Chanyeol's pov

Arriving back at the dorm and making my way to our bedroom I fall onto the bed hugging his pillow as the tears start to fall. I know I'm hurting baek but he is hurting me too. I understand he has been put into this position to save us and that upsets me but knowing he kissed Lucas ripped out my heart.

I hug the pillow so tight as rage fills my veins. Every time I close my eyes I can see them both together. Night time is worse when I finally fall asleep I see them in bed together. Baek is my universe and now the universe is taking him away from me. Should I let it? Should I fight for my man?. I am still hurting so I can't see straight.

The anger builds up more and more making me get on my knees on the bed and punch the pillows over and over again screaming out my anger.

"Hey hey" I feel hands touch my arm making me turn to see Kai looking worried. "Grab your gym gear let's get out of here" I catch my breath and nod my head before grabbing some clothes and my bag following him out of the dorm.

He drives us to the gym where we always go to work out and release some stress. The mirrored walls of the gym have seen so much if they could talk they would have some stories to tell of what happened in the gym.

I sit quietly in the passenger side of his car as neither one of us speaks. My rage is low at the minute but I really wish we get there quick because I just want to punch something.

"He better not be here" I stare out the window as Kai makes the last turn down the road of the gym. "Baek is at the company" he replies as he finally parks the car.

"I meant Lucas" I climb out of the car grabbing my bag slamming the door behind me.

"He isn't here, I already rang ahead and asked could we have the gym to ourselves" hearing him say that makes me smile as Kai really knows me and will do anything to try help. "Thanks bro" I nod at him as he pushes the door to the gym making me follow him.

"Now go get that rage out" he points to the machines in the room and locks the gym door.

I quickly change my clothes and wrap up my knuckles before I head towards the punch bag giving it little taps with my fist. Then all of a sudden like the hulk from those hero movies my rage hits the surface and I begin to punch the bag harder then harder again. The imagines pops into my head again of my beautiful angel kissing him over and over but in my head Lucas keeps looking at me with a smirk as Baekhyun kisses him as if teasing me.

I punch harder and harder the sweat starts to pour down my back as I punch harder again. I have treated baek so bad since day one of hearing about SuperM. I felt my world crumble around me and now this. The rage gets worse and I begin to cry.

My punches slow as the tears flow. "Baek" I cry out as I begin to slow my punches before falling to the floor trying to breathe. "Hey, it will be ok" I turn to see Kai on his knees beside me making me jolt towards him hugging him.

"Help me Kai please make it stop" I cry into his chest as he hugs around my head with my head on his chest. "Talk with me Chan, tell me what you want me to stop" he kisses the top of my head as he sways us a little from side to side.

"The pain just make it go please Kai please" I find myself sobbing uncontrollable now and Kai just holds me as we both fall sitting on the gym floor. "shhhh you will be ok I promise, you just let it all out first" he kisses my head again as I become weak in his arms.

A few minutes have passed and I finally calmed down and stopped crying. Moving a little I sit up wiping my face in my top before I can even look at Kai. "Here drink this" he hands me a bottle of water making me drink it all in one go.

"Thanks for this Kai, I needed this" I wipe my face again as he just watches me.

"Chanyeol don't let this ruin you both. We have to start getting ready for our Exo concert tomorrow and we need it to be perfect for our fans. They will be waiting to see if the mighty Chanbaek will do anything" he softly smiles making me smile back. "They really do like us as a couple, if they only knew the truth". I climb off the floor and sit on one of the benches close by.

"Are you both still a couple?" he says almost with a whisper making me look up at him standing now beside me. "I am not so sure. I want to go back to the way we were but there is still that little bit holding me back".

"Lucas am I right?" he says making me huff "Yes it's him".

"Chanyeol get a grip of yourself and stop putting all of this on baek. Yes he let Lucas kiss him and yes it was oh so very wrong but he told you about it straight after. You have also given him a hard time about SuperM and yet said nothing to me about me joining them. Your anger was with baek as soon as you heard of the new group. You acting the way you did and how baek felt from hearing the news of the new group and coming to you only to not get comfort from you, to he shouted at broke him down more. Lucas was there for him at the wrong time and the kiss happened".

"Stop Kai please your making it out that it was ok for Baek to kiss him" I look up at him as he moves and sits back on the floor in front of me.

"I'm just making you see it from Baeks Point of View. The kiss was wrong very wrong but can you see how it lead to Lucas kissing him. He was given a chance and took it" I turn away from him not wanting to hear anymore.

