I feel numb as I walk back to the hotel. It was raining, but I didn't mind. It only helped hide the tears that rolled down my face. The talk with my parents didn't go the way I had hoped.

I shuffle inside the hotel and take the elevator up to our floor leaving a puddle in the middle of it. I knock on the door and Yoongi quickly opens it.

"JILLIAN!" shock and concern are plastered on his face as he rushes me inside, sitting me on the bed.

"What happened?" he asks, grabbing a towel and softly drying my hair.

"I'm fine..." I say my voice hoarse.

Before he can reply, I stand up dragging myself to the bathroom closing the door behind me, and just drop to the floor continuing to cry.

I hear the bathroom door open and Yoongi sits beside me, pulling me into his chest.

"I'm fine, Yoongi" I say sniffling and trying to wipe my tears.

"What happened, Jillian? You don't have to keep it in, you can tell me" he says as he rubs my back.

It's like the dam is broken and I inhale a deep breath. "She said that she and Dad realized quickly that parenthood wasn't for them. That they weren't ready to be tied down to a child," I break down covering my face.

"She said that they moved on with their lives and there was a reason why they didn't come and get me after the first time Christine and Ashton were arrested."

Yoongi opens his mouth and closes it, not knowing what to say.

"When dad came home he didn't even look at me, Yoongi! He just said it was best if I left and didn't come back. He didn't want to have to explain who I was to his boys."

"You're not a mistake, Jellybean" Yoongi says softly. A small giggle leaves my lips at the use of a nickname from him.

He pulls away from me and makes me look up at him. "You don't need them, you are so much stronger than they are and have overcome so much! We love you and we want you. They are idiots and don't deserve a wonderful daughter like you."

"I want to go home, Yoongi, to our family" I cry, clutching his sweater.

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Yoongi was passed out beside me, tightly holding my hand letting me know he was by my side. He hadn't left me alone since I got back to the hotel, just constantly trying to reassure me.

I was anxious the whole way home, but as our house came into view I relaxed. The people who meant the most to me in the whole world were behind the door and I knew I had them.

I woke Yoongi up and we made our way inside. The house was quiet, as me and Yoongi dragged in our duffle bags and climbed up the stairs. The guys must be out at work.

I reassured Yoongi I'd be fine alone. I was gonna take a nap, so he gave me a quick hug and pressed a kiss to my temple. Grumbling that if I needed anything to knock on his door.

I walk into our room and go to pull out some pj's when I notice none of my clothes are in the closet. I looked around and noticed none of my items were in here.

I walk out and into my room to see all of my stuff in a huge pile on my bed. It's then that I realize that I've fucked things up. But I'll fix it! I go back to our room and sit on the bed to wait for him.

I can't fight the sleep that keeps tugging on my eyes. I lay down in his spot clutching his pillow close to me as I fall asleep.

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I feel someone shaking me awake and crack my eyes open. A smile on my lips as I sit up. "Kookie."

"Go to your room, Jillian" he says, voice strained.

"This is my room" I argued back.

"It's not" he says pressing his lips together as he draws in a deep breath. 

"What's going on, Kookie?" I grab his hand only for him to yank it away.

"You just disappeared! What were you thinking? You didn't even call me, Jillian!" He says.

"I had to go, Kookie! I needed to handle something. Why can't you understand that?! Why are you being a dick?!" I yell back.

"You're so disappointing. Every time I want to have a serious talk, you don't say anything or you start a damn fight!" he finally raises his voice to me.

"I went to go see my parents, Jungkook! Are you being fucking serious right now?! You don't even know what happened and I come home to see you have moved me out of the room?!"

"That's just an excuse! You always have a lot of excuses! I must be really stupid, but I've had enough!" He says pacing the room.

"W-what?" my anger dies and dread fills me.

"Kookie...please, I'm sorry. I don't want to lose you" I say standing up to face him.

"I'm done being a clown, getting played by you" he says with a hard edge to his tone.

"Kookie, don't do this!" I plead, my tears building in my eyes.

"Don't cry, Jillian" he says as he walks to the door and opens it for me.

"Even if you cry I won't do anything for you anymore, I'm done. When you see me around the house, you don't need to run away, I won't be mean. We just won't have anything to do with each other anymore, we will be just like strangers."

I don't know what to do or say, this isn't what I wanted at all! Seeing my parents wasn't worth losing him. I walk up to him cupping his face, pulling him down to look at me, but he only moves away looking down. 

"This ends today" he says, looking back at me the tears swimming in his eyes.

He gives me a nudge pushing me out of the room and closing the door behind me. My legs give out from underneath me and I collapse, leaning against the door. I can hear him crying, but have no idea how to fix this. What can I say?

"Jelly"

"Come on get up, you can come stay in my room tonight" I feel Tae wrap his arms around me as he picks me up, carrying me to his room.

He leaves and comes back with some of my pj's, then steps out again to let me change. When he comes back I'm already curled up under the covers and he pulls me into his arms, kissing the top of my head.

"It will be okay, Hun"

"Don't call me that anymore" I mumble.

"Okay, Jelatin" he laughs.

"That's Jimin's"

"It's mine now. Go to sleep, we will fix this tomorrow."

I shake my head not believing his words. None of this is okay. It's not going to be fixed...

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