Ben, I don't want to believe what we have heard. Everybody is saying you're killed all the Jedi and joined the First Order. I refuse to believe that and I have called everyone liars. I know you would never join the dark, even if you hated it here, you would always fight for the rebellion. Also, Leia can feel Luke through the force so we know he's not dead. We just don't know where he is. That's the whole thing! That's really suspicious. If you wanted to kill Luke, you would have. There is no way you killed the other Jedi either. Even though you always told me you wanted to kill Cheeb, I know you would never ever do that.

It's not like you to kill Ben. You're too Ben. I know the guilt would kill you and I know that because my guilt kills me everyday. I deserve that but, if the guilt for you leaving kills me. The guilt from killing someone would surly kill you. I don't even know if I will ever see you again at this point. I can only hope. Everyone thinks you killed the Jedi and left. I'm sure your dad would too... if he was actually here. Did I ever tell you how much I hate your dad? We could still be together if it weren't for him. He left your mom and he does't deserve anything good.

You leaving wasn't just my fault, but I want you to know that I feel all the guilt. Even though this Jedi killing thing is going around, I hope I see you again in my lifetime. It's been more then four years now and all of them have been extremely painful. I miss you and I wish things were different. I wish you were here. I need you and I love you and I know you would never kill anyone. I just hope you're safe wherever you are. I hope I hope I hope that I will see you again one day. I don't care the circumstances, I just want to be in your presence, I don't care where. I love you.

-Poe