Hi there! I'm Natalie. Well, people call me Hannah. 'Cause I don't like my first name, it just reminds me of my so called 'twin'.
I just don't wanna have the same initial as he does. Geez, I don't know what's so good about him that our parents chose him and put me up for adoption.

So yeah, what a way to start my story. Whatever, I just really hate him. By the way, he is not aware of my existence.

Well let's start again then shall we. Hannah, Black, 17 and I live in London. There's nothing interesting actually turning 18 in September and now I'm .

I already graduated high school since I finished my junior year before summer. I am now going to start college after summer. Yeah boring life I know. I just wanna major music and become a music teacher actually.

My foster family says that I take down my singing from my family. I did say I hate my 'twin' but I love my biologically related older brother. Not my 'twin'. Well unlike my 'twin' my older brother is aware of my existence and would call me every month since he was aware of my existence.

We met a few times after I turned 14 and met him and my whole family. He flew to London just to see me every three months. I purposely made him promise me that I will not have to see my 'twin'. Because I promised mom on our 18th Birthday I get to slam my certificate on his cake.

Just kidding. My mom wants it to be a surprise for my 'twin' which I've tried so much to not make it happen but I have to obey my mom don't I. She actually want it to be when we're both 16 but I had exams so I had to use my 18th birthday instead.

The only reason I don't want to do this is because I won't get anything for myself because he probably won't be happy if he knew that he has a sister that is worthless like me. So, I won't get happy he won't get happy. Lose lose situation. But I didn't tell mom this and let her see for herself.

I am so not looking forward to this birthday 'surprise'.

Well, I did say I don't hate my family because I actually met all of my family members accept for my 'twin', because he was at a party and didn't bring his phone so mom tried to contact him but the phone rang in his room instead. But I know how he looks like. My mom just found out that I am her daughter when I was fourteen. I was suspecting things when I turned 14, I was curious as why in my entire 14 years old of life have I not look at my birth certificate.

Then my foster mom thought that it was best if I find out by myself. So, I looked at my own certificate and I cried myself to sleep for a whole week. I shut everyone out and let me tell you I lost about six kilos on that week. I was adopted and my real family was miles away from me. My foster mom then bought me a plane ticket to go and see my real family for two days. I wanted it to be longer but i have exams so I had to go for two days only.

Back to the present, I'm currently on a plane with my best friend, Harley on our way to support our friend, Ella who is auditioning for the X-factor. Harley always wants me to audition but I always refuse to because whenever I think about auditioning I have this weird feeling.