LUHAN'S POV
I lie on my bed while thinking of Hee Rin again..
is this love?...... I really don't know.. I just can't find my true feelings for her. Do you know what I mean?
all I know is that she's really driving me crazy..
my eyes were about to close when I heard a noise outside the house.. I think it's a car?
so I peek through the window of my room, enough to satisfy my eyes of a sudden sight.
it was Tao's car, for a moment I ask myself if I invited him to come today or he just wanted to visit me, but then someone came out of his car that made my whole body froze. It was Hee Rin.
they waved goodbye to each other.. then Tao leave as soon as Hee Rin entered our house. Is it really true that they are into each other? Oh No, this is bad.. Really bad.

I walk to the living room with my hands in my pocket, pretending like i don't care.. Which is not really true. I really care!! Duh! Just what the heck is Tao thinking dropping my wife in our house without my permission?! can someone explain this nonsense?
"where have you been?" I asked casually while Hee Rin is busy fixing her hair..
"omo.. you're here already?"
"I'll cook some dinner.. what do you want to eat?" she added while smiling.. Is she smiling because she saw me or she's smiling because she had a good time with that friend of mine that name is Tao?
but nevertheless that smile... at first, it really annoys me!! but now... when I see that smile, I feel like my heart was melting.. And I hate it.
"yeobo?" she asked as she waved her hands infront of my face..
"w-what?"
"are you okay? you seem so shock" she said as she raise her eyebrow..
"I-I'm okay.."
"so what do you want to eat?"
"anything"
"anything? there's no such food as that" she giggled.. she's so cute.
I lean my back against the fridge as I watch Hee Rin cook.. she was smiling by herself while preparing the ingredients.. She seems so happy while cooking. I can't stop staring at her determined face while she's humming a song...my heart was beating so fast and I can't control it..

"omo!" she pouted.. she overcooked the beef.. but I am not mad and I find it cute to see her in panic..
"I'll do it" I said.
"o-okay"
"it should be like this.. first, you should boil the beef..." I instructed..
she nods while biting her index finger.. she looks so serious and determined to learn.. and it's kinda cute.. Wait, Did I just think how cute she is again?

Hee Rin decided to fix the table while I cook.
after I finished cooking.. Hee Rin and I prayed before eating..
"wow.. this looks so yummy" she smiled while clappping her hands..
"ofcourse"
"yeobo.. you're great!!" she giggled while giving me her thumbs up.. then she took a picture of it.. she said that this is the first time that I cooked for her so she took a picture for remembrance..

we started eating and Hee Rin would tell me some stories about some stuff that I don't care about.. but I pretend that I care..
she laughed.. so I laughed too.. Even though I really don't understand why is she laughing.. Cause I really don't pay attention of what she was saying.
I just stare at her.. She looks so beautiful while talking..
after some time.. It was my turn to tell some stories about some stupid things..
I really don't know what to say.. so I just tell her some boring stories about my childhood..
and she was listening carefully.. And she nod while smiling, as if my story is so interesting even though I know that it's really not.. and I hate it.

we laughed so much while chitchatting.. To the point that we can't finish our food because of continuous laughter..
then I realize.... This is the first time that I enjoyed eating dinner with Hee Rin..
this is the first time that we spend so much time talking.. and I like it..
I never thought how fun it is to be with Hee Rin..
and one of the best things that I ever felt is seeing a smile on her face and knowing that I put it there..
I felt happiness..
and in that, I've come up to think of the most stupidest question I am afraid to admit myself.
Hee rin... am I already inlove with you?.....

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the next day.. all the students were so busy.. and summer is coming.
Ji eun asked me to go to her classroom..

as I was walking in the hallway.. I spotted Tao who is smiling by himself like idiot..
"yah.. why are you smiling?" I asked.
"oh.. nothing." he said while rubbing the back of his neck as if he's holding his fanboy mode.
then I remember about what Lay said before about Tao and Hee Rin..so I decided to talk to him.. one on one..
I called Ji eun and told her that I can't meet her because I'm going to do some important things..

"what is it hyung?" Tao asked.
"do you like Hee Rin?" I asked casually and my face was like who-the-hell-cares.. His eyes widened about my sudden question. Then he put his hands in his pocket as he smirked.
"what if I said yes?" he said with a cocky tone.
"w-what?" I stutter as I blink.
"why do you care so much hyung?"
"n-nothing! I'm just asking.. she's my wife and she's my responsibility"
"I thought she's just a pest in your life?.. so I hope you don't mind if I make a move" he said coldly.. is he challenging me now!?!!!
"don't tell me you already like her?" he added..
yes.. I like her.. I like her so much.

I feel like my blood is boiling right now.. I felt jealousy inside me!!! so I walked away before I could do something bad to Tao. he really like Hee Rin huh?
why am I not happy?!
this is what I've been praying for. Right?!
for Hee Rin to disappear and leave me alone.. Right?!
but why am I feeling this? as if I lost something precious inside me..

I was heading back to my classroom when Hee rin calls out my name.
"luhan!! yeobo!!" she shouted while running towards my direction.
"what?" I asked. Irritated.
"look!! I got an A in my exam!" she smile while showing me her test paper..
now Hee Rin.. I tried to control it. But everytime you smile, I'm losing my knees.. My heart twists, just in case you didn't know, I think I'm inlove with you.. you make me feel that you're always near..

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Tao knew his hyung already likes Hee Rin. He can feel it. Luhan never really acts so nervous when talking to someone, yet what he saw was a different Luhan. He looks so frustrated and all. Tao said that he'll make a move to Hee Rin, but it wasn't true. He doesn't have the heart to betray his hyung.
If he has to sacrifice his happiness for his hyungs, then he'll do everything. He likes Hee Rin, but he knew too well that she can never love him back. He knew too well that from the very beginning, he already lost in the battle.