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---------------------------------------------------------I yelled. I called out. But no one came to save me. I couldn't take it all, the world was spinning. I swallowed. The  foul taste lingering in my throat as I grabbed more. I shivered from the sensation it created.

Bitter.

The only word that could describe the way I feel, not even.  It hurt. Everything hurt. My vision blurred, but not with tears. My feet shuffled against the hard floor as I slowly dragged myself to the living room. I couldn't take it. I enjoyed the adrenaline, the hateful, yet lovable feeling right before you reached out to kiss darkness.

Death.

That's all I wanted. The die. For the pain to go away, but I so wanted it to stay. Nobody cares...so why should I?
That's all I needed...

For it to end.
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I gasped. My rapid heart beat echoed in my ears. I had a nightmare. The same nightmare I've had since that night.

My overdose.

I could still feel the medicine go down my throat, and I hated the feeling so much. I coughed at the to thought.
I sighed and looked over at my phone and turned it on.

7:03

I don't have work today, but I didn't want to lay around in bed all day ether. Slowly I stood up, and stubble to my closet. Grabbing a black sweatshirt and white/gray skinny jeans, I struggled putting them on and later walked into the kitchen.

   I didn't feel like eating once again. I usually only eat lunch or dinner. Mostly because Armin makes me. I smiled slighty to myself at the memory of him throwing food at me.
Maybe I'll just go walk around or something.

--time skip cause I'm a lazy kat --

(THIRD PERSON CAUSE WHY NOT)

The tall man shivered as he walked around. He haven't needed to worry about people reconizing him.
He didn't really look the same as on the show he acts in. (Aot, no fucking shit sherlock)
His hair was a little darker and his eyes were actually two different colors (yes, just like in the manga his eyes are yellow and in the anime his eyes are blue-ish. It's just they gave him contacts so chill).  Not only that, the city he lived in was small.

He walked around aimlessly before his eyes fell upon the same park as a few days ago.

Eren thought about the boy he helped.
Smiling slightly, he walked in and looked at the play structures.
He wasn't gonna lie, he kind of wanted to see the kid again.
It reminded Eren of a childhood he never had. He wanted that boy to grow up strong and kind,not twisted like the rest of the world.
Sighing to himself, he began to walk out.

"Mister!" A child - like voice yelled.
"Please wait!" It called out again.
Eren turned around to be faced with a running boy. He immediately knew who the boy was. Suddenly, the boy tripped and landed face - first in the light snow. Eren would have laughed if he wasn't worried about the boy being hurt. He began to walk towards the boy, seeing as he stumbled getting up.  (I don't know what I did guys!! TT.TT )

"Are you okay?" Eren asked as he gold a hand out to the fallen boy.

The boy smiled and laughed. " I'm okay, thank you sir!" He exclaimed and grabbed erens hand.

Eren looked at the boy with soft eyes as he brought him to his feet. "What are you doing, running like that?" He asked laughing slightly.
He blushed and grinned. "I was looking for you!"

Erens eyes widened as he realized that he was wearing his scarf. He squatted down so the kid didn't break his neck looking up.

"Why were you looking for me?"

"Because mommy wants to meet you silly!"

That wasn't what Eren was expecting to hear. Like really, how would you react if a kid comes over to you and Says their mother wants to meet you? He was purely confused.

"What?" Eren asked bewildered. As if on cue, a middle-aged lady walked up to them with a wooden basket in her pale hands. The blonde boy ran towards her, his messy hair bouncing all over the place.

"M-mommy, this is him!" He exclaimed and threw his arms around her free arm, that wasn't holding a blanket.

"Oh, your such a young fine man." She smiled kindly at me. I blushes slightly at the comment.

"U-uh, thank you ma'am." I responded, embarrassed.

The kid stared at me for a second and then started grinning. After seeing the kid happy, Eren felt a little better.

He thought life did have a little beauty in it.