Chaeyoung PoV 

"Chaeyoung-ah.." 

She stood in front of me in my office. 

I haven't left the hospital ever since last night. I stayed in Jungkook's room, waiting for him to wake up and eventually, I ended up sleeping as well. 

Rachel frequently updates me about Jiyoon. She picked her up in the Jeons Family Mansion, brought her to school and is now taking her out in a toy store. 

My eye bags are starting to show off on my face, my cracked lips are starting to bleed, my skin looks paler and I've lost weight. Jihyo made me take a physicals exam a few moments ago, and according to her, I lost about 5 kg in less than a week. 

Even if I still eat complete meals. 

The messed up life I have right now is driving me insane. I was a normal doctor before I met him, 5 years ago. No matter how many times I say that, both of them happened to me for a good reason, it doesn't feel like it. 

I haven't called Alice, my parents nor do I have my friends to run to. 

The truth is, I'm a lonely person in Seoul. Every single one of my childhood friends are in Australia, also living their lives, some of them are successful and has a happy family. 

While I'm here, back in my home town, trying to rebuild what I've started. 

Last night, while waiting for Jungkook, I was in the Korean Airlines website, booking a ticket, hesitating to complete the purchase. No matter how much I want to go back home, and restart there, I can't find myself to leave Korea. 

It's like I'm going to leave him the responsibility or break his heart more. 

Between both of us, I caused him more damage. He still was the one who promised to be by my side, who always forgives me, who's always there and I'm just the person who keeps ruining his life. 

Wasn't I the reason why he secretly went back to Busan? If it weren't for me keeping everything a secret, our lives would've been normal, right? 

What if I told him before? Would we have worked it out? Maybe, we would have and we would be a happier family. 

Family?

How dare I say that? 

I'm not part of his family, it's only Jiyoon.

I'm out of the picture now. 

"Chae," she said once more. 

My silence led me to overthinking things. The past that I continuously bring back again and again, is starting to kill me. It's starting to haunt me, making me guilty of what I did. 

I'm lucky that the Jeons did not want to settle it through legal actions. If they did, I'd be in prison for doing my scandals. 

How come they still forgive me? Does it really run in their family? The never ending forgiving and forgetting? 

She hugged me, "Chae, I'm really sorry about what happened and I know I slapped you hard..."

Jennie came to me 30 minutes ago but I had a consultation clinic in floor 3. Now that I'm free, she personally went to me in my office. 

I still feel lonely. 

Like everything and everyone has turned their backs on me. Like there's no one I can count on. 

I'm always gonna be there for you!

But where are you? 

Why did you drive half drunk? Did you really need to see me? You could've gave a call, and I'll be the one to go there. 

My tears fell off from my eyes, the regrets and the 'what ifs' I'm thinking of. 

He almost died, in front of my eyes, he almost died. Vernon was telling me to declare it. 

Why is he like this? 

Why couldn't he accept the fact that he's the dad? 

Why...

"It's okay, bub, I'm not angry anymore," Jennie said. "But I am angry on what Jungkook did to you, and I'll cut him some slack because he's injured."

"Mianhae..." I cried. 

"Chae, trust me, you and him will get through this. Like all the time, okay?" she looked at me in the eye. "He'll be a great dad, a great man for you. I can assure you that. No matter how mature you think he is, he's still human, he has emotions. Don't let this affect you, okay, bub?"

I nodded. 

She hugged me again, "Tell him to shut up and explain what happened. Don't let him tell you to shut up, make sure he knows the tiniest and biggest detail of why you had to keep a secret."

I nodded. 

"Chae? Chaeyoung?" Namjoon kept on knocking. "Are you dozing off?"

That's when I realized. 

Jennie wasn't there, no one is there. 

Jihyo didn't ask me to get a physical examination. I didn't have any consultation clinics. Jungkook is still asleep, and I've been staying in my office for the whole night.

I am lonely, should I just go back to Australia?

"Chae, are you alright?" Namjoon asked again. 

I looked up, only to see 6 men in front of my office door. Crowding in my resident's work spaces. All of them were dressed in black, to my surprise, and Jin was carrying white roses. 

"Mian, sunbae," I said. "Please enter my office, you're gonna mess my resident's work space."

They all entered, some of them sat on the chairs inside my office. Taehyung was looking at my set of books in the shelf, and Hoseok looking through the picture frames I decorated in my office. 

"Is Jungkook alright, Chaeyoung-ssi?" Jimin asked. 

The formality is back, again. After everything I did, I guess they couldn't count me in as a friend they can speak dialect with.

As I've seen in the news, Jimin announced publicly, through the management under the Jeon Foundation, that Jungkook is being treated minor wounds. When in the truth, he has a severe injury in the gastro tract, not a wound. 

I just nod to them. 

"Chaeyoung-ssi, I know it's a little bit tight right now, the situation, I mean. But we're always rooting for both of you, so please don't give up on him," Jin adviced me.

I nod again. 

"We know that he's the father of your kid, that makes you a person we should care for too. Jungkook is not always mature, when Yuri died, he acted as if nothing happened but behind the lights, he punched walls, destroyed furniture and a lot of other immature actions," Yoongi said.

I nod. 

"Chae, don't silent treatment us. None of use are against you, we're his hyungs, not your bullies. If you feel bad about what happened, the bad things that are happening, consecutively between both of you, don't be," sunbae said. 

After that, Yunhyeong opened the door in my office, knocking before entering. 

