I feel so helpless and lost and I don't know what to do. All I can do is apologize. I don't even know why or for what. I'm just so miserable and on the verge. I hate Fridays. Its when everything catches up to me and I crash. And I'm being bullied a bit at school. I just cry but that doesn't do anything but make me feel worse and give me a stomach ache. I think of ending it and how easy it is but then I think of all the people and things that give me a reason but it doesn't get rid of the thoughts it just makes me feel bad. I don't know what to do. I can't stop. I was clean for 2 months.