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(Please let me have some feed back on this update. How I miss you all)

"Are you ok baek?" Lucas asks as I stop just outside the cafe.

"I can't do this I'm sorry. I have so much on my plate and being here with you isn't fixing it, I'm sorry Lucas but I need to go"

Walking away holding tight onto my bag I reach my car. Throwing my bag in the back I climb in slamming the door closed and taking a deep breath. Chanyeol has crossed the line today and today is the day I sort my life out. I have my solo album out very soon. I have SuperM promotions and a EXO concert all to get ready for.

Clipping on my seat belt I start the car and head to the nearest phone store to buy a new phone. Once I have that already and sorted I ring Suho remembering his number off by heart.

"Hello"

"Hey Suho its me Baek"

"Baek where are you are you ok?"

"I'm ok I guess, you heard what happened after I left the dorm?"

"Yes Sehun told me, baek is lucas with you?"

"No I am alone. I got a new phone so this is my new number. Can you send me everyones number"

"Baek you have all the numbers in the cloud on your email"

"Oh right yeah sorry Suho I forgot"

"That's ok, I'm worried about you baek"

"I'm not gonna lie I am hanging on by a thread"

I start to ball my eyes out sobbing down the phone making poor suho panic.

"Baek..... Baek.... Tell me where you are?"

"In the carpark in front of the phone store"
I sniff and try wipe my tears.

"Look Baek, meet me at the old secret park, do you remember it?"

"Yeah I remember"

"OK you head there now and mamma bear will be there soon"

Giggling to myself as the name we gave Suho I start the car and hang up the phone heading to the secret park.

***

Parking the car I climb out and start to walk to the little park where me and Suho use to go to talk without anyone else around. It was off the beaten track away from the roads or paths people out walking would miss it.

Finally making it through the overgrown bushes I reach my destination and take a seat on the grass looking out at some beautiful colourful tress blowing in the wind.

"Hey, oh come here" Suho arrives kneeling down hugging me into his chest as I burst out crying.

"Let it all out sweetheart" he whispers rocking me back and forward untill I finally calm down.

"Hey I brought you food" he moves and sits beside me opening a little bag and passing me some food. "Thank you, I didn't realise how hungry I was till now" I pop open the lid off the food and start eating to the smiles of Suho my momma bear.

"How you feeling now?" he asks making me huff out a little.

"I'm tired and exhausted mentally Suho. I'm trying to do the right things but it isn't good enough. I have so much to do and I don't know where to start". I put the empty food container down and wipe my mouth in a napkin.

"I know you are, I can see it in you. So talk to me and get everything off your chest" he opens a can of pop and passes it to me.

"Well me and Chanyeol made love lastnight. I thought it was makeup sex but turned out it was break up sex" I watch as he just stares at me "Go on" he says moving closer to me sitting beside me with our shoulders touching. This is his way of letting us know he cares without hugging us because if he does hug us we will cry out and not get our feelings out like we should.

"Well you know what happend this morning him calling me a whore. Then he drove to meet Lucas pretending to be me and when he got there he...... He...."

"Its ok baek you can tell me"

"He threw all the lingerie at Lucas and called me a whore in front of him. He told him he could have me and left. I was so embarrassed Suho how could he"

Turning to face Suho looking at me so softly and worried I burst out crying.

"Hey shhhh it's ok" he grabs my hand in his holding it tight as comfort.

"Lucas was still there after I asked Sehun and him to leave. He walked me outside and asked me for a coffee. I said yes and then stopped outside the cafe and told him I couldn't"

"Why did you stop, why not go in with him it was just coffee right? " I look at Suho and wonder is this a trick question. Is he trying to see where my feelings are.

"I stopped because it felt wrong. I am Vulnerable right now and don't need anything more to mess it all up" he smiles as if proud of me and keeps sipping his drink.

"What about Chanyeol?" he watches me again as I look out ahead of the trees. "He is hurting over me. He hates me and I tried to fix it but he won't get past this. We are over for good and I need to try move on as best I can" wiping my tears again Suho let's my hand go and wraps his arm around my shoulder.

"Do whatever is good for you baek but don't burn yourself out. Your health is your wealth remember that" he kisses my cheek making feel even more relaxed then I have in days.

