I shall haunt you, O my lost

one, as the twilight Haunts a grieving

bamboo trail, And your dreams will

linger strangely with the music of a

phantom lover's tale

      
                              
To a Lost One by Angela Manalang
                            Gloria

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It's been days since I last heard word of
your beautiful words. I couldn't sleep without them and it's hard enough sleeping in this bed alone. Your warmth lost and I cried because I knew I Loved you.

That day when you fell off the slide and all the other kids laughed at you. That's when I knew I loved you, or maybe it was the time you first got braces. You were so embarrassed that you wouldn't let me come over to your house for days.

That's when I knew I loved you. Or maybe it was the time I went away to camp and you begged me to stay. My parents were livid but you were able to convince them. Nothing could ever tear us apart.

Or maybe it was the time when I cut my hair short. I hated the cut and thought I looked like a boy. But you... you said I was still beautiful, and that your feelings would never change.

I Knew I Loved you, because you never looked at me differently. You were always there even when my pet hamster penny died because I kept feeding her. You wrapped me up in your arms and told me that just because life ends does not mean we won't see each other again.

Or when we would secretly go swimming at the pond. We would swim and laugh together until midnight while our parents slept. I Knew I Loved You because we could laugh and talk for hours with no care.

Or maybe it was the first time we made love. I was nervous but so were you  and it was the best night of my life that I will never forget. I Knew I loved you when we finished making love and we laid in each other's arms for hours.

You were there until the morning even when I was afraid you would leave me. You promised me you wouldn't leave me...

Even when we found out I was pregnant. I knew I loved you and we were so happy but scared because we didn't know the first thing about parenting.

And right now in this moment as I rub my swollen belly I think of you. I think of the day you came home and greeted me with a beautiful kiss. I wish you would have stayed longer...

My one wish is to see you again... because without you I am alone. I have no one but our unborn child... I know you visit me in my dreams. I just can't believe you are gone...

Risking your own life. Thats when I knew I loved you because you would save a life before your own. You were so strong and you feared nothing. That's when I knew I loved you.

Even now till this very day I will tell our son what a great father you would have been. I know how excited you would have been to know we had a little baby boy.

And even now as I sit in his nursery we did together I think of you. I knew I loved you when we fought over what we should paint the room. We could never stay mad for to long.

I feel your footsteps as I dance away to our favorite song. I was always a horrible dancer but you swept me right off my feet. You always knew how to make me feel special and wanted.

And now as I write this letter to you my sweet love I hope you are well. Have you been eating well my love? You always would skip meals making me worry of your health.

Even if you are gone I know you are out there. Waiting for us to wrap us in your huge arms that I love. And with all that I am and will be.

I Knew I Loved You  because no matter where we are. You have my heart...