Jungkook waits anxiously, chewing on his lips and tapping his fingers on the steering wheel of his car. Seconds are passing by so slow, and his eyes are wandering around faster than the speed of light - that's clearly not possible but he felt like it - from the lobby of her apartment to the streets leading up to the parking lot where his car is, and on all the mirrors on his car because he wasn't sure where she'd be coming from! 

What's with the sudden request to meet? The last that they actually spoke to each other was that fateful day - which he's still been trying hard to forget by the way. It's been 3 months. Not a single response was given to any of his regretful and embarassing messages. Jungkook had lost all hopes on trying to get her attention and he's already accepting the fact that she's moved on from any thoughts of him.

Did something happen? Is it something bad? There were no indications in her plain and short text of 'Are you free to meet?'. He even expected her to question his decision to come to her place - to dodge the idea or maybe ask him how'd he came to know where she lives - but there's nothing. She just answered 'okay', which is suprising because...well because she's not questioning anything!

All those time spent on making up their imaginary first-ever conversation together in his head hadn't quite prepared him for this, to be honest! But is he surprised at the unpredictability? No, he's not...because it's Lisa. It's the Lisa that he knew from that night. Nothing about her is predictable...

He saw her coming out from the lobby and he held his breath. He hadn't seen her for a long time and now...now he felt like bursting into tears! 

I've missed you so much!

She looks so pretty...in her large, vintage shirt, ripped denim shorts and sneakers. Her long legs strides in big steps, and her hips sways confidently when she spotted his car and makes her way for it. He couldn't tell where she was looking at, but the thought that she remembers his vehicle in less than 2 seconds sparked a little hope in his chest. He unlocks the door as she got closer and tries to breathe normally.

You can do this...you can do this, Kook! You've waited a long time for this - just be cool and charming. Whatever she says, just agree with her. Just say yes, especially if she talks about that day. Just say yes and admit that it's all your fault - this is your only chance -

He noticed her legs coming in first, and then the smirk. What is air even - "So I take it you've been stalking me a lot?" She said as she stepped in, not quite looking at him.

"Yes!" 

Her big, beautiful eyes turned to him with amusement and Jungkook realized what he just answered to. 

"No - shit! I don't mean - I'm sorry!" And he can't help hissing to himself for appearing so foolish! "I wasn't stalking -"

"It's okay, calm down. But seriously, we have to stop meeting like this,"

What does she mean by that? This is their first meet since that night - that one night when he first met her! Is she saying for us to stop meeting altogether?? But she's the one who asked to meet - I mean, yeah, I stalked her before but I hadn't for how long -

"You...creepily waiting around, I mean,"

Oh...wait -

"Creepy? I - I wasn't trying to...I mean, I was waiting but I wasn't -"

"Breathe, Jungkook-ssi. I'm not trying to intimidate you. God knows what you could do to me - you being such an icon in this country and me being...what did you said - ahh, worse than trash?" 

That last bit felt like a dagger sinking and twisting in his heart. She remembers...and he hates himself so much right now!  

This is the first girl who he has such strong feelings for - or any feelings for that matter. The girl who had given him countless chances in one single night...and trusted him to linger on her skin and touch. The girl who courageously absorbed with her head held high upon his blind and ignorant attacks. He should be thankful that she still remembers his name...but the formality and the deserving sarcasm doesn't sit quite right.

"You can start driving now," Her small smile contains humor, and he wasn't sure what it's for. Is it because he's a nervous-wreck or because she knows that she could potentially destroy him with it? Jungkook cleared his throat. 

It's okay...she can throw sarcasms and insults towards him...it's been a long time coming anyways, so he welcomes it. She kept it to herself for the past 3 months...it must've hurt her so much! I deserve every single beating she has for me.

"Where um...where do you wanna go?"

"Leica store in Jung-gu," She puts on the seatbelt. "It seems that I underestimated you that night. I knew you were rich, but I didn't know you're 'billionaire' rich. So now I'm claiming back my camera that you broke. Full set, together with the strap and memory card. And for the psychological trauma, add in another lense. I need it back. It's small and easy to carry around,"

"Yes, I'll pay for the damage - you can tell me - anything you want, I'll buy them for you,"

"Good. Cus I need it to take pictures wherever I go now...you know...since you bought pretty much all I had,"

Oh. My. God. She knew! "What - how -"

"I kept getting 'the buyer prefers to remain anonymous' from the galleries. It wasn't hard to figure out. Who else would've showed up as if he's my biggest fan ever to buy every one of my works across the country in a span of 3 months? I only know one person who's desperate enough for a redemption and has too much of money to spend,"

"I am...that desperate one," He sighed and looked down to his knotted fingers...because really, is there even a point of trying to lie about it?? 

"I know...I saw your messages,"

"You...you read them?"