"Suho I'm gonna move out back to the CBX apartment, I can't stay at the dorm any longer, plus I will be heading off soon with SuperM and I also need some sort of sleep" he shakes his head not liking my idea.

"I don't like that idea, I rather everyone together but after everything you are going through right now I can't stop you. All I can do is be the shoulder you need and I will be here anytime you need me baek"  I turn and face him better giving him the biggest hug ever making him giggle.

"I love you Suho and I am sorry for everything but I do think its best for me right now" he let's me go and wipes his tears making me sad that he is upset now.

"Oh no I didn't mean to upset you also" I try comfort him as he smiles. "It's ok I will be fine, I'm just worried for you thats all like a good leader would be" he reaches for his drink drinking more as I feel sorry for adding more pressure on him.

"You are the best leader even our fans call you that. I'm honoured to have you as a leader and I need to ask, can you help me leave?" he wipes his tears and nods his head.

"We have to be at the dance studio in three hours so how about if you want we can head back now and get your stuff and move it before we have to be there" he looks at his watch then starts to clean up the mess.

"Thank you for all of this it's just what I needed" I move and help him as we throw away the rubbish and head back to our cars.

"You gonna follow me back to the dorm?" he says while opening his car door.

"I'll be right behind you momma bear" I wink at him as I climb into my car and start to follow him seeing him smiling in his rear view mirror.

***

"I think that's all you wanted to bring now" Suho rubs his hands together after putting down the last bag in the apartment I will now be staying.

"Yep that's it, thank you for this" I move closer to him hugging him as he hugs me tighter kissing me on the head. "We need to get to the dance studio in a half hour do you want to come with me or make your own way?"

"I will make my own way. I wanna change real quick and grab my bag and I will meet you there" he just nods at me and leaves the apartment closing the door  behind him.

Looking around at the sitting room I can't believe I am here away from everyone but it's what I need right now to get my mind ready for my solo and SuperM.

Jumping into the shower I wash myself quickly and get dressed before leaving to head to the dance studio again where everything seems to happen these days.

"OK so Baekhyun is missing" I hear the choreographer say just as I step in the door dropping my bag.

"No I'm here, sorry for being late" I look at the others as Sehun is waving at me like an excited child as the others smile at me while Chanyeol keeps his eyes front not looking.

"Ok Baekhyun and Kai after you both get back from America we will be full on into getting this concert ready. While you are both away the others and I will keep practicing. I know its full on with the both of you but I need you both to rest as much as you can and get a good night's sleep"

"Yeah up all night with his new man he will be" Chanyeol mumbles as the teacher stops him

"Excuse me what did you say?" the teacher asks him as I lower my head hoping Chanyeol won't start something again.

"He will be up all night with his new man" Chanyeol says so proud like making me shake my head from side to side.

"Don't worry Sir, I won't be up all night as I have moved out so I will have plenty of rest for whatever you need of me" I smile feeling great that I spoke out and shut him up.

"Whatever is going on keep it out of my dance hall" the teacher looks at Chanyeol as he starts to look smaller now all of a sudden making me glad someone else put him in his place.

"Ok let's warm up before we start" the teacher moves to turn on the music as Kai quickly comes to me. "You moved out?" he whispers making me nod.

"Ok who remembers the moves to koko bop? " the dance teacher says making us all laugh knowing we know it that well it was our only song for months.

"Come on have you forgotten already, come on Kai" the teacher teases as we get into our places that we had. It's weird without D.O and minseok but it has to be done.

After a few hours of running through what songs we are doing and who is taking over D.O and Minseoks singing part our teacher sends us home.

"Hey I'm gonna head off now speak soon" I grab my towel and wipe my face before throwing my bag over my shoulder.

"Talk soon" they wave me off as Chanyeol ignores me which I am kinda grateful for right now.

"Stepping out into the latenight cold air I take a deep breath. I feel good now I finally have sorted out somethings and I feel much better for it.

Climbing into my car I turn on a Live for my fans and wait to see the views go up as I start to drive. My fans love when I do lives and it also feels to me like they are in the car with me.

