I was coming to pick her up and to have her stuff ready to take to the house. Of course, she asked if we were going to talk about what happened a the other night and where I had been, which reminded me to call Sofia on my way over to Sarah's.
To say Sofia was pissed when I called her was an understatement. I hadn't called when I landed, and I had been ignoring her calls, so her being livid with me was understandable. Once I finally told her that I had been exhausted and slept for at least fifteen hours, she quickly apologized. She made sure to let me know that she would be boarding and on the way to Vancouver soon, and that she'd stop and see once she was settled. Honestly, I couldn't wait until she got here. I really need a hug right now.
I quickly get out of the car once I see Sarah exiting the house with her bags along with a few more in Hannah's hand. I groan at how much she packed. I grab the bags from the both of them and make my way towards the trunk placing three in there and the other two in the backseat. All five of her bags wouldn't fit in the trunk, especially with my suitcase and backpack already in there. "So, you two are going to be living together for the next couple of months?" Hannah asks crossing her arms standing at the bottom of the steps. I nod watching her and Sarah embrace. "I'll see you later, and don't forget Collins, you promised to watch my boys for my birthday," Hannah yells over to me and I chuckle a smile spreading across my face. "I'll come pick them up at four. Make sure you pack them a bag to spend the night. I'll just drop them off the next day around noon, maybe? I know I don't have to be on set until two that day," I give her a thumbs up before waving goodbye. I round the car to get inside. Sarah stays outside the car talking to her a sister a little bit longer before she gets into the car.
"Are we going to talk about last night?" Sarah asks as I pull out from her parents' house. "Put your seatbelt on," I mumble turning the heat on. I know it was about to rain, and the temperature was going to drop. Sarah sighs putting her seatbelt on quickly before sitting back in her seat. She knows I'm not in the mood to talk to her right now.
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I pull up to the small cabin I rented for our time here and hear Sarah gasp. She talks about these cabins in the woods that she saw when she was younger and how she wanted to live in when she got older. I know we would only be here for a couple of months, so instead of staying at a hotel or apartment near set, I figured that I could just rent us a cabin instead. I was trying to show Sarah that I do listen and pay attention to her when she's telling me stuff, whether it was stuff we talked about at lunch or things she'd sleepily mumble to me while lying in bed at 3am. This place is thirty minutes from the forest they'd be shooting some of Descendants 3, so I figure it would be a perfect place to stay.
"You didn't," Sarah says, and I chuckle softly nodding. I park the car and pull the keys to the cabin out of the cup holder handing one to her. Sarah squeals excitedly rushing out of the car and runs up the stairs. I smile turning the car off and decide to follow her. I'll grab the stuff a little later.
"This is so beautiful," Sarah says memorized by the inside. I close the door behind me sticking the keys into my pocket as I observe my girlfriend. I explored the cabin earlier with Cameron when I came to get the keys. This place was massive. It had six bedrooms, a game room with a projector and screen for movies, a hot tub big enough for 9 people, and a beautiful view. The only reason why I got such a big place was because I figured the cast would spend a lot of time here too. I mean Sarah, China, and Sofia's birthdays were next month, and Cameron's birthday was the month after. I knew we would need a place to celebrate, and what better place than some place we can crash at afterwards. I leave Sarah to explore the large house and I make my way back outside to grab our things before it starts to rain. I place them inside the front door as I finish up.
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I bring mine and Sarah's last bags to the bedroom, having no clue where she disappeared to. "Thank you," Sarah mumbles behind me scaring me as I place my suitcase on the bed. "You didn't have to do all of this, but you did," she pushes a piece of hair behind her ear looking around the master bedroom. "About yesterday," Sarah starts to take a seat on the bench at the end of the bed. I sigh making my way towards her and I take a seat beside her. "I didn't cheat on you with Nick. I've known that Nick liked me in the beginning when we were a few months into our relationship so I wouldn't hang out with him alone because we were still new, and I didn't want to jeopardize it. As time went on and our relationship grew and got stronger, I started hanging out with Nick alone and even then, nothing ever happened. He was the person that I talked to about our relationship when we had arguments or disagreements. He always gave me great advice. He never crossed or overstepped any boundaries. So naturally when I found out that you had gone to Florida with Sofia for the week, I called Nick to talk about it and ask what he thought it meant. He was the one that told me to try and see it from your perspective and I did, but that didn't mean it didn't hurt any less. When Nick surprised me by flying out to spend the break with me, that's when I decided we needed a break. We both needed time to think and make sure that this is what we both really want," Sarah explains, and I nod.
