So uhm.. I think I'm gonna stop at twenty chapters.. I'm aware of how this'll end and I can't drag it out much longer
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Nico's POV

"How have you been Nico?" Dr Skylar asked, writing things on her clipboard. "It's been a while."

"I've been okay.. busy actually." I smile to myself.

"I'm glad to hear that. What about your family? Your parents names are Maria and Hayde correct?" She asks.

"My mom changed her name to Stephanie a while back actually. It's odd cause she goes by both." I say.

"Interesting. Well as much as I love hearing about your family, I've been rather concerned about you. Is your new medication working out for you?"

"Oh.. it helps most of the time.." I shrug.

"Can you tell me if there's an improvement? Percentage wise?"

"Maybe 40% better.."

"40% is much better than 0%." She smiles at me. I hate that smile. She pities me.

"Anything unusual? Anxiety, nightmares, hallucinations?"

"No.. well maybe a few nightmares but nothing I haven't seen before.."

"So you have recurring dreams then.. can you tell me what they are about?"

Hahah tell her the one where you dream about your exes!

No no the one of the serial killer!

How about when you lose your mind?

Maybe when you find Leo dead?

How about the dream you have during the day too? Where you think of all the ways you can kill yourself?

Hmmmm... 40%...

Should we sing a little song?

35%

Slit your throat, with a knife~

30%

I've heard that one a thousand times~

25%

Go on out with a bang, darling it'll feel all the same~

20%

Lose your mind, you'll be free, it'll just be you and me~

15%

Not a sound, not a word, let me go and take a turn~

10%

One two three, make them deep, L E O looking back at me~

5%

The horror, on his face...

0%

Oh dear boy.. 

What a disgrace...

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Hmmm I think it starts out like this...

"Nico, come over here for a minute!" Percy calls, grinning.

"Coming!" I smile and run over into his arms.

"I love you so much, you're so perfect." Jason hums, walking up next to him.

They smother me in hugs and kisses, everything soft and cute until the others take a turn. Clothes being shed, bodies being groped.

"Ahn Nico you're so tight.." Luke moans.

I open my mouth, wanting to respond but my lips were captured by another. Ethan kissed me hard and possessively..

I'm theirs...

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My turn!

The rain was heavy, beating down like a hundred thousand pebbles. The water splashed as I ran, my clothes drenched in the downpour. The streets were empty except for a few cars and maybe a person or two across the street. Those jerks actually had umbrellas.

But there was someone else. Someone in the shadows. Someone behind me. Someone with a knife.

One two one two one two one two

Almost home

Come on

A force slammed into me and I gasp, stumbling. I look up with wide eyes, seeing a twisted smile on a shrouded face. The cold brick was against my back and I shudder, trying to find a way out.

"Hello, little robin." He chuckles, pushing my wet hair from my face.

"Please leave me alone.." I whimper out.

He grins, pulling out his knife. "Oh no, little one. That won't happen."

He traces the blade down my cheek, and I flinch as it cuts in. Dark red blood bubbled up to the surface, only to be washed away by the rain.

"I guess we'll have to try harder if we're gonna get any real color." His voice was a whisper as well as a scream.

Fear was evident I my expression and I struggle, panting hard. The rain felt colder, came down harder. The pain I felt next could not be described.

To say I felt the blade dig into my stomach would be like saying eating fourteen ghost peppers and saying they tasted like candy.

I slump against the man and my breathing hitched.

"What a lovely color. I think this one is my favorite. Let's make more."

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Mines gonna be the best!

I look around the bedroom, the world is spinning.

Too fast too fast too fast

I take a deep breath, coughing slightly.

Can't breathe can't breathe can't breathe

My vision starts to blur and black spots dance

Pass out pass out pass out

A giggle bubbles up in my throat. Hah... everything is okay...

Blood dribbled down my arm and stained my hands. I let out a laugh, walking out of my bedroom.

Bianca lay face down on her floor, a puddle of blood surrounding her. My parents lay side by side in the kitchen, more red.

Knives are so sharp, so efficient. It's so great...

Knocking. Some one is knocking on the door. I grin and pick up a steak knife, walking to the door.

"Nico I'm here!"

I'm so happy he wasn't busy.

I open the door.

He screams.

I laugh.

Oh.. when did he get on the floor?

Someone got blood on my new knife too...

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Lame.

Leo had had a rough day at school. He was texting me all day about it, saying he couldn't give me a ride home. He told me he had to stay after with a teacher. I wanted to surprise him so I waited and went to his classrooms but he wasn't there. He didn't answer my calls or texts.

After telling Bia to pick me up, I take my car and go to his house. No Leo.

Library. No Leo.

Park. No.

Favorite restaurant. No.

After driving for an hour I go to the woods. Sure enough, his car was parked where we usually left it. I go up to it and frown when seeing it unlocked, keys on the seat. I take the keys and lock the car, putting them in my pocket. This was the last place to check... I walk through the woods, taking the usual route. When I get to the tree though...

Everything broke at once.

Leo hung there from a noose around his neck.

Tears stung my eyes and I cover my mouth, choking out a sob.

He was gone.

My world.

Everything.

It broke.

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Sleep child. Sleep and never awaken.