I wanna know who I was before I became a regalia.

I wanna feel alive.

I love you.

Every important word you'd dare to utter in this life defined you.

What exactly would happen if all that happened to disappear?

3rd P.O.V:

"This is an anomaly,"

"No such thing has ever occurred before!"

"Is this god-Yato, using some type of dark magic on his regalia?"

Yukine took in every word each of the gods of the heavens said. He admired that they believed he was special, almost worshipping him as if he was some kind of legend, but there was so much to focus on.

His entire world was flooding his memory banks, his life literally 'flashing before his eyes'.

"Yukine.. are you okay..?" Yato put his hand supportingly on the regalia's shoulder.

He nodded simply with a blank stare, and once he finally began to blink, he saw it, his last moments.

His terse breaths as his head slid down the side of a mailbox.

The boy was clinging to life, as he still had hope in store for his life, hope that things would get better for him, that he could be happy with a family once again.

The entirety of his world went black after that, his eyes relaxing and his lips freezing in time.

Yukine snapped back to reality after that, his heart beating against his ribcage, and the quickened pace of his breathing.

"I.. I'm okay," Yukine muttered, utterly surprised that he was able to withstand the power of something such as the God's Greatest Secret.

"Y-you did it! Yukine you did it!" Yato said happily, taking the regalia in his arms and ruffling his blonde tufts.

Although Yukine was proud that he had managed to survive his very own preconceived sins, he couldn't help but worry about you.

"W-where's (Y/n)?" He asked a convivial Yato, who widened his ice blue eyes at the sound of your name.

It seemed that a dozen emotions crossed the god's face at the time, but he settled on a simple smile.

"(Y/n) is strong. She made it through just like you did, but.."

Yukine's heart was doing backflips in his chest as he moved away from Yato's hold.

The boy was desperate to see you after just learning that the two of you shared a past, but his words made him nervous.

"But what?"

"Yukine, whenever a regalia becomes aware of their past, there's no telling what could happen to them. They could come out completely fine like you, or be.. reborn. And (Y/n).. well she's being reborn."

"Reborn? You mean.. it'll be like when we first found her..?" Yukine questioned, his eyes reflecting signs of worry.

"Yeah... it'll be like we're meeting her all over again."

It didn't take much thought to know what he meant. Every single thing you and Yukine had gone through, believing you had finally made it, would be worth next to nothing.

You would have never known that he loved you, or that the two of you had such a deep past, but then again, every hardship you had gone through.. being a Nora and a translucent regalia.. they would cease to exist.

Noticing the blonde's pained expression, Yato decided to attempt to comfort him.

"I know Yukine.. I know how you feel. But it's a chance for her to be normal. That's what she wanted after all,"

Yato wasn't worried, though. Being your master, even though you'd overcame what made you so troubled, he'd heard every single thought you had about wanting to normal. If that would've made you happy, then that's what he wanted for you too.

Caught between a rock and a hard place, Yukine placed his palm to his forehead.

He wanted nothing more than for you to have what you wanted, but if that happened..

"Do you think that (Y/n) will still love me? Even though all of this has gone on?"

"I can't say for sure, Yukine. But every single memory you've lived with (Y/n).. you can re-live it all over again."

"Can I at least see her?"

Yato gestured to your weapon glimmering in the air as it glimmered in the air.

It was nearly done, to which Yukine looked on with a heavy heart.

Without warning, you materialized, wearing plain white robes as you did when he'd first met you.

His eyes widened, as he creased his eyebrows and you simply stared at him with pursed lips.

"(Y/n)..? Can you remember me..?" His voice was pleading as he reached out to you.

You looked at him in confusion and said the very words that shattered his heart.

"Um I'm sorry, but..who are you..?"

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*1 month later*

Your P.O.V:

"After that you hated me for making you go on a rollercoaster," Yukine explained to me, pointing to some pictures of me clinging onto him as he had his hands in the air.

I gave him a solemn smile, giggling a bit.

"That sounds fun.. if you were ever up to it... would you take me again?" You asked him in anticipation.

"Yeah.. of course I would.." Yukine said with a small smile, a bit surprised at your sudden request.

