I don't know what have I written.... Or its just my frustration on yesterday's or recent episodes....
I was so nervous at the time of posting don't know where this story gone....
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And the people who are waiting for dil Ne Ki hain gustakhiya please be patient, the thing that i wrote ahead parts of that story many Times but i myself is not satisfied with that so i deleted.... So I'm not posting it.... I want my that once i get satisfied that the part is ok then i will defenetly post dil Ne Ki hain gustakhiya.... I'm working on it and will post soon....
Today enjoy this, and please give your views.... Should I continue it or end it as OS or TS..??
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Enough of my banter and here is the update
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"Sorry Ishita i didn't wanted to hide anything from you... But i had too... Because Shagun asked me to hide."
His words trailed in her ears and she with a shock moved back standing still.....
Raman saw her in a shocked state and didn't understood what happened..... He moved ahead to hold her.... He holds her by shoulders and starts shaking her.
Raman-ishita what happened...?? Say something atleast.... I know i shouldn't have hid this but i have to..... Because....
He couldn't complete his sentence....
Ishita-because.... Shagun asked you to...... Right....??
Raman saw a lot of complain, accusation in her eyes except one thing... Tears only tears were missing.....
Raman-ish....
Ishita-shagun... Shagun... Shagun... Always... Everytime Shagun.... What am i raman...??
Raman-what nonsense question is this..?? You are my wife.... I love you...
Ishita-really..?? I don't think so. You say that I'm your wife.... Then remember your wife was crying in front of you miserably.... My Amma slapped me.... Disowned me..... Insulted me in front of world.... I was blindly supporting you.... And what you did....?? You just stood quite... Why..?? Just because.... Your ex-wife Shagun asked you to.
Raman-ishita... Shagun lost her baby.. So i have to be there...
Ishita-why....????
Listening to raman Ishita shouted at the top of her voice.... Leaving him stunned.
Ishita-kyu... Raman kyu.... Always Shagun... You always leave my side because she needs you.... Today also....
Why she didn't called her husband why she didn't called any of us... Why you... Always you only....
Raman-she needed me because...
Ishita-no raman.... I needed you... My sister died raman... I needed you.. My mother disowned me... My Amma appa disowned my kids... That little pihu she was just going on crying she was shouting on everyone....
"my Papa is not murderer" my adi tried to mend everything but appa shrugged him off calling him not my blood. Our kids were fighting with each other making rivalry in business.
All this was happening here your family needed you raman.... Specially I.... I begged you... To tell truth... I was so scared to loose you again but what you did.... You didn't bothered even once to look at my state...??
You are explaining me that Shagun lost her baby... As if i don't know how it feels..??
Let me remind you Mr Bhalla.. I was also the one who lost my baby... And the worst part is this phase was never meant to come in my life and now it will never come even.... That time i needed my husband, every women needs her husband not any outsiders.
Just because she is fertile and and can give kids to everyone either it's surrogacy or her own....?? Just because i can't give kids to my own family.. I deserve this..?? Who is she raman.?? And who am I.?? Why... Why Always Me... Why I'm left alone and you have to go to Shagun..??
Ishita cried her heart out sitting lifeless on floor.
Raman remembered his every incident where he left Ishita for Shagun.. During Amma accident he sided with Shagun due to adi..... Later he realised and punished him. He totally ignored Ishita on her condition in fact he made Ishita apologies to Shagun in front of all too. And when h realised he was back to Ishita begging her to be with him because he needs her. And she without asking anything just moved on forgiving his every deed.
Then after she lost her baby he decided to for surrogacy... And too with whom.... His ex Shagun.. He always left away Ishita after shagun's one call.... Never ever thought to clarify once.... Because surrogacy should be decision of both. He never even bothered to ask her that is surrogacy her choice or not.
The reality of life was check and mate.
Raman cares for Shagun more. Just because she has a fertile womb and just because Ishita is infertile..... She should be treated like a tissue paper in his life..??
Raman's mind struck everything as a replay played at that time.
His wife lost her sister, he didn't consoled her! Police blamed him of murder he remained quite he didn't thougt even once what will the consequences of his silence on Ishita. She was in two dilemma either to choose her husband or to Mourne at her sister death.... No one stood for her.... She cried thinking she will loose him..... But he had no effect. Her parents slapped her.... Disowned her.... Still he stood there quite watching his love getting insulted... Why..??...
