the summer began and slowly came to an end as well, while kyungmi and seugyoon lived their lifes quietly, but also unhappy.

one early september night kyungmi sneaked into seungyoon's room when he was asleep and sat at the end of his bed, legs crossed like she always did.

whilst she couldn't sleep, she just watched seungyoon sleeping. kyungmi had seen him growing up and she had also seen him in worse states than now.
still she wasn't sure how to read his face right then.

"do you miss taehyun? or do you miss being with someone?" she mumbled. "because i do, but i don't belong anywhere, because i've already fucked up too many times." eventually some tears rolled down her cheeks, while she wrapped her arms around her own shoulders.

although seungyoon didn't move an inch and still had his eyes closed, he had heard how kyungmi entered his room a while ago. "i don't know." he whispered. "i don't know what i feel." but that isn't the whole truth.

as kyungmi didn't react in any way he quietly sat up, rubbed his eyes and wrapped his blanket around her. hesitantly he stretched out his hand and touched her once so beautiful hair, which looked so dull and dry then. but to him kyungmi would always be beautiful. "ouf of all the guy's you've been with; i really didn't like any of them; maybe i just don't like seeing you with someone else."

suddenly kyungmi backed off from his hand. "don't say things like this, it makes me feel guilty and you will regret saying it tomorrow."

unlike expected he didn't hang his head and looked straight at her eyes. "look at me kyungmi, i'm only a wreck of who i used to be, i have nothing more to lose." he urged to slap himself for the things his mouth spilled out, but he also couldn't keep them longer.

"don't say this when i like you actually so much more than it's appropriate, since you're gay." she sighed deeply. "you have no idea how often i wished i was a guy."

"i am gay actually, but i also love you, a lot."

"through how much more pain do you want me to go?" kyungmi sobbed. "when i love and care for you so much."

"attraction and love are two different things, kyungmi, because if you truly love someone, their outsides don't matter at all... at least not to me." again he covered his mouth with his sleeve. "fuck, i wanted to say this for so long."

"what?" she asked, even more confused than before.

"we always understand each other so well, why are you so blind to see that i actually do love you." that's when he turned his head away and looked out of the window. "that's what taehyun meant when he said that i couldn't love him because i love someone else; he saw it before i even had a clue."

kyungmi just stared at him blankly, as she finally understood the whole situation. "somehow this makes me love you even more."

seungyoon wanted to ask if he could kiss her, but she did it first, before he could even say a single word.

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