
Chapter 5 "Scared of Loving You"
Karma's POV
"Karma? What happened?" Nagisa asked me. He looked at me with concern.
"Rio said she doesn't like me back." I responded.
"What? I thought you knew that already." His looked went from concerned to curious.
"I do, it's just that it really upset me that that was the first thing she said when she woke up. I said poured my feelings out when she was unconscious, and I think she heard everything I said."
"I'm not getting it." Nagisa said confused.
"Okay Nagisa. When she was unconscious, I told her how I loved her, how we care about her, how we would all be happy if she new there were people out there who loved her. After all that, she wakes up, and the first thing she says is that she doesn't like me the same way. That's why I stormed out. I got frustrated. Now do you understand Nagisa?"
"Yeah I do, and I agree. When you wake up from being unconscious, that's not usually what you're supposed to say."
"Yeah." Someone understands.
"So...has Kayano contacted you ever since...?"
"No, she didn't." Nagisa said, looking really upset. He changes his facial expressions a lot.
"May I ask why you guys fought?"
"I prefer not to talk about." He avoided my eyes when he said that. I wonder what went on between them. "I'm going to go see how Rio's doing. You coming?"
"Nah. I think I'm going to go home. I'm pretty tired." I faked yawned. I need to get out of this hospital. Away from her.
"Oh, okay. I'll see you later."
"Okay." I got up and started to leave.
"Karma," Nagisa said, "are you sure you're okay?"
"Yeah. I'm sure."
"Okay. Also, if you see Kayano, tell her I said sorry and tell her to contact me." With that Nagisa went inside the room to see Rio. I left the hospital and walked home. I felt bad for yelling at Rio, but I was angry...and I still am.
Rio's POV
I was looking out of the window in the room. I was thinking. I never meant to hurt him, but I know I did. I feel so bad, but I couldn't tell him truth.
"Hey Rio." I turned my head and saw Nagisa coming towards me.
"Hi Nagisa." I smiled at him. He smile back.
"How are you? Are you feeling better?" He looked so worried.
"Calm down. I'm fine. My head just hurts, that's all." I can't keep this all balled up inside. I need to get it out. "Nagisa, can I tell you something? I need to get this out, but don't tell Karma. Please."
"Um, sure. I'm all ears." Nagisa said.
"Okay. I'll start with how I feel. I think...I think I'm in love with Karma."
"What? But he said that you didn't like him like that. He was so upset."
"I know what I said, but I didn't meant it. I love him. I really do."
"Then why did you tell him that you don't like him?" Nagisa asked.
"I'm scared. I'm scared of loving him. Everybody that I loved before left me, and I don't want Karma to leave me."
"Is that why you..." Nagisa looked at her wrist.
"Yeah. That's why. I don't feel like I belong here. I feel like I don't deserve to be alive."
"Rio...when did you become like this. You were never like this. I've known you for a long time now, and you were always so happy and positive even after your parents died." He doesn't understand either. He never understood what went on inside me.
"You know what Nagisa, I'm tired. You should go, I'm going to rest."
"Rio-
"Just go. Please."
"Okay. I will. Bye Rio." Nagisa got up, and left the room with his head down. I hope I didn't hurt his feelings. Ugh. I wish Karma hadn't saved me. Since he did, I ended up hurting him, Nagisa, and myself. I even feel like I hurt Kayano, even though I have no idea where she is. I'm hurting physically. I'm hurting emotionally. I want to make things better. I want to make everyone fell better. I want to love you Karma, but I'm scared. I'm scared. Scared of loving you.
Hi everybody! Sorry for the delay. I had trouble with this chapter. I'm also having trouble with finding pictures for every chapter, so I used a quote (WHICH I DONT OWN) It's harder than I thought it would be to find pictures. The struggle is real. That's pretty much all I have to say today. I hope you guys liked this chapter! Bye!
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