Just because his ex wife Shagun asked him not to tell anyone..... His love his woman was crying her heart out because she was the one loosing everything her sister,fear of going to loose her husband and then her parents trust.... And what not.... Who was with her.... But what he did he just stood their watching and kept quite why...?? Because Shagun asked him.... Why can't romi or anyone else could go..... Why only he was important to call for her treatment or infection or whatever..... Why can't anyone else.... His Children were getting insulted and disowned from every where. They needed him but he was no where to be found..... Because he was nursing his ex-wife giving company in hospital....
Raman looked at pihu who was standing at door full teary eyes as if she heard everything...... Her eyes were stick to only Ishita.... She walked ahead and kept her tiny hand on her shoulder. Ishita looked at her.... But couldn't fake today... That yes she is fine and not crying.
Pihu started crying more seeing her crying.
Pihu-ishimaa don't cry please....
Both hugged each other.
Pihu-im sorry ishimaa... I too became selfish and left you.... When you needed a shoulder to cry.
Raman came forward but pihu stopped him and asked him to stay away.
Pihu-Papa here everyone was blaming you... I was fighting with everyone saying that you are innocent but.... I couldn't fight because I was too small... Ishimaa supported me then also and what we did we just left her....
Not only you Papa I also left her.... Ruhi didi adi bhaiya were lost in their fight only......
Raman goes near Ishita and and sits beside her near floor.... She was going on crying.... Just saying one thing.....
"I needed you more raman"
Raman just hugged her tightly consoling her and crying with her in same way..... Her sobs gone increased as her hold clutched on his shirt.... His shirt went wet by her tears......
She was right she needed him more but he was not with her.....
Infact no one was with her accept two people mihika and toshiji.....
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Pihu ran away closing her mouth and suppressing her sobs by her palms. She ran down and collided with ruhi....
Ruhi-what happened pihu why are you crying and where are you running away......
Pihu just looked at ruhi and remembered Adelaide moment when ruhi was the one who made her understood that what relations are...!!!!
Pihu remembered the news how ruhi insulted adi in front of whole world......
Ruhi-pihu tell princess what happened...??
Pihu-sorry didi i collided by mistake and i can solve my issues on my own......
Ruhi-pihu how are you talking with me... Your elder sister.... Where are your manners....??
Pihu-did i said something wrong..?? Why are you angry..?? I just said what you said.... You don't remember..??
Ruhi-pihu... What are you talking about.... Listen tell me... I will sort everything I'm your elder sister...
Pihu-no need didi I'm big enough to solve my issues....
Don't you remember...?? You said same things with adi bhaiya... So if you don't need your big brother by your side.... Then i too don't need my big sister by my side.... I'm fine......
Pihu ran outside shrugging ruhi off....
Ruhi-what the...what was that..??
Pihu came out just then Amma came out and saw pihu sobbing..
Amma-pihu... Ayyyooo kanna..!! What happened..??
Pihu looked at Amma and remembered how she shrugged her off and disowned pihu and Ishita.....
Pihu-nothing it's my problem i will sort it out....
Amma-kanna.... You will not tell paathi too....
Pihu-which paathi i don't have any paathi.... You disowned my mother someday back.... And how much i remember you yourself said that you are nothing to me...!!
Amma-sorry kanna... I was angry..... And...
Pihu-and today I'm angry.... So please don't come near me.... When my mother needed shoulder no one was there not even me.... So why now....?? Just go away.... I'm fine alone....
Adi was coming at home and heard pihu Amma talk....
Pihu saw adi.. And ran to him hugging him tightly.
Amma-adi.... See na what pihu is saying....
Adi-im sorry but do we know each other..??
Appa-adi you are talking to your paathi....
Adi-im sorry.... But someday back you reminded me that I'm not ishimaa's blood so how can i be related to you....
Appa Amma both kept quite remembering the day, they disowned adi and pihu....
Adi-we are criminal's kids and our mother is liar so.... Let it be... Like this only....
Pihu-adi bhaiya please let's go from here..... I don't want to be here.
Adi carried pihu in her arms but it was too late. Adi felt pihu's grip loosing... He looked at her and she was unconscious....
Adi-pihuuuuu.... Wake up pihu....!!
Amma and appa came forward but adi stopped them.
Adi-please i can take care of my sister. Please stay away....
Adi picked pihu in his arms and ran inside calling Ishita and raman....
Ruhi saw them and ran to Pihu....
Adi-ishimaa..... Papa.... Please come fast... Something happened to Pihu..... Ishimaa...
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