It's been almost a week since I told Severus about what happened between me and Sirius. And let me tell you he was soo not pleased to know that happened. When I told him he got this look on his face like he was truly disgusted, he spoke a few words, ones that should never be repeated to a child. But after that he calmed down and told me to figure out what I truly wanted. So here I am, cleaning out a mould growing, monster inhabiting bath tub; thinking about whether or not I should be with Sirius or not.

I made a very good list about why I should date Sirius and why I shouldn't date him. Lets just say the 'why I shouldn't date him' section was starting its third page as we speak. Sirius wasn't making this decision any better. After I told him I was thinking about what to do he's been hitting on me every second. The kids- except for Hermione- think this is purely funny, plus I'm sure the ginger twins even gave Sirius a list of pick of lines. Some are creative and some are just plain...dirty.

I got up an stretches my back, cleaning was so trying! Why couldn't I just use magic to clean it up you ask? Well Molly took my wand after I tried hexing Sirius, his pick up lines weren't settling well with me...at all.

"Molly can I have my wand back?! I just want to clean the tub and I promise to use it to clean no hexing I promise!," I begged walking into the giant living room. "Oh, Ron where's your mum?"

Sitting on the couch wasn't Molly except her son Ron with Harry, and Hermione. They were hunched behind the couch, a spray bottle and a bucket full of doxies sitting right next to them. Ron sprayed some more dark liquid Spray on the curtain and stared at it as if something were ready to pop out, before answering me.

"She went out to buy more Doxycide, were running out," he said shaking the dark liquid bottle. "Won't be back until dark, I'm sure. She ends up riffling through Madame Malkins store."

I heaved a heavy sigh and skunked down onto the couch,"Finally some rest!"

Harry laughed but sat next to me followed closely by Ron,"Good. We've been cleaning all the curtains since yesterday."

A reluctant Hermione dropped down onto the armchair in front of us , a small smile spread on her face,"Schools about to start! I can't wait to go back to Hogwarts, also I'll be needing your help, Ron and Harry. S.P.E.W isn't going to start itself you know."

My eyebrows scrunched together,"What's SPEW?"

Ron laughed as Hermione looked miffed,"It's not SPEW, it's S.P.E.W. Society for the Promotion of Elfish Welfare, I'm going to get Elves to stand up for themselves." She finished with a huff.

"But elves like being treated as slaves," I said, still slightly confused. "But Hermione I've got to say you have some guts! Keep up the good work! Now who wants some food...I'm sure Remus can whip us something good to eat"

I say brightly and jump up leaving a beaming Hermione, confused Ron, and an amused Harry to go find Remus. Because I have no idea how to cook. :)

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Ron sighed in content at the sight of the food being places onto the long dinning table. His eyes watched hungrily as a whole chicken flew slowly past him and right when he was going to reach for a leg it sprung upward almost hitting the ceiling top.

"Fred and George Weasley! Just because you are of ages doesn't mean you get to use it all the time now! Especially when your teasing Ron, now sit down and eat!," Molly yelled at the two snickering ginger twins.

I smiled at the two, god they so reminded me of James and Sirius together. A plate landed in front of me, food already piled onto it, causing me to jump slightly. Sirius chuckled and sat down across me, his plate looked like a mountain compared to mine.

"Thank you," I mumbled digging my fork into some mashed potatoes.

He just nodded his head, making curls fall over his eyes, my hand twitched and it took my all not to brush them away. I'm sure I stared for far to long because he looked up. His grey warm eyes stared deep into my brown ones. My heart skipped a beat and heat raised up to my neck and cheeks but I couldn't look away, I wanted to keep staring into those eyes of his. I loved the way they made me feel. Like he could almost read my thoughts and know how I felt. Not vulnerable but like he understood me, something not many people in this world could. Well except for Severus.

"How was everyone's day? By the way thank you Remus for this wonderful meal," Molly asked waking me up from my day dream.

I jumped back in surprise, we were still at the dinning table. the heat on my neck spreading over my checks an ears. I dropped my head and began to eat the food Remus had made.

Remus chuckled,"It's not a problem, I'm glad to have made it."

"Ugh! Liar, if it wasn't for me you wouldn't even had made it! Plus you made me peel and chop everything," I scoffed. And held up my index finger,"Do you see this cut?!"

Remus stared at the cut before raising an eyebrow at me,"Mae, that's a paper cut."

"I know that! I'm just saying that I could have easily gotten it from a knife!"

Everyone laughed at our -well MY sudden outburst. Everyone except Molly, she simply stared at me, her eyebrows scrunched up together.

"Dear, why didn't you just use your wand? Would have been more easier."

Now it was my turn to stare at her ,"What? But you have my wand so I-,"

The words got caught in my throat. From the look on her face, she didn't have my wand any more. Then, who did?

"You don't have my wand," I mumbled as I looked at everyone around the table. "Then who does?"

