~Flashback~

Just end it here.
No one would care.
There's antidepressants in the cabinet.
They could help you reach happiness.

There's a slight knock on the door, followed by his sweet voice. He asks me something but I couldn't make out the words. I just sat there staring at the cabinet. My cheeks glazed over by salty tears.

The same ghostly thought polluted my mind.
End it.

Endless time passed by before there was a harder knock on the door. His soft voice dripped in fright and concern, "H-ho Seok, are you in there? Please open the door"

My mind and body ignored it, as I continued to question myself.

A few moments passed before he spoke again. This time his voice was serious and filled with fear of the unknown, "Ho Seok open this door, if you don't I'll break it down"

Tears begin to swell up in my eyes. Why am I like this? All I do is hurt the people who care about me. End it.

"Open this door!" He pleads in agony. The handle jiggled, the sound of his hand slapping against the door echoes in my ears. "Please", he sobs, "I want to love you".

My thoughts pause at the sound of those words. Those words. Saved my life.

The tears began to fall from my eyes. I slowly got up, cracking the door open. On the other side I saw Jimin sitting there, head in his hands. I opened it a little more and his eyes darted up. The pain in his eyes pierced through my heart, causing more tears to roll down my cheeks.

He stood up pushing open the door. Our eyes never breaking apart. A tear rolled down his cheek as he embraced me. His warmth flooded through my body as I stood there. Blank. I wanted to hug him back and show my love for him but I couldn't. All I could do was stand there tears soaking my cheeks.

"N-never, ever do t-that again" he pleaded as he choked on the massive amount of tears falling from his eyes. "I don't want to lo-lose you". He tightened the hug. Making me realize, Jimin is the man who loves me unconditionally. He's the love of my life. My life line. My everything. Without him I just couldn't go on.

"Ji-jimin I..." -I get interrupted by his finger pressing up against my lips- "shhhh, I know" he whispers, as he wipes my tears.

~End of flash back~

That day was the first day in a long time since I felt truly loved.

But now I'm sitting in this bathroom. And once again the same thoughts roam through my mind. But this time they're worse.

I lean on the sink staring at myself in our mirror. My bloodshot eyes shedding tears.
The pills. In the cabinet. Happiness lies in the cabinet.

"S-stop.... leave me alone!", I press my hands up against my head tightly clenching my hair by the roots. The same words kept flashing through my mind.

Pills. Cabinet. Happiness.
"GO AWAY!!!"
He doesn't love you.
"S-stop, h-he does. I know he does"
No one loves you.
"H-he..... he loves me.... he loves me. Right?"
Pills.
"No"
Cabinet.
"N-no stop"
Happiness.
"H-happiness?"

Before my brain even processed what I was doing, I saw the bottle of pills in my hand. I squeezed the bottle, "Happiness" I whispered reassuringly. I popped open the bottle, hesitantly pouring all of the pills into my mouth. I vigorously swallowed all the pills that my throat would allow to pass.

I glanced at myself in the mirror and then my mind began to spin, my vision getting blurry.

"Ha-hap-"

Black......

A distant but fluffy voice floods through my ears, "Hoseok".

I giggle, the fluffy voice tickling my ear drums. It repeats again, this time a little louder,
"Hoseok".

A soft warm hand touches mine. I smile, my eyes fluttering open to look at the creature.

My eyes make out a torso.

[Jimin POV]

I grasp his hand, squeezing it for reassurance that my love, Hoseok, was still there. I stared at his closed eyes, wishing that they would open. The doctor said that he would be woozy from the drugs for awhile. The though of him waking up high on drugs worried me like crazy. His eyes twitched and eventually fluttered open. As he woke up from his overdose of antidepressants I gently squeezed his hand, hope once again filling my heart.

"Hoseok.... Hoseok. Your awake.", I said as a tear rolled down my cheek. His raspy voice began to slightly giggle and I figured it was the drugs. But I didn't care. What mattered most was that he was here, and he was alive and breathing.

There was a slight knock on the door as the doctor walked into the room. He walked in with a file of papers and a slight smile.

"Looks like he finally woke up", he said with a smile on his face.

"Yep, he finally woke up", I murmur, a faint smile forming on my lips as I tightly held his hand in mine.

"We will soon run some test to check on how he's doing", the doctor said as he quickly checked the files.

We sat there in silence as I continued to stare at Hoseok's face. It was still his beautiful face but his skin was fairly pale and he lacked his personality and his giant smile that was always on his face.

"H-how long will it take him to recover?", I stutter. Remembering his goofy personality he once had.

The doctor clears his throat, "Well you see Mr. Park Jimim, we are currently unable to determine that. He did ingest a lot of antidepressants and this early in the recovery we are unable to determine how fully he will recover".

"So, he may never be himself ever again?" I bluntly say, still looking at the face of my lover. My eyes swelling up with tears.

"There's a possibility of him loosing his memories and possible brain damage. But this facility is the best in what we do there's no need to worry Mr. Park Jimin"

Hot salty tears began to pour from my eyes, "I-is that the worst that could ha-ppen?", I question, choking on my tears.

"No there is also a.... a possibility of death", the doctor responded with slight hesitation.

My heart immediately dropped. I couldn't possibly live without him. It's unthinkable to live without the love of my life by my side. I rested my head on his torso my hands tightly holding his, my tears staining his shirt.

As soon as I thought it couldn't get any worse the machine began to make this horrible rapid beeping sound. I quickly looked at Hoseok who was laying there his eyes slowly rolling back into his head. I squeezed his hand harder as I let out a painful scream. My tears blurring my vision.

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~MiinYoongii