YOUR POV
"It's impossible" said pride. "It's risky" said experience. "It's pointless" said reason.
"Give it a try" whispered my heart.
I still have my dreams.. I know I am married and I need to do my responsibilities. But I am also a girl who has her own dream.
This decision is against my heart but a big joy in my mind. I know that I'm kind of crazy for leaving Luhan, and I would take that without any restrains. I found it hard to face him everyday and knowing that we have this big wall separating us. I know that everybody deserves a second chance and that we should always forgive no matter what, but sometimes you need to taught them how to be responsible and not always depend on the forgiveness that we always give them. That is the reason why I learn what's wrong with 'sorry', cause it gives people the wrong idea that any mistakes can be solve by a single word.
I decided to continue my journey on touring around the world. Since I was a kid, I always wanted to do this but was cut when I got married. So now, I think I should get back to what I've wanted to do for so long. But this doesn't prove that I don't care about Luhan, of course I do care, that's why before I left, I make sure that I'd talk to her mom and to his professors and even with Eunjung. I told them everything but not the part where Ji Eun is, but the part where we, Luhan and I have these problems in our relationship. Mrs. Lu was very sorry to hear that but I told her I'm fine, I told her a little lie that Luhan and I always argue because we always misunderstood each other, Mrs. Lu makes sure that if Luhan has someone in his heart that is probably the reason why I'll leave, but I just laughed at her and I told her that that is not the main reason. Luhan's mom is a very understanding person, maybe because she also has these problems between her and Mr. Lu, cause as we all know as a business man; he has no time to talk to his wife.
I told them that I need to take my rest and that I would be gone for long, I didn't tell them when is the specific date that I will come back because I really don't know when.
I make sure that they'll promise me to take good care of Luhan. And Eunjung, I gave her my email so that we'll know about some news about us. And Tao? I didn't say goodbye to him nor tell him to take care of Luhan, cause I know that he'll just stop me from leaving, he is my best friend and I trusted him but as we all know, he also has this love for his hyungs and that he'll do everything to make them happy and I don't think I can trust him to not tell Luhan what I've been planning.
When I arrived at the airport in the early morning, my feet seemed backing off and my knees would shake to the extent that I need to sit for awhile to ease them. I always look around and find myself staring at the entrance door, hoping that maybe someone will appear there, running, panting heavily as he was having a hard time looking for me, and then will hold my hand to stop me from leaving.. But of course, there's no one to be found there. And I'm stupid for thinking about that, I want to leave without him knowing, but I want him to come here and stop me.
and when the plane landed on the place where I'd be spending a couple of days, and as I step out my feet and slowly walking down the stairs, I know that this will make me free.. The weather here is kinda humid. Unlike in Korea, this place is hot, but it would greet you with a warm hello with the wind that blow as soon as you step your feet into this foreign land.
Since my dad has his connections, I didn't need to have hard time finding a perfect place to stay in.. Mr. Rico, one of my Dad's business friends owns a hotel here and they welcome me whole heartedly.
Since this day is really tiring, I decided to walk for a while and find a restaurant which serves a fine cuisine. Though the beef is so chunky and the taste is so good to the extent that you'll forget your name. But nothing would compare to a simple noodle or pancakes that Luhan and I would share.
I kinda hate myself now, I just got here and I already miss him so much. Is he awake? Or finish reading my letter? Or is he looking for me?
Jetlag is killing me.. Really. I want to fly and get myself back to Seoul and into Luhan's arms. But I should learn to be independent even without him. I should learn how to control what I feel. I should learn how to give myself time to get some rest and to be happy.
I know that partings is very hard.. Even saying goodbye, I believe it hurts when we try and I know partings never go easy. But I hope, in this given time, we should learn everything we must have to learn, to be a fine person everyone has been expecting for us to be. So I hope, someday when fate decided to meet us up together, I hope that we've changed a lot.. Be mature.. But finally, still loves each other no matter what.

LUHAN'S POV
I spend the whole night outside our house.. I even sleep on the bench.
Cause I was hoping that in any minute or hour, Hee Rin might come back.

I was in the middle of my dream as the sun rays tickle my eyes. As I sat up, my back hurts and I realize.. Yeah how stupid am I to sleep here on the bench?
I quickly run to Hee Rin's room, hoping that she's there.. Sleeping peacefully.. But, she's not.
Her room was so sad.. The window was open; the curtain flew as the wind blow and circulates through the room. And I can hear the cling and clangs of the decorations that were hanging on the wall or the windchymes.
And then I remember the day of our wedding, when Hee Rin barge in this room when I was about to change my clothes and I have to find another room cause I don't want to be with her.. I smiled as I remember that and a part of my heart was crying, where are you Hee Rin ahh?
Life is a funny thing, the moment you think you got everything figured out; something comes along and turns it all upside down.
You know that feeling when someone was always there for you and treats you special? And you get used to live with that person and become a part of your life? And then suddenly, with a blink of an eye, they'll just disappear. Leaving you alone without goodbye, without warning.. And all you can do was sit down and watch the world as it goes on, and you? Nothing.. Just waiting for the time as it slowly kills you.

It's been 3 days since Hee Rin left. I'm still in my denial stage. I didn't bother come to school cause I was busy finding my wife.
And how can I even find her without any clue where she'd go?
Should I turn the Korea upside down or search in every corner of the world? How? Tell me.. I don't know where to start.
My friends were calling me but I didn't answer any of their calls, I don't want to be disturbed. My mom, on the other side was always telling me that I need to stop from finding my wife. I should wait patiently and give her some time.
But how can I? If I didn't know if she's doing well.. Or is there anyone who'll take care of her? Or protect her?

And as time still goes on, 5 days have passed.. Hee Rin's birthday already passed by that quickly. I lose my sleep always because I still hope that she'll knock on the door and come back here beside me.
My dad asked me to talk to him and have some private time.. He told me that I need to focus on my studies and in the company. He gave me some advices that I never thought I would be hearing from my dad. Actually, this is the first time that we talked for hours because he is always busy.
As a family.. Dad to son talk is always there.. But this time, it's different.. We didn't talk about the company or the football game that just happened a week ago. Or the news that was spreading about the government and the crisis that it is into. But rather, we talked about my life.. With Hee Rin.
As the tik and the tok of the clock go on, me and my dad had this unforgettable conversation. I even cried in front of him as I confess my problems.
He promised me that he'll help me find my wife and that I don't need to worry. That I should focus in my studies and he'll make sure to contact the embassies to know where Hee Rin is. This is one of the advantages of being rich, you can hire people to think and solve your problems while you were doing your own stuff.
I agree with my dad, and in return, I have to study hard and work with him.

so I got back to school even if it's hard to wake up every morning without my wife, my friends would always cheer me up and would always make me laugh to forget my problem, even though even a single minute I can't get it out of my mind. Worried. Frustration. Sadness. Whatever it is. But it is all because of Hee Rin. Sometimes laughing isn't something what you do for fun. It's a relief when you have nowhere to run.
I regret those times when I ignored Hee Rin and wasting it carelessly, I hope I can go back in time and I'll make sure that I'll love her from day one.

So this is my advice for you.. Show love as if it's your last day. Cause you'll never know if you'll still have that person tomorrow..

------------------------------------------------------------

Hi ! Im sprry that I didn't update much . I nearly forget abt this book hahahahah ... excuse the mistake and DROP YOUR COMMENT ABOUT THE sTORY !!