I turn to look at her fidgeting with my ring, "Why didn't you tell me Nick was here with you?" My words come out as barely a whisper with how dry my throat is. "I didn't really think about it. Not in a way where you shouldn't know but I just didn't think about it. I didn't think it would be a problem whether I brought it up or not," I stare at her a moment wondering what goes through her head sometimes. She does realize that we wouldn't be in this predicament if she would've just been honest with me. Although, I wouldn't have taken the break part of all of this so easily if she had.
There are many obvious questions that I want to ask, and I know Cameron said to talk about everything even the little things, but what if I don't like the answers that I get?
"Okay," I breath out looking at the ground. "Okay? What does that mean?" Sarah asks standing up and I shrug not really knowing what words to use. "It means okay? You said you didn't cheat, and I trust you," I can tell Sarah is shocked and a tad bit frustrated. "That's it? AJ, you ignored me for almost two days just to say okay? Do you know how worried I was? I thought I ruined our relationship and that you hated me," I stand shaking my head and I take her hands into mine. "Did you do something that would ruin our relationship?" I watch as Sarah bites her lip before she nods. "I shared a bed with Nick. We didn't do anything, except cuddle but that was mostly because we stayed up talking or we were watching a movie off my laptop," Sarah mumbles. I look up at the ceiling trying to not think about someone else touching my girlfriend. I can't get mad at her. I mean Sofia and I had held hands and shared a few intimate moments while I was with her in Florida. "I shared a bed with Sofia my last night there. We stayed up and caught each other up on what we had been doing the past five years. We didn't cuddle but I still laid next to her as she slept," I say as Sarah drops our hands and slowly crosses her arms over her body. If I leave out the other details, we can work past this.
"So, what happened with you two this week?" Sarah asks and I walk back over to the bed to start unpacking my bag. "Um, not much. We argued the first two days, and we spend a lot of time with her family. We did talk about everything, and things are good now," I say walking over to the dresser to place some clothes in. "Are you two friends now?" Sarah asks confused. "Yeah, we figured that we'd be working together these next couple of months so might as well be friends to make everything easier. We're in a better place now," I smile looking to Sarah who is now helping me unpack. "What are you two going to do about Dove? She's going to fuck with both of you now that you're on good terms."
"Nothing. It's all in the past now. I don't want to hold grudges," I state, which was the truth. I didn't want to hold anything against Dove, but I know to stay away from her. I figure we are moving on from everything now. Start fresh.
I feel arms snake around my waist while I pull out some of my shirts to hang up. "Are we okay?" Sarah says into my back. I turn around still in her arms and wrap my arms around her shoulders. "We're okay. Just be honest with me next time," I pull back to look into her eyes and put my hands on her face rubbing my thumbs over her cheeks. "Sarah, I should've put more effort in this week, and I should've just gone with you to visit your family. I'm sorry, and I'm thankful for such an amazing girlfriend who, although it took time, understood why I needed to go." I kiss her forehead then her nose and hover over lips. I smile at the slight frustration because I stopped. "AJ, I forgive you. Please just shut up and kiss me. I missed you," her breath is shaky on her last few words.
I kiss her slowly until we need to come back up for air. She walks me backwards until I feel the backs of my knees hit the bed. I sit down and she climbs up onto my lap. I place my hands on her lower back to keep her from falling off. Our lips meet again, much hungrier and more heated this time. She trails kisses down my jaw and neck, as my breath quickens. "Sarah," I barely get out and she brings her head back up laying her forehead against mine. "Sarah, we don't have to do anything tonight," I whisper into the air between us. We don't do this very often. Our relationship is about more than physical stuff like sex, and I never pressure her into anything. Sarah brushes her nose against mine still breathing heavily, "AJ, I want this. I want you." I smile against Sarah's lips standing up, "I want this too." I turn around and place Sarah on the bed. I kiss down her jaw and neck, and I look up at her as I work my hand up her thigh, "Is this okay?" "Yes."
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A/N: End Game thoughts? Should AJ explore this reforming friendship with Sofia, and see where it goes? Or keep her at arms length, focusing solely on Sarah?
Sarah?
or
Sofia?
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