"Professor? I'm sorry to disturb," he said. "And I'm sorry I'm late, you can give me more research, whatever."

I nodded, "Yeah, there anything you need?"

"Patient in room 304, in the VIP ward, Jeon Jungkook has woken up. He's asking to see you only," he said. "And the rest of us will do rounds. That's all, doc."

"Thanks, you can go," I said. 

Yunhyeong left and all of Jungkook's hyungs were looking at me.

"God, that kid doesn't want us to be his first visitors," Jin muttered under his breath. 

"I know, he's never thankful that we always take care of him," sunbae rolled his eyes.

"I had to embarrass myself in the public because of him, where's my rights of seeing him first?" Jimin complained. 

Taehyung sat down, "Like usual, it's women before us."

Hoseok just laughed and Yoongi sighed heavily. 

I stood up from my swivel chair and bowed to them, "I'll tell him that you guys want to talk to him after me."

Then I ran out of the office, running to the VIP Ward's floor. I harshly pressed the elevator's buttons and when I got out, I continued to run to his room. 

As I stood in front of his room, I panted and tried to catch my breath. I stood up properly and slid the door open. 

He's awake, looking at the big window next to his bed. All of the room's curtains were opened, the pillows of the couch were fluffed, the fruits were replaced, there's the today's paper on the coffee table, the flowers displayed were renewed. 

But before I become the patient's visitor, I'm first his doctor. 

I walked to his headboard, checking the status of his health. Listing down adjustments to his medicines and his IV intake. I took of the color of his band, changing it to white, meaning that he's regained his consciousness. 

Then I got the chair near the monitor's screen. I attached some pads on his stomach, and checked the stitch in his internal bleeding through the monitor, I also checked his heart rate, his blood pressure and then I took off the pads, turned off the monitor. 

I started to write on the clipboard, that was placed next to his bed. Then wrote down his morning check-up results. After that, I placed the board down and slid the chair to the side of his bed. 

I dismantled the arms of the bed in my side and stood up to make him comfortable since his pillow was going sideways. 

Once I sat back down, he was looking at me. I bowed down my head, trying to avoid his gaze until his hand cupped my cheek. 

"You're getting paler and thinner," he said with a raspy voice. "We should eat out more."

I put my hand at the back of his, and placed his hand down. So his IV line can flow. But I held it and rubbed my thumb on his hand. 

"Don't do that ever again," I said. 

His smile formed, "Arasseo. It's my bad."

Then he tucked some of my hair behind my ear, "Chae.."

I looked at him.

"Is she really my kid?" he asked and then letting out a sigh. "I know, that's what I should've asked before getting mad at you, I didn't know what I was doing and I--"

"She is," I said. "She's our kid."

He stopped for a second, and just looked at me. 

"I want you to be involved, because that's what your dad and I agreed in. And I don't have to be part of her life from this day forward, it's fine," I said. 

"No," he shook his head. "I know those were the words I told you, but Chaeyoung, come on. We have a kid, we have to make this work no matter what. I don't care about what you and dad agreed, she deserves a family. It's up to us to give her one."

"Kook, I've caused you enough trouble in your life, it's high time we should stop."

He sat up and pulled me in his arms, "I wake up and this is what you decided? Don't be selfish here, Chae. I love you so much, and I'm sure you love me too. I've said mean things, because it was just too much information for me to handle. Don't leave me again."

I broke the hug but before I spoke he went ahead of me. 

"Jiyoon deserves both of us, a family. We have to give it to her, okay? We're not leaving things, it's not gonna be the same as before. I have to be more careful with myself, I have more responsibility now. Give this a chance, Chae. She's your daughter too," he said. 

"Okay.." I said. 

He smiled widely, "Okay? That's a yes?"

"It's a yes, Kook," I smiled. 

He grabbed me in my head and tucked me in his chest, "We're really no ordinary couple, aren't we? Even if times will get hard for both of us, we have to fight together this time."

"I know, and I owe you a lot of explanation about this."

"You do," he chuckled. "I've got everything I wanted now, don't you think? I already have family, with the person I love, an heiress."

He kissed me on my forehead and smiled, "Maybe she needs a sibling?"

I frowned, "No, she gets one when we're actually married."

"Married?" he widened his eyes. "Before that, we have to know each other first and be each other's guidance."

Our noses touched, until he kissed me. 

"Did I slap you that hard?" he broke the kiss and checked my right cheek. "Oh, no, it's still red. Does it feel numb?"

"How about this?" I sighed and pressed his stomach. "Does it feel numb?"

"Okay, that's different story," he held his stomach. 

I laughed, "Jungkook, don't mind this. Your hyungs explained to me for you, so you don't have to say sorry." 

Before he said any words I spoke ahead, "The bottom line here, is that we love each other and we're both parents to Jiyoon. No other questions."

"But you still have explanations," he smiled. 

"Do you want me to sympathize you or bully you?" 

"I want you to bully me so you can smile."

I punched his muscled shoulder, "No matter what I do to frown, you always find a way to make me smile."

"That's because I'm that 'Mr. Right' you keep writing in your dear diary days," he smiled. 

"Okay, you still have an explanation why you got angry or else Jiyoon can't be your official daughter."

He scoffed, "What are you talking about, she's already my official daughter according to law."

I frowned and he smiled then he pulled me in and kissed me. 

"Alright, let's have the serious talk once I'm out of this place."

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okay, okay. 

so we don't have to cry anymore. 

see ya next update!

iz out------