***

Chanyeol's pov

"Hey are you ok?" Kai enters the bedroom me and baek once shared and sits on the bed as I'm sitting on the floor.

"I thought I was the one that had to leave not him" I feel so disappointed in myself and still hurting.

"He needed to go Chan he will burn out if he doesn't"

"I know and I'm worried about that Kai it might not seem it but I am deep down. I love him"  I see a Teddy under the bed making me reach for it. "He loves this Teddy, he use to hug it if I was late coming back from the gym"

"You have a weird way of showing love, what was all that about in the studio earlier?"

"Me being a massive dickhead to him. I got jealous and it all kinda worked......."

"What worked what are you talking about?"

"He can go to America and not have to worry about me back here" I play with the teddy in my arms as Kai throws a pillow at me

"Wait so you planned this?, you hurt him for no reason" Kai stands up from the bed as if ready to fight me.

"I needed him to leave me so he can go to America and have fun and not have to worry about me his boyfriend. He doesn't have to worry about missing my calls or feeling bad we couldn't talk"

"You know what, you are a dickhead" Kai storms out of the room as Sehun rushes in with Suho

"Chanyeol what's happened?" Sehun asks as Suho picks up the pillow and places it on the bed.

"HE IS AN ASSHOLE" Kai shouts from down the hallway making me lower my head.

"What happend?" Suho sits down on the bed as Sehun sits on the floor beside it.

"I'll tell you" Kai storms back into my room shouting. "That prick made baek leave him so baek didn't have to worry about him in America. Have you ever heard the likes of it before. He calls his lover a god damn whore all so baek would leave, like who does that" Kai tries to catch his breath and calm down but Sehun leads him out of the bedroom.

"Chanyeol" Suho starts with a lowered voice "You said something like this before but you crossed the line Chanyeol calling him a whore and making him feel terrible. I guess it worked that he left you so I pity you. He won't ever return to a man that called him a whore for the sake of it. You should have spoken to him about maybe taking a break while he was in America but being you you had to do it bigger and cause drama. He is gone and moved out so he can sleep at night not worrying over the next fight with you. You really need to get your head and shit together because this is a dangerous path you are on right now. I'm heading to bed I cant look at you right now, speak in the morning " Suho leaves as I sit on the bed crying knowing full well I am that ass hole.

My phone buzzed a few minutes ago as I see on the screen baekhyun is on a live smiling and singing to his fans. I open the screen bigger and turn it up as I quickly tidy up the room placing the Teddy on baeks pillow.

Watching the live more I try to figure out where he is going. The others haven't told me where he moved to so I will have to find out for myself. I watch in the background of his live and spot the motorway he is driving down. "Come on let me see something that will give me a clue" I keep watching till I spot the garage he is parking his car in. "CBX" I smile to myself after finding it out by the writing on the wall in the background and remembering seeing it when I went to the CBX apartment before.

Sliding on my shoes and grabbing my car keys I start to leave the bedroom but stop and take Teddy with me. Leaving the dorm and placing teddy on the passenger seat I start the car and rush over to the apartment seeing he just ended his live.

Arriving at the apartment I knock on the door and wait.

"Hi" baek looks at me suprised and with shock.

"Hey sorry to drop by unannounced but I didnt have your new number and I'm kinda in the bad books with everyone at the moment to ask for it"

"Why are you here Chanyeol, is it to have a go at me again? because I am so wore out I can't take anymore little kicks from you"

"No I just want to say sorry for today and I wanted to drop this little guy over, you forgot him" I pass him the Teddy as he smiles taking it. "I knew I forgot something thank you"

"Well I best get going" I say my goodbyes as I walk back down the hallway away from him.

"Goodnight Chanyeol" I turn to see him hugging the Teddy as the lift arrives making me smile at him  before I step inside hoping the doors will close fast as my emotions are gonna hit.

As soon as the lift doors closes I slide down to the floor crying. I fucked up so much I can never make it right now.

The door opens on the ground floor and I drag myself out pulling my hood up trying to hide my face incase any media are around. Pushing the main door I step outside into the cold night.

"Chanyeol" I hear the voice of an angel making me stop in my tracks as I turn to see Baekhyun standing there holding teddy by one arm by his side.

