I've taken a long break guys, I apologise so much for the wait, I was feeling art way more for a long time and I was just honestly not in the headspace for writing. I'm back now though, updates will still be very slow. So back to Matthew's pov*

I knew it was already far fetched to ask Gilbert to stay in the same bed as me, but once he was in the bed I wanted more contact.

If I was being completely honest with myself I had never truly gotten over Gilbert, but I was married now and I wasn't about to go off with someone else just because he was someone I had been only slightly in love with since I was 13 came back into my life.

Even if Caleb didn't let me have friends and even if he didn't help out around the house or make much time for me.

I was going to be faithful to him no matter what. He would do the same for me. And Gilbert only sees me as a friend anyway.

But I would never consider leaving Caleb, as shitty as he was sometimes, I still loved him and nothing was going to change that. Especially not the extremely hot, sexy German pressed flush against my back...

It wasn't going to happen. I was with Caleb and that was that.

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*Still Matthew's pov*

I spent the next night like this too, and the next and the next... Thinking about how Caleb would react if he ever saw Gilbert with me like this. Or how satisfying it would be to leave him for Gilbert...

But I wouldn't do that to him, I was married to Caleb and that was that, I wasn't going to cheat because I was a loyal spouse dispite the fact that he saw every other breathing thing as a threat to him.

It would still be nice though...

By Tuesday Gilbert and I had fallen into a pattern, he would always go to bed later than me by a few minutes, when he started taking to long I would lean on his doorframe and call him to bed, he would crawl into bed next to me and pull me into him, and I would stay up the whole night rethinking my entire marriage

I could tell he wanted me too, and it broke my heart that I wasn't his. But I was with Caleb.

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*still Matthew's pov*

Soon Friday came around and I decided that I needed to go back home... To Caleb...

"Are you sure you don't want me to go with you? You know, for moral support or something?" he asked hopefully.

I shook my head and grabbed my coat from the hook. "It's alright Gilbert, besides I don't think Caleb would be too happy with that..."

Gilbert laughed but it sounded forced. "Yeah, probably not a great idea..."

"Bye Gilbert." I giggled, leaning down to kiss his cheek.

"Ye- yeah, bye, birdie..."

I gave him a small wave and a smile before walking away.

I really didn't want to leave but I had to, Caleb was waiting for me and he would already be mad about me leaving in the first place.

I sighed as I walked down to the bus stop. I knew I wasn't happy with Caleb but I had to keep lying to myself, and to him.

The bus soon pulled up to the stop and I dragged myself into one of the seats at the back. I stared out the window, watching the scene move by as the bus drove away.

Gilbert and I probably wouldn't see each other for a while since Caleb would definitely go off the rails if I went to see him.

I couldn't leave him though, he was all I had. There was Alfred, but he had that Ivan guy, and I didn't want to listen to that. There was Gilbert, but he was sharing a space with Antonio, I could stay with Lovino but I doubted he'd let me stay for long. And there was no way I was going back to Arthur and Francis.

This wasn't fair. This whole situation was unfair. I wanted to go off with Gilbert but I couldn't. I wouldn't do that to Caleb.

The bus pulled up to my stop and I began the walk back to my apartment, the whole time contemplating my relationship.

I wasn't going to leave Caleb. As much as I hated it, as much as I wanted to, I wouldn't. Because I knew he wouldn't if the roles were reversed.

I wasn't going to let him ruin my friendship with Gilbert though, not after thirteen years of missing him.

But there was no way Caleb would drop this. Especially when he knew Caleb and I knew each other when we were kids. Especially when he knew how close we were.

I didn't want to do what I did with Lovino and just lie, I needed to stand up to him, but he wouldnt let it go. I didn't know what to do.

Finally I reached the apartment. I took a deep breath before I reached for my keys and pushed the door open.

I heard something from the living room so I walked over to where it was coming from.

"Caleb?"

Yeah that was Caleb. Caleb and a total stranger. On our couch with their shirts off. Making out.

That hypocrite.

Caleb looked up at the sound of my voice and his face immediately filled with fear.

He shoved away the other man and stood up. "Matthew! I-I can explain!"

"Are you kidding me? I leave for a week. A single week and you go off with some completely random person? How's that for hypocrisy huh?"

The guy on the couch stood up and glared at Caleb. "What the fuck Caleb? I thought you said you were single!"

Caleb opened hoe mouth to speak but nothing came out, the man continued speaking.

"Have you been lying this whole time?! Is this why you never bring me over here?!"

"Milo I'm sor-" Caleb started to say, but he was cut off by the man, Milo, slapping him hard across the face.

Milo turned to me and I could see that he clearly didn't know Caleb was cheating, he looked truly apologetic.

"I'm really, sorry, he told me he was single. I never meant to get in the way of your relationship." he said.

"I know, it's alright. We clearly weren't working out anyway. I think it would be best if you left though."

Milo nodded and pulled his shirt over his head. Caleb and I stayed silent as he walked to the door.

As soon as the door was closed I glared at Caleb harder than I've ever glared before.

He seemed to finally regain his ability to speak. "Look what was I supposed to do? You were off with that Gilbert. Was I meant to just sit around and watch?"

Was he serious. He genuinely thought that was a good way to deal with being jealous? Cheating.

"Caleb you idiot. I never 'went off' with Gilbert, I kept it in my pants because I knew you were here waiting and staying loyal to me as well." I rolled my eyes and started walking to the door, "I guess I was wrong about that. Maybe I should have just stayed with Gilbert since you obviously don't need me around."

"Baby-"

"Don't fucking 'baby' me! I'm not your 'baby anymore. The next time you see me is going to be in divorce court, or when I come to get my things."

I opened the door and started to leave, but Caleb grabbed my arm.

"Mattie don't go, please. I won't do it again. I promise, it was just a misunderstanding, I thought you were-"

"Yeah well you thought wrong. I wanted so badly to just stay with Gilbert. I wanted so badly to leave you right then but I didn't. But apparently you think I'm some kind of asshole who cheats with any person who comes into my life, so you decided to do that yourself!"

He opened his mouth to speak but I pulled my arm away and as lammed the door ijn his face before the words could come out.

I started making my way back to the bus. I was going to Gilbert's place and this time I wasn't holding back.

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I did it guys, I finally posted this chapter. It took so long and I'm so sorry for that,but it's finally here. The next chapter should be up soon.