"I can't take the blame for what they did" I stand up and start to hit the punch bag again.

"I'm not asking you to, I'm just telling you how things got this way" He holds the punch bag from swinging making me hit it a little faster.

"I won't be able to think straight with you both gone to America. I will just keep thinking the worst of him and Lucas. I already spoke to Lucas and he will back off. He has to be flirty with baek just the way our company made me and baek flirt now look at us".

"Well you need to trust baek he had a moment of weakness and he is paying for it now just be there for him Chanyeol  like your supposed to be. He needs you more then anyone in this world and you won't be there for him" Kai keeps staring at me trying to make me see sence.

"I'm angry with him Kai, first SuperM now this. Its all too much" I punch the bag making him move away and sit on the bench.

"Chanyeol have you thought how baek feels in any of this. Do you know he hates himself for being picked for the group. How much he worried that we had to come back and tell you all only for you to walk out on him. Lucas kissed him and yet you blame him for it. Stop being so angry and listen to him for once. He can't change what happened so go speak with him let him talk and you shut up and listen". I watch in shock as Kai begins to cry making me move closer to him.

"You come to me crying but won't comfort baek, get out of here and go find your man and put this right Chanyeol. I don't have D.O here to hug me and comfort me but I have all you to help me through it. Go back to the dorm Baek is there now" he wipes his tears looking at his phone.

"OK" I lower my head and grab my bag. "I will drop you off but you promise to listen and talk with baek" he opens the door of the gym waiting for my reply.

Taking a deep breath I smile at him "I promise" we jump into the car and head back to the dorm.

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No pov

"Baek we are gonna head out for a bit you want to come with us? Suho fixed his coat standing in the doorway of Baekhyuns room seeing the smaller freshly showered with his new almost grey new hair colour and just a t-shirt and shorts on smiling at him.

" I'm just gonna rest if that's OK" Suho nods his heads and leaves the dorm with the others as Kai and Chanyeol pull up outside.

"Get up there and make this right" Kai waits as Chanyeol climbs out waving goodbye as he heads up to their dorm with butterflies in his stomach.

Opening the door to the dorm it's awfully quiet without all the others here. He makes his way to the bedroom he shared with Baek and sees the smaller sitting in the middle of the bed with the lights off watching TV.

"Hi" Chanyeol whispers making Baekhyun jump a little.

"Shit you scared me" Baekhyun giggles a little as he mutes the TV.

"Sorry I didn't mean to" he drops his bag down on the floor and takes the hoodie off throwing it into the laundry hamper next to the door.

"Everyone is gone out" Baekhyun tries to make small talk as Chanyeol just smiles. "yeah I passed them all coming in" he slides of his shoes as Baekhyun watches him out of the corner of his eye. His stomach is jumping like crazy with nerves.

"Your hair looks great"  Chanyeol sits on the side of the bed and reaches across running his fingers along Baeks newly dyed hair. Baekhyun closes his eyes to the touch he craves so much. "I'm just going to have a shower and then we can talk if you like" Baekhyun opens his eyes and just nods his head looking so calm but inside he is a total bag of nerves.

A few minutes have passed and Chanyeol returns with just a towel around his waist. Baekhyun takes a deep breath biting his bottom lip as he watches out of the cornor of his eye as Chanyeol drops the towel and pulls on some tracksuit bottoms. Baekhyun used to always whistle when Chanyeol did that but he found it would be not a great idea to do now.

Chanyeol finally turns and makes his way over to the bed pulling on a t-shirt as he sits on the side that he lays on at night. "So what are you watching?" he asks as baek is still nervous sitting in the middle of the bed holding the TV remote with the sound on mute.

"Oh I wasn't really watching anything" he starts to flick through the channels as the bedside light turns on. He gets more nervous now knowing they are gonna talk.

"Baek let's talk" Chanyeol sits up leaning his back against the headboard as Baekhyun turns to face him placing a pillow across his lap.

"I have been so horrible to you since you came home and told us about SuperM and you know this. Since that day I have thought about loosing you and how I would cope without you. Instead I never thought about how you felt. Yes I have said this before but I need to again. I was so angry I felt you and Kai betrayed us as Exo. I never seemed to get annoyed with Kai just you. I am sorry for that".

Baekhyun watches the man he loves finally open up as he is biting the inside of his cheek trying not to cry just yet.