"Fancy coming in for a cuppa?" he asks making me look around.

"I don't think it's right if I come in that's your calm space up there. I don't want to ruin it"  he holds the teddy better now hugging it as now it starts to rain .

"Are you sure?" he asks making me wanna rush over to him and keep him dry and say yes but I need to remember what suho said to me today Baekhyun needs this time.

"Another time maybe now get out of the rain you will get sick" I shout back as the rain starts to fall heavier.

"I don't care about the rain" he says making me feel a lump start in my throat. I know my baby, he is trying to make things all right in the world.

"You will get sick and won't be able to do your solo or go to America, now go inside"

"No"

I run towards him and push him back into the building taking my hoodie off and wrapping it around him to help him dry.

"Why did you say no" I ask him while making sure he is warm as I move my wet hair from my face

"I didn't want to come in yet"  he pouts making me smile.

"Stubborn baek" I tease him as he laughs back

"It's just tea or coffee, come on up" He starts to walk as I keep hearing Suho telling me off in my head.

"Not tonight and not here please. I've been told this is your place for calm I don't want to break that please Baekhyun"

"OK I understand, thank you for dropping Teddy"

"No problem, oh and goodluck at the studio tomorrow I hear the solo is gonna  smash all records"

"I wish, thanks again Chanyeol, goodnight"

"Goodnight baek"

Leaving the building again and rushing to my car I jump in out of the rain and pull my soaking wet t-shirt off and throw it into the back of the car. I turn the heater up high and drive back to the dorm.

"Where did you go are you ok, you're soaking and no top on? Suho is waiting for me when I get inside

"I went to see baek and don't worry I was a well behaved boy" I walk past him and head into my bedroom closing over the door.

" What happend " he pushes open the door making me huff

" I dropped him the Teddy he likes to sleep with nothing more. I was well behaved. I even turned him down when he ran after me asking if I wanted a drink"

"Are you ok" I sit on the bed and cry "No but I started it and have to deal with the outcome. I love Baekhyun and always will. I won't make his life any harder then I have. I will be polite and be his friend and support him as best I can. We spoke lastnight about how we felt and I made it worse today but from now on I will just be his friend" peeling off my wet bottoms and runners not caring if Suho sees me naked I head into the bathroom and have a long hot shower.

Baekhyuns pov

"Oh Teddy how life has changed so fast. It will be alright won't it. Me and Chanyeol can be civil right?. I know he hates me but I love him still and always will" reaching into my bag I take out one of Chanyeol's tshirts that I robbed on him along with a hoddie I also took and put them on as I climb into bed smelling his smell. His other wet hoodie hangs on the radiator drying from the rain as I snuggle into Teddy feeling a little wore out.

"Say a prayer tomorrow goes well for me teddy it's dress rehearsal for my solo. I hope they will all be there for me even Chanyeol no matter how much he has hurt me I still want him there"

Taking my phone from the bedside table I hover over the keypad deciding should I do it.

Here is my number now you don't need to ask anyone for it

No pov

Across town Chanyeol is turning off the bedroom light as he snuggles into bed with a t-shirt he found of baeks. Putting baeks pillow inside it he snuggles down more hugging the pillow.

Buzz buzz

Reaching for his phone he sees a message and a number he doesn't recognise. Opening the message he smiles to himself "Baek" he types back quickly

Baek is that you?

Yeah it's me, now you have my number

Thank you, I wasn't expecting it but thank you all the same

No problem thanks for Teddy

He will keep you safe tonight lets hope he behaves

Yeah let's hope so he usually finds his way all over the bed at night 🤣🤣

Yeah I remember him on my head one morning after I got in late the night before

You got so scared it was so funny

Funny to you I think I peed myself  that morning

Aww poor Teddy that day gave him a fright after you thrown him across the room

Yeah I made it up to him I got him a Teddy sweater

Yeah, where is that by the way?

I think Kai took it for one of his

That wouldn't surprise me, anyway
I'll let you sleep, I need sleep myself  sweet dreams Chanyeol 😴

Sweet dreams baek

With that both phones are put away and smiling faces as snuggling into pillows thinking of the other.

To be continued....

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oh the drama lol