Molly stood up her hands set on her hips, a cold stare sent Ron's way,"I told Ron to give it to, seeing as I was leaving," Ron swallowed heavily and blushed under our gaze. "What did you do with Mae's wand?!"

"Well, I-ugh- I got sidetracked so I gave it to Harry,"he stammered and gave a sigh of relief when our stares were lifted.

Harry looked like a deer caught in headlights,"I wanted to trim my firebolt so I gave it to Hermione."

"Crookshanks got stuck under the sofa so I have it to Fred and George." Crookshanks meowed as if to claim this true....smart cat.

"And we gave it to Ginny," the ginger twins grinned obviously enjoying this moment of chaos.

"Remus," she squeaked out.

I glared at Remus, who held up his palms, "Where's the wand, wolf boy?"

His mouth twitched at my chosen nickname,"Relax, I gave it to..." He trailed off in a sudden epiphany and raised an eyebrow at the person across from me. A smug grin plastered on his face, a glint of mischief flashed in his grey eyes.

"Okay, mutt, hand over my wand," I growled only to have the grin turn into a full out smile, the jerk.

Sirius tilted his head back letting out a laugh that made the pit of my stomach tingle. My cheeks burned as he sent me a wink but other wise handed over my wand.

"Thank you," I grumbled.

"What an eventful evening," Fred said smiling while George covered up his laughter with a cough.

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The fire crackled and the wind beat against the windows making them rattle in protest. We all sat either on the floor or on the sofa listening to Sirius ramble on about a prank him and James managed to pull. I managed to smile despite the clenching in my heart did with ever story told.

"Half of the Slytherin house had to stay over night at the Hospital wing, McGonagall was not the least bit happy about it but hey at least they had to forfeit the Quidditch game," Sirius finished off laughing slightly.

"Yes, and our two best players were banned from playing for two games," I chastised him.

Sirius glared down at me just as Harry and Ginny yawned. They both looked at each other and blushed, I bit my lip trying to stop the smile from growing on my lips, they were just so cute. I hope they ended up together.

Molly got up from her seat stifling a yawn as she ordered the teens to bed,"We need to spend all day tomorrow packing trunks."

After a goodnight from each kid and a kiss on the cheek from Harry, the only ones left were Remus, Sirius, and I. But after a while of good comfortable silence Remus excused himself off to one of the guest bed rooms to sleep.

Sirius just stared moodily at the fire. I sighed and jabbed him the tip of my wand.

"Will you stop being such a girl! It's not the end of the world, so harry's going back to Hogwarts. It's the best for him, plus you won't be alone. You've got me and good old Remus, here to keep your tail wagging."

Sirius looked up at me with empty eyes,"Your mistaken Remus is leaving to do underground work and I'm sure Dumbledore will give you some job and then I'll be stuck here."

"Nope," I said popping the p'. "I told Grandfather that I'm staying here with you. Don't want you drinking yourself away now do we."

Sirius bright smile grew,

and i couldn't help the small the butterflies that fluttered in my stomach. My face lit up as I stared into his renewed warm grey eyes, I found comfort in knowing that I could change his mood with just a few chosen words.

"Did you decide on something?," he asked the smile still on his face.

Totally wasn't expecting that to come out of his mouth, it's wasn't like I haven't decided on anything I mean I already did. And I'm sure my decision wasn't the one he wanted. "Yes I have."

He beamed down at me, hope lit behind his grey eyes,"And?"

I looked down at my fingers and twirled them around ,"Sirius, I've loved you for a long time. Actually since I first saw you in our First year of Hogwarts. Everyone knew that I've always wanted to date you even when I told you that you made me sick to my stomach I just wanted to be yours and love you," Taking my chances, i looked up. Bad choice, he looked so shocked and so completely happy. Almost as if he didnt know that i was so much in love with him, he probably didn't. " So I can't believe I'm saying this but I can't be with you at this time."

Out of the things that I've confessed to him maybe the last part is what got him to him. His face went from happy to boiling angry in one second.

"You," he stopped as if to control some of his angry,"You can't do that! You can't get my hopes up and then have them crushed down, what was the point in you telling me your in love with me then?!"

I sighed,"Because I want you to now that I love you even know with your brooding and tantrums. I love you, I always will. And I want you to know that even though our world is so messed and upside down as of right now, we can always have something later on into the future."

His expression was unreadable but he leaned down and kissed me lightly on the lips. He pulled away leaving them tingling and burning for more than just one peck. A little smile formed on his god like lips,"I don't have tantrums."

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P.S. I changed the chapter name bcuz as I was writing it early I felt like I would leave them off as friends but then when I was typing it down this ending formed so now there something more than friends but less that having a relationship does that make sense.

Authors note

So I finally updated....I'm a jerk...I know...but I'm happy because I get to upload this and I really like what I've written. Hope you guys do! :)

Also this is part 1bcuz I'm writing this at night and I have the second park but I really want to make it perfect.