" I wasn't here for you when you needed me most. I was selfish when I should have listened to you and made sure you where OK. I tried hard to before but the mention of SuperM annoyed me. The situation with Lucas I get why he made the move. He took advantage and that hurt me that he could do that to you at a time when you felt low because of what was happening and especially the stuff with us. I just want you to tell me now how you really feel and I will listen".

Baekhyun smiles a little as a tear finally falls down his cheek making him wipe it away fast.

"Thank you for telling me how you feel. I guess the only way I can say all this is yes I was extremely hurt when you walked out on me after I told you about the new group. I never wanted there to be an end to Exo and we asked that of the boss before we agreed. I needed you when I got home but you got so angry at me you left. As for the Lucas thing it was a moment of weakness that I can't change. He fancied me and took a chance when I was low but it still doesn't excuse what happened so I am sorry Chanyeol for that happening".

They both just look at each other not knowing what to say or how to say the next part.

"Do you still want to be with me?" Baekhyun takes the chance and asks as Chanyeol reaches across taking the smallers hand in his.

"More like do you still want to be with me baek?" Chanyeol softly smiles as Baekhyun begins to cry. "I want the man I love back. I want him to grab me tight and tell me it will all be ok. I want him to mean it this time" Baekhyun pulls his hand away making Chanyeol look at his now empty hand.

He knows Baekhyun is trying to protect his heart and right he should. He promised he would talk to baek but is this something he can do. Can he forget about the kiss with lucas and lose the man he loves so much or does he give him a chance.

"I want us baek, I have been such an ass hole and I hate it. I miss us so much. I miss your soft lips. I miss how you spoon into me at night especially when your cold. I hate not being there for your solo I hate myself alot for how I have treated you. I know you have to flirt with Lucas on this new trip to America but I trust you. Just come home to me and be with me. Take me back and let me make it up to you please Baekhyun baby forgive me please" Chanyeol fianlly cries as Baekhyun crawls across his lap hugging him as they both cry.

"I'm so sorry Chanyeol" Baekhyun cries into the hug as Chanyeol does the same. "I love you so so much" Chanyeol pushes Baekhyun back a little so he can see him better as he wipes the smaller tears from his cheeks. "I love you too, promise me we are ok?" Baekhyun let's out a little sob making Chanyeol hugs him close again. "I promise baby" Chanyeol kisses the top of Baekhyun head as the smaller finally let's it all out as Chanyeol holds him tight knowing how much of an ass hole he has been to the man he loves. He needs to do one thing right now and that's to kiss baek and remove any trace of lucas from his man's lips.

Cupping the smallers cheeks as he stares into his eyes he leans in closer and kisses Baekhyuns lips softly. Baekhyun doesn't hesitate and kisses him back while wrapping his arms around the talkers neck.

"I've missed you" Chanyeol leans his forehead on the smallers while holding onto him so tight. "I missed you too Chanyeol, stay the night in here with me please don't leave again" Baekhyun begins to cry more as Chanyeol knows he has fucked up. "I'll stay here every night with you I'm going no where baby ill be right here" Chanyeol kisses his man with a little more passion as Baekhyun melts feeling his boyfriend kiss along his jaw and down his neck to the spot that makes him groan out.

"Take me Chanyeol please" Baekhyun tries to control himself as Chanyeol lays him softly on his back leaning over him. "As you wish" with that said Chanyeol kneels up on the bed and pulls baekhyuns top off throwing it beside the bed. Baekhyun wraps his legs around the tallers waist as he too pulls Chanyeol's top of before running his hands down this man's muscles back. "Fuck I missed you baby" Chanyeol moans into the kisses he plants all across Baekhyuns chest.

"I missed you too baby can we make love please" Baekhyun begs a little as Chanyeol's stands up and drops his tracksuit bottoms to the floor and returns to lean over Baekhyun removing his underwear and then licks his fingers and runs it along the opening.

"Ohhhh that feels so good" Baekhyun closes his eyes finally feeling his man at his opening. "You ready?" Chanyeol asks as Baekhyun just nods his head as Chanyeol slides into him making the smaller grab onto the bed.

"Fuck yes" Baekhyun shouts as Chanyeol lifts the smallers legs up over this shoulders and starts to move in and out slowly.

"Take me bent over instead your deeper that way" Baekhyun looks up at Chanyeol as the taller moves as Baekhyun gets on his knees with his ass facing Chanyeol.

