NOTE: So... yeah... hehe please don't kill me. I'm so sorry, I know I haven't update in a very long time, like half a year lol I'm truly sorry. There are no excuses. But I'm really back now, since the other fics are all up to date with the Brazilian versions. So now imma focus my everything in this one, so y'all can go and reread it, because I'll be updating often until I finish it all. Once again, I'm sorry. Now enjoy this chapter ;)

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As predicted, I hadn't been able to sleep, at all.

About 5 in the morning, I grabbed a book and pulled out a chair, and sat down in front of the huge window in the dining room. I stayed there watching the almost nil movement on the sidewalk, and there I stayed until now, trying to organize my thoughts.

"You left me alone in bed..." Her arms wrapped around my neck, and then she kissed the top of my head.

"I'm sorry... I couldn't sleep, and since I was moving a lot, I thought it would be best if I came here, so I wouldn't wake you up again." I held her hands and kissed them.

"You couldn't sleep?" She asked, and I shook my head, pulling her around the chair so she could sit on my lap. "Why didn't you wake me up? We could've stayed up talking..."

"It's okay, it was good for me to think... I haven't thought about them in a long time." I said softly, hiding my face in her neck.

"I'm sorry..." She said, and I sighed.

"It's been a long time..." I murmured as I looked at our intertwined hands. "I was little when it happened..."

I closed my eyes and felt the memories invade my mind. Scenes of my mom laughing in the kitchen while my dad laughed along with her and shook his head. Scenes of them going to pick me up at school, going out with me... everything, everything came like a potent bomb.

"You don't have to talk about it if you don't want to." Camila stroked my face and kissed my forehead.

I fell silent for a moment, I couldn't open myself up to anyone on this subject, not even to Normani and Dinah... It was kind of a forbidden topic, whenever they said something about it, my mood changed completely and I isolated myself for a while.

"No one in my family wanted me, only my grandmother, who after a few months ended up passing away, she was already sick. I didn't want to move to the other side of the country to live with my other grandparents, and they didn't even really want me... so I was placed in an orphanage." I felt my voice falter for the first time. Camz hugged me and hid her face in my neck, just listening to what I had to say. "No one wanted me." I laughed humorlessly. "I thought that there was something wrong with me, so I stopped eating to lose weight, I isolated myself and had to fend for myself." I took a deep breath, I wouldn't cry because of this subject again. "I got a scholarship in a great college and then dropped everything to start working."

We stayed in silence, we didn't dare utter anything.

It felt good to finally voice out all my displeasure and anger, for having been rejected by my own family, for my bitter life; in those words I showed my frustration for never having anyone who really wanted me.

Even after telling my story and venting, I could see that Camila didn't look at me with pity. I stared at her for a while, and let out a sigh when I realized that she was looking at me with a certain admiration, her eyes were a bit teary. Camz just stroked my faced, and I smiled weakly.

"It's their loss. Everyone who didn't want you, it was their loss." She ran her thumb over my lower lip. "Because there will never be anyone better than you to live with."

She said those words while staring deep into my eyes, and I felt my whole body shiver at the sincerity of her words. My mouth parted slowly, too shocked.

I brought one of my hands to her nape, pulling her to me, and she gave me a long kiss. Her hands held my face, and her body snuggled and accommodated itself better on my lap. My hands lowered to her waist, hugging it.

This kiss was different from the others, it was sincere, as if there were no secrets between us.

In that moment, it wasn't Lauren Jauregui, the assassin, who was kissing Camila. It was just the frail Lauren kissing Camila.

Camila sucked my lower lip and outlined my lips with the tip of her tongue, to then invade my mouth with it. I pulled her impossibly closer as our tongues touched in a somewhat passionate kiss.

We parted our lips, our breaths were uneven and uncontrolled. Camila kissed my chin and trailed a path of kisses across my jaw until reaching my neck. I arched my head back, and let her explore that area.

Her kisses weren't naughty, or with ulterior motives, they were affectionate and caring kisses, as if that was her way of telling me that she'd be there for me.

I started to stroke her thigh, which was exposed since she was only wearing that large Lakers Jersey that only reached the middle of her thighs. I lifted the shirt a little, and her ass got partially exposed, and I started caressing that area, feeling her breathing getting heavy and hearing her moan against my neck. I smiled fondly and snaked my hand inside the gray shirt, caressing her waist.

"Let me be in control today..." Camila asked, pulling away calmly to look deep into my eyes, with an out of the ordinary affection in her voice. "Just let me take care of you and give you all the love you deserve..." She whispered with her eyes closed as she leaned her forehead against mine. Our lips were only a few centimeters away.

I smiled weakly, brushing our noses together, to then hug her waist and stand up with Camila on my lap. She just hugged my neck and laid her head on my shoulder as I walked towards my bedroom.

I sat down on the bed with Camila still clinging to me. Calmly, she let go of my neck, facing me again.

"Aren't you going to be late?" I asked, looking deep into her eyes.

"Today is my last day there, so it won't make much of a difference." She smiled beautifully at me, and I laughed. "But we still have an hour and a half."

She brought her hands to my shoulders and slowly pushed me back against the mattress, lying on top of me. I stroked her cheek, and she smiled without showing her teeth, kissing me right away.

This time neither of us was in a hurry, it was something calm and totally natural. She conveyed so much love and affection with her kisses, that for the first time that moment didn't exude arousal. It was something sensual, discreet, and it made me feel good and real sensations.

Camila's kisses soon started going down my neck, but she alternated between brushing her nose on that area and kissing my neck with a certain unnecessary delicacy, but I wouldn't rush her or stop her, I wanted to leave her in control, and in a way, I wanted to feel loved in that moment.

I allowed myself to open my eyes, and then I came across the following scene: Camila was straddling my waist, but her face was buried in my neck, giving me wet and long kisses on different spots. Her ass was perked up and the large shirt was pooled around her waist, leaving