"it's your turn elliot"

my teacher said,

and I took in a deep breath

before standing up 

and walking

to the front of the class.

After turning on my music

from the teacher's computer,

I sat down on the floor,

staring at the class's blank faces.

I saw you, too,

eyes cutting through me.

It was then I began.

One movement

to another.

More in a rhythmic pattern

as I pointed my toes

and stealthily rose

from the dirty floor.

Moments ticked by

and my pace

slowly quickened.

You guys were mesmerized,

enchanted,

by my fluid choreography.

A smile grazed my face

as I twirled and twirled

remembering my younger years

of being a ballerina.

My piece seemed happy so far,

and everyone's hate for me,

seemed to disappear.

Just for that moment.

But soon,

anger consumed me

for you all's ignorance,

and suddenly

I stopped my movements.

My breathing got heavy

and my anger merged into fear.

I was looking around me,

horror clouding my face

as I buckled from the invisible forces

of punches and kicks 

being blown 

to my stomach.

It was silent now.

I collapsed.

Gasps and murmurs echoed around the room

before I jerked my head up.

The quiet air soon filled up the room.

Pain spread across my face,

my emotions so vivid,

and so raw,

allowing all of you to get a glimpse

of what it felt like

to live my life.

On shaky legs,

I stood up

almost rocking back and forth

like a drunk.

I locked gazes with you

as my body shuddered

and twitched from side to side.

I crouched down,

hands gripping the side of my head

and blocking out all noise

as my eyes shut tightly.

My mouth moved in silent conversation

before I stealthily rose to my toes,

opening my eyes

and reaching for the sky.

My face showed one of awe,

happiness and joy,

before slipping into defeat,

sadness and pain.

My hands reached down to clutch air.

Curiosity still painted everyone's faces

as I stared at the class head on.

My fingers reached above my head

and seemed to dance in a matter,

like tying a pair of shoelaces.

A frown settled on my face

as I brought my hand down over my head,

as if putting on a scarf

on a cold winter's day. 

Tears filled my eyes,

and slight shivers went through my body.

You guys looked confused.

But you shouldn't be.

Or at least,

you wouldn't be.

Soon,

it'll all make sense.

I'm sure of it.

And so I lifted my legs and arms in the air;

one foot going up,

one hand going down,

over and over,

until I stood normally.

I looked at you again,

curiosity showing on your face.

And just as you parted your lips open,

I jumped,

jerking my head up,

and struggling.

My hands grabbed at the invisible ropes,

my legs thrashed and kicked,

until suddenly,

I wasn't moving,

eyes glazed.

I was a speck of dust

in a whole football stadium.

Everyone was speechless,

just like I wanted.

And as I returned to my normal state,

I gave a single nod,

before walking back to my seat,

grabbing my books,

and leaving the class

just as the bell rang.

Tears glistened in my eyes,

but I'm fine

I'm fine

I'll be fine.

| I am freaking out guys... 101K reads. I'm in shock, really. And I, I'm hyperventilating right now. I'm, I'm *breathe in, breathe out* *breath in, breathe out* AHHHH!!! This is amazing guys! I'm seriously so happy right now! Thanks for giving my writing a chance. Without every single one of you here now, I wouldn't be feeling this way now. So thanks for that =) And because of all these reads, I think I'll just have to give you all a treat....

And for all the ones who are apologizing and asking if I need anyone to talk to, thank you for caring. But like I said before guys, I'm one of the lucky ones. Please go back to the first chapter and read the author's note in bold. You all don't have to worry about me. Life's good. And it might be unfair and challenging, but once you make the best out of it, it's all good (for me at least). I appreciate the concern, though. I feel the love <3

Also, I will try to find time to respond to the rest of you alls comments, but it's getting late and I've got a busy day tomorrow as long as the weeks after. So I'll probably start doing it chapter by chapter before starting over again and etc.

And happy belated birthday to @klumash39! I hope your day was filled with fun and love!

Don't log out too quickly though. As for the surprise, since you've all been good, loyal readers, stay on the look out for another chapter in a few moments ;) |