if you wanna know why I feel awful check my fuckin message board because I don't think I can explain things any better than I did there

I just want everything to be over, but I want it all to keep going and to live on

I wanna remember, but I wanna forget

I wanna keep trying, but I wanna give up

Hnnnggg I just want to think

this song describes how I feel almost exactly
I learned every single word to it withing the first 3 times I listened to it, which means it means a lot to me

I feel awful, geeze