The day after the funeral, Dongyup decided to go to her apartment to collect her things. He had never been inside before, so he had no idea what to expect. He was very surprised to find that she had very few belongings and those she had, were already packaged in boxes. Everything except a journal, a present and letter that sat upon her desk.

                He walked over to her desk and was surprised to see that the letter was addressed to him. He picked it up, ripped it open and read the contents of the letter.

Dear Samchon,

            I know it must be weird for you to find this letter. Actually, it's pretty weird for me to be writing it. Dr. Park had said that I should write down everything I wanted to say to my loved ones before I die. I didn't know what he meant at the time, but now I think I do.

            Samchon thank you for taking care of me after my parents died. I know I wasn't always the easiest person to deal with and was often selfish, but I realize now that you never once complained about it. You always put up with my whining and always gave in when I threw a tantrum. I hope you can forgive me if I made your life more difficult and complicated than it needed to be.

            I want you to know that I appreciate everything you have done for me and please don't be too sad about my passing. I just want you to know that I love you very much and I will always be with you in your heart. The gift on my desk is for you. I hope you like it.

            Samchon, I have one last favor to ask of you. Please give this journal to my friends. You can read it too, but I want my friends to see it as well because it contains all my feelings for both you and them.

            Thank you for always being the best Samchon. I love you <3

            Goodbye for now,

            Seohee

                As he read over the contents of the letter, the tears that he had managed to hold back throughout the funeral fell continuously. He folded the letter and placed it back on the desk. Then he picked up the journal and began flipping through the contents. At first all he saw was writing, but as he read on he noticed that she had started to draw little pictures on the side and even further along she had attached pictures to the pages.

                He collapsed onto the chair and cried as he read through her journal. "I can't believe this girl" he sobbed. Once he finished reading the journal, he picked up the present and opened it. More tears fell as he gently removed the watch from its case and placed it on his wrist.

                The next day at school, he called the members of Infinite to the infirmary. "Hello Hyung" Sunggyu greeted Dongyup somberly. "What did you want to see us for?"

                "Have a seat" Dongyup said, gesturing towards the table he had set up. "I've got something for you guys."

                The guys took their seats while Dongyup grabbed the journal from his desk. He then walked over to the group and placed the journal in the middle of the table. "What is this?" Myungsoo asked.

                "This is Seohee's journal" he smiled sadly.

                The guys all stared at the journal in shock. "Are you sure it is okay for us to be looking at that? Isn't that like...... her diary?" Dongwoo nervously questioned.

                "It's okay," Dongyup said "She wanted you guys to have it." Then he left the exam room and went to his office so that the guys could have some privacy.

                The guys just sat and stared at the journal on the table. "What do we do?" Sungjong asked Sunggyu and everyone focused of him.

                "How am I supposed to know?" Sunggyu became defensive.

                Hoya reached forward and grabbed the journal. He opened it up to the first page and began to read aloud.

5/14/2010 - Dr. Park said that I should start keeping a journal. He said it would help my loved ones after I passed away. The truth is, I don't know what to write in a journal. I've never had one before. Guess I'll just write down the things I want to do when I get better.

                1)    Go to school and make tons of friends.

                2)    Read the complete works of William Shakespeare and act out the scenes of Romeo and Juliet with my boyfriend.

                3)    Go to the movies with my friends.

                4)    Buy my Samchon a new watch.

                5)    Go to the amusement park and ride the Ferris Wheel

                6)    Wear a bikini to the beach.

                Hoya looked around the table and asked "Did you guys know about any of this?"

                "No" Sunggyu said and they all replied as they shook their heads. "What else does it say?"

                Hoya flipped the pages to another entry:

8/26/2010 - Dr. Park said the chemotherapy is having no effect. He said the best option would be a bone marrow transplant. Unfortunately, my Samchon isn't a possible donor because he is not a match. He said that he will keep looking for a donor, but that it is difficult to find matching non-family member donors. I'll keep my fingers crossed.

                "Can I read a little?" Sungyeol asked.

                "Sure" Hoya smiled as he handed the journal over to him. Sungyeol flipped a few pages and then started to read:

1/1/2011 - Happy New Year!

I guess this will really be a Happy New Year for me for once. I finally convinced my Samchon to let me leave the hospital and attend school. Maybe I'll finally be able to make some friends. I'm tired of watching all the people I meet leave the hospital while I'm still stuck here. Then again, it might be best not to get too attached. We still don't know what is going to happen.

3/18/2011 - My Samchon has arranged for me to attend the school where he works. Apparently it is a very difficult school to get in to. I just took my placement exam and they will let me know when I can start. My Samchon already bought me the uniform. I must admit, it looks really cute.

                Sungyeol handed the book to his right and Myungsoo started to read.

4/5/2011 - I got the call from the school. They want me to start tomorrow! YAY! I'm so excited!

4/6/2011 - My first day of school was both good and bad.

Good: I was sat next to this quiet guy named Myungsoo. He has a really handsome face. I hope I'm lucky enough to have a cute boyfriend like him someday. :)

Bad: I had a fainting spell. :(

Good (I think): According to my Samchon, a classmate named Hoya saw me faint and brought me to the infirmary. I hope I get the chance to thank him.

                The guys started giggling. "Good, I think?" Hoya commented.

4/7/2011 - One of the best days EVER

First: I got to meet Hoya :) He is really nice and Handsome too. I didn't really notice yesterday, but there are a lot of really good looking guys and girls in my class.