She nodded slowly, pursing her lips into a straight line. "It was...quite entertaining,"

Jungkook sighed again and his cheeks felt warm. Damn, he must be so red right now with these back-to-back embarassing remarks thrown at him! But of course...he can't say anything about it. He knew she meant most about the drunken texts he had sent and there's really no denying it! Was she laughing when she heard it? 99% guaranteed! Well...at least he made her laugh...right?

"What did you do with them anyway? Did you burn them or keep them locked up in a warehouse somewhere?"

He looks up immediately and with hopeful eyes, he asked, "Would you like to see?" 

...

It's really amusing and entertaining to be sitting here and watch him tremble around her presence. It reminds her of that night when they first met. He still looks like the nervous bunny she remembers so well. But for some reason, he looks way more handsome than she could recall. Which is good for him, but bad for Lisa. 

She didn't think it would be this hard to be this composed. She only wanted her cute camera back...and maybe talk a little to somehow find some closure between them. Bambam was right. All these back and forth of constant wondering and worrying is definitely affecting her more than ever, and the only way for her to move on in peace is if Jungkook would just move on with his life and leaves her alone.

As much as that night meant a lot to her, they're just world's apart - too different from one another. And she has to make him see that. There's no doubt that he has a lot to offer - probably way more than what she thinks she deserves - but what happened between them in one single night proved to be too much for both of them. 

It's terrifying to think that she had cried and missed Jungkook so much when she only spent less than a day with him. What's going to happen if they spend more time together? If things don't work out and they're forced to part again, what will happen to her heart? What will happen to his mind? He already spent an unnecessary amount of money for God-knows-what over a misunderstanding, to what lengths will he go if she actually does something wrong and they ended up losing each other again?

It's not something that she could imagine, to be honest. There are so many uncertainties and she wasn't sure if she'd be able to handle it. She's just an ordinary person...while Jeon Jungkook has his name plastered in more than a hundred pages on Google alone. Yes, she did her research well throughout the past 3 months!

"S - so...have you um...have you been well?" He stuttered while focusing on the road. She's not sure where he's bringing her, but she trusts him enough to know that it won't be somewhere dangerous.

"I have...thanks for asking. Have you?"

"Yes," Silence fills the air as she nods and throws her gaze outside. This is awkward...way more awkward than that night! 

"I um...I'm sorry about that day. And um...the messages. It must've bothered you a lot," 

It didn't, but she couldn't say it. It's funny because she remembers more about the time they've spent together, rather than that day when he threw her out. She could only recall a few of his words and actions, but the rest are wiped off from her memory. She did often wondered what could've been if the misunderstanding never happened. 

Would they have more days being happy in each other's company? Would he confessed how much he likes her, just as she would have to him? What kind of boyfriend would Jeon Jungkook really be - and how would it feel to be his girlfriend? How long would it take for her to tell him she's in love with him - a week or a month? And how long until he realizes that he could've gotten someone much, much better than her?

"And um...please don't be mad at Bam - I mean, Bam-ie. He didn't wanna give me your number and address at first, but I kinda forced it out. It really wasn't easy for him -"

"Don't worry, Jungkook-ssi. I'm not mad at anyone,"

"Except for me," The disappointment is apparent in his small voice and smile, and she can't help but feel guilty for placing it there.

"Well...I was at first. But I'm not anymore. You misunderstood the situation, I can accept that. I probably would've acted the same if I have so much to lose -"

"It wasn't about losing what I had, please don't -"

"You don't have to explain anymore -"

"But I want to. I still want to," Lisa zipped her mouth to let him speak. If this is his way of moving on, she'll let him do it. "It's about losing anything else...but you,"

Oh...what does he mean by that?

"When I thought that...there were so many things on my mind and I was mostly scared about these things being right. I didn't want them to be right. I never felt the way I did to someone, like how I felt when I was with you. It scared me the most...the thought of losing you scared me the most. So I kept provoking it - provoking you. Just to hear you say to me that I was wrong. I really wanted to hear you tell me that. And when you didn't, I felt like I had lost everything...that I lost you. It was wrong for me to put that kind of burden on you, I realized that. And I'm really, truly sorry. I'm so weak, I know,"

Lisa stared at the guy, processing the heartfelt confession and his honest, regretful expression. How is he so perfect and amazing? He took such good care of her that night...and he's still in a way trying to take care of her today. She's indeed, so damn lucky to have met such a kind man. Whoever managed to earn his love would definitely be the luckiest of us all!

"Please...forgive me," 

She's read of his pleadings so many times on the screen of her phone, but to actually hear it now...it just added more pressure on the tightness in her chest.

"You're forgiven then," She forced a big smile because it's better than bursting into tears and pulling him into a kiss! No...she can't do that! 

He deserves to move on from the guilt...so she won't try to draw him closer. It was only 3 months, but it felt like the longest time ever. Finally...today...finally she'll be able to let him go, just as how she had let her first love go. 

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