Its been a while since I came back to this world, unbeknownst of any type of past I've supposedly experienced.

This boy, Yukine, he's explained to me most of what happened between us, but it's almost as if I'm dealing with a stranger.

But there's something there.. in my heart. Whenever I'm with him, I feel something, like my past self is living on through my feelings.

"(Y/n).. have.. you-have you remembered anything that happened to you on your own?" Yukine asked you, looking at the ground.

"I haven't remembered really anything, but.. whenever I'm with you, something in my heart just makes me remember why I was in love with you." I explained, to which his head perked up at the word 'love'.

"One day.. do you think.. do you ever think you'll love me again?" Yukine asked with hope lying deep within his eyes, to which my breathing stopped.

What's this warm feeling.. this warm feeling that I have..?

"I'll love you when you show me why my heart makes me think I should love you." I replied, to which he got a look of determination in his eyes.

Suddenly, he grabbed my hand, pulling me away from the porch of Kofuku's shop.

"W-where are we going?" I questioned him, a look of uncertainty crossing my features.

"Some where I know you'll have to remember."

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Yukine made me stop at some random street corner, as I looked on at him in confusion.

"You have to remember.. this is where you confessed to me.. in the rain." Yukine explained, as I cocked my eyebrow.

I looked around, noticing a few cars speeding away from a hazy green light and some of the older buildings lining the sidewalk.

It wasn't much different from any other street corner in Japan, but for some reason I just can't remember what Yukine so desperately wanted me to.

"I-I'm sorry Yukine.. I just don't remember." I apologized, feeling a bit guilty for causing him to become disappointed.

"It's fine.. I guess I can't just force you to remember.. but I do wanna remind you-"

"Remind me what?"

"Remind you that you suck at video games."

Suddenly my eye twitched involuntarily, as I gritted my teeth.

It was as if something had suddenly taken control of you with seething anger.

"Yuki Sato, I am an MLG when it comes to videogames and you dare defile my name with that kind of talk?!" Your lips spat angrily without your brain's consent.

You'd had a sudden revelation, placing your fingers tenderly over your lips as Yukine's smile spread into a grin.

"You said my name.. you said my name!!" He said happily, enveloping you in a hug, spinning you around.

Every single memory up to a month go flowed into the surfaces of your memory, your mind going blank for a moment.

My name.

The promise.

Yukine.

"I remember.. I remember everything.. I remember exactly why I love you," You said breathlessly, placing your forehead against his.

His eyes were bright with hope, as his lips pressed into yours.

"I love you so much, (Y/n)."

When the two of you died, you both couldn't understand. When you had so much to live for, so much hope.

And as the two of you had seen your last seconds of daylight you couldn't wish for anything more than one more precious moment of life.

Though today, things were different.

There was difference, between now and then. Now, you'd finally felt alive.

Through all this, you and Yukine had made a promise to each other: To Never Let Each Other Go.

You'd both followed through with it, despite what told you to break it, to take the easy way out.

Souls like Suzuha's and mentors like Yato. Even Medusa had taught you to push on through whatever struggles threatening you.

But it's the determined souls that got you here, those souls that made you feel alive.

And that's all that matters.

The End

I'm not crying. What are you talking about?? Okay I might be..
Over the course of these few days I've been thinking long and hard about this book, about how it would end. Because this is a book that I would turn to when I was feeling upset, and I can't believe that it's over now. I'm sure you guys didn't want it to end either, but all good things must come to an end, right? You and Yukine ended up happy which I promised such a long time ago but I'd never known it would lead up to here. I'm gonna miss seeing some familiar accounts commenting out there, and overall after writing a book for a year its just hard to let it go. But don't think this is the last you're seeing of Yukine. You never know, another fanfic unrelated to this one may come up. Thank you all so much for almost 25k reads and 50k reads on the preceding book Angels Can't Die. I'll really miss updating this story way slower than I should have been, and I love all of you guys.
(If you wanna see more Yukine you could also request for him in my request book :3) well this is it. Again thank you so much for even choosing to read this book if you've managed to make it this far.
-Drama Typhoon ♡