Second: I finally started reading the complete works of William Shakespeare. I'm starting with Romeo and Juliet.

Third: I ran into my seat partner, Myungsoo, in the courtyard. He skipped gym class because he 'wasn't feeling well' (kekeke) Anyways, he offered to read with me. YAY! Now I won't get so bored.

                "Hey why did you stop reading?" Woohyun grabbed the journal from Myungsoo and finished reading the entry:

And while we were reading lines to Romeo and Juliet, HE KISSED ME!!!! AND IT WAS MY FIRST KISS TOO!!! OMO I'm so embarrassed!! I don't know how to look at him anymore!

                "WHAT!" they all shouted. "You kissed her?" Sunggyu asked and Myungsoo buried his blushing face in his arms.

                "Wow! Who knew you had that in you?" Sungyeol teased.

                "Shut up!" Myungsoo said as he shoved Sungyeol.

                "Okay, before we go any further" Sunggyu spoke up. "Did anyone else do something with Seohee that we don't know about?" They all looked around the table and they all nodded. "Okay, now that we got that cleared up."

                "What do you mean cleared up?" Woohyun asked. "We all basically admitted that we kissed her!"

                "Exactly!" Sunggyu smiled "Now we won't be so surprised when we read about it." The guys all chuckled and then Woohyun continued reading:

Fourth: Myungsoo asked me out for coffee :) I wonder if he meant as a date? I had to say no because I had an appointment at the hospital, but I am definitely going to take him up on the offer next time :)

Fifth: I ran into Sunggyu at the hospital. Thank God he didn't see where I came from. I feel bad for lying to him, but I still don't know anyone that well. We went and had Naengmyeon at the Shin's restaurant. It was really good!! Sunggyu is a nice guy. He offered to help me with my schoolwork too :) YAY!!! A smart friend! He even gave me his phone number too so that I could call him with any questions. I wonder if I should call him tonight just for the hell of it............NO!!!!! I can't do it!! I'd be too embarrassed. Maybe I'll call him after I've gotten to know him better.

                The guys continued to pass the journal around, each taking turns to read a few of the entries out loud:

5/12/2011 - Woohyun invited me to the movies :) but he picked a horror film :( I think he did it on purpose so that I'd have to cling to him. kekeke, The jokes on him though, I'm not afraid of horror films.

5/13/2011 - Woohyun keeps wrapping his arms around me. Most of the time it is an arm around my shoulder and I can deal with that, but occasionally he will give me a backhug or wrap them around my waist from behind. Thank God he can't see me blushing, but it can be so embarrassing at times. The worst is when he KISSED me in front of my apartment. My neighbor saw us!!!!

6/10/2011 - Sungjong and Sungyeol invited me to the amusement park :) I can't wait to ride the Ferris Wheel!!!!!

6/11/2011 - I went to the amusement park with the guys today. They kept dragging me to all the roller coasters :( Granted; I did have a little fun riding them until I started to feel nauseous. My body really can't handle roller coasters. They did finally bring me over to the Ferris Wheel and then they kept fighting over who got to ride it with me. kekeke :) We all decided to ride it together. I had a really good time. I hope I can hang out with them again, IT WAS SO FUN!!!!

7/20/2011 - Dongwoo said we should all go to the beach before the summer ended. WHAT DO I DO?????

7/21/2011 - I went to the store today and bought a bathing suit. OMO, I'm going to be so embarrassed tomorrow!!!!

7/22/2011 - The guys picked me up and we all went to the beach. The ocean is so BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!!! kekeke Sunggyu was a little scared of the water and the guys kept teasing him about it. That was...... until I revealed my bathing suit or, I should say............ BIKINI!!!!!! kekeke :)

The guys just kept staring at me, so I had to splash them with some water to wake them up. kekeke :) I don't think I've ever smiled or laughed so much before. Some other guys whistled at me and my guys glared at them before jokingly wrapping a towel around me. They can be so cute at times. I hope we can make some more memories before........

8/1/2011 - Ever since our trip to the beach, my fainting spell have gotten worse. I know I should tell my Samchon about it, but I don't want to worry him too much if it is nothing. I've also been debating on whether or not to tell the guys about my condition. I'll just wait until I see Dr. Park next week and then worry about it.

8/8/2011 - Dr. Park said the cancer has progressed. He said I have a few months at most, but there was still a chance to cure it with a bone marrow donor :( Unfortunately, there has been no news from the donor center.

8/9/2011 - OMO the guys sounded a little jealous when they told me I was popular. Apparently, the other guys in school have been asking for my number. kekeke :)

:( I had another fainting spell today too and the guys were very worried about me. Samchon said I should tell them about my condition, so I did and THEY OFFERED TO GET TESTED!!!!! We are going to go to the hospital together tomorrow. These guys are so sweet!!!

I don't want to leave them, but I can already tell that my body is starting to fail me. I don't know how much time I have left, but I hope I can tell them before it is too late.

8/10/2011 - We all skipped school and went to the hospital today. While they all had their blood drawn for the test, I sat down with Dr. Park and thanked him for everything he has done. It doesn't seem like he knows yet. I feel bad for not telling them all. I hope they'll forgive me.

The guys decided that it would be better if we just skipped school for the entire day instead of going after the test like originally planned. They dragged me to their company and gave me a private concert. OMO, I was shocked, they were AMAZING!!!!!! :)  I'm so glad I got to see them perform!

After the little concert, they took me out to eat and then brought me home. This has been one of the best days ever! I just wish that it could last forever.