Chanyeol doesn't wait and slams into the smaller making him jolt forward holding onto the headboard and Chanyeol leans over him kissing the croak of the smallers neck.

"That's it your so much deeper this way" Baekhyun looks over his shoulder seeing the man he loves hold his hips while fucking him.

"Oh baby I can't last long" Chanyeol moans out as he begins to pound faster and faster before leaning over Baekhyuns back again and reaching under stroking the smallers cock as Baekhyun moves his ass to the trust of Chanyeol.

"I'm gonna cum" Baekhyun grabs the bed tighter as Chanyeol speeds up "cum baby cum now for daddy" Chanyeol shouts as Baekhyun explodes all over the bedsheets as his pink hole tightens around Chanyeol making the taller go crazy and proud him harder before pumping his seed into Baekhyun.

Slowing down he kisses up Baekhyun's back making the smaller turn to the side so he can kiss his lips better. "That was perfect" Chanyeol moans as Baekhyun moves making Chanyeol slip out of him.

"So sexy seeing my cum slide out of you" chanyeol watches as Baekhyun wiggles his ass a little as his creamy cum slides down baekhyuns balls. "Fuck baby your so sexy" chanyeol can't help but stroke his cock making it hard again as he bites his bottom lip.

"I bet you taste good" baekhyun moves and lowers himself taking Chanyeol's cock in his mouth sucking him as Chanyeol grabs the smallers hair guiding him on his cock. Baekhyun licks all up the shaft and around the tip making Chanyeol jolt a little with it being so sensitive.

Looking down Chanyeol moves a little as he begins to fuck Baekhyuns mouth as the smaller takes him deep down his throat. The flick of the tongue along his cock is driving him crazy he can't take much more. "I'm gonna cum baby" he shouts out as he keeps watching Baekhyun suck the life out of him. He finally reaches his high and grabs Baekhyun's head as he explodes deep down his throat as the smaller takes it all sucking him dry.

"FUCK" he screams out giving Baekhyun every last drop of his cum.

"Mmmh" Baekhyun pulls away showing Chanyeol his cum in his mouth before swallowing it and licking his lips.

"That's so fucking dirty" Chanyeol says leaning down and kissing the smaller on the lips.

"You tatse so good" baekhyun licks his lips again making Chanyeol move Baekhyun onto his back as he forcefully lifts the smallers legs up high into the air as he burys his face at his ass hole licking it sending Baekhyun crazy. The smaller has nowhere to grab so he tries to hold the headboard above him.

Chanyeol licks from the ass hole all the way to the tip making it all wet before he takes baek cock in his mouth making the smaller arch his body. "Oh god yes" Baekhyun moans and Chanyeol slides a finger into Baekhyun while he keeps sucking the tip. He looks down at Chanyeol looking up at him still sucking him as he grabs the tallers head and lifts his hips up to fuck Chanyeol's mouth. Chanyeol enters another finger and pumps them as Baekhyun loses all senses and stops moving as Chanyeol sucks him with his mouth and fucks him with with his fingers. He feels a third enter his hole and he now opens his eyes wide as Chanyeol deep throats him. He may not be a big as chanyeol but he is till empress with his length and how good him man is taking care of him tight now.

"I'm gonna cum" he moans as Chanyeol slides one more fingers that's it Baekhyun's spot is being hit over and over that he screams into the air as he explodes into Chanyeol's mouth as he jolts up pumping it into him.

"Argh" he screams again as the life is being sucked out of him till he lays empty on the bed as Chanyeol slides his fingers out and let's go of his cock with a pop.

"You look so sexy cuming" chanyeol says while kissing up the body of the smaller.

"Your amazing" Baekhyun cups the tallers cheeks and kisses him as chanyeol  smiles delighted he could make his man cum the way he did.

"You took four fingers this time baby" chanyeol lays on his side pulling Baekhyun in closer as the smaller blushes. "We always wanted to try five but your hand is huge and my poor ass" baekhyun laughs at remembering they wanted to try fisting but where worried they would hurt the other.

"Once day maybe" chanyeol smiles as he hugs backhyun kissing his head now and again as they hold each other tight.

"I thought I lost you for good" Baekhyun bursts out crying making Chanyeol look at him before hugging him tighter. I am going nowhere I promise. You need me and I will be here" Chanyeol whispers as he hushes the smaller in his arms till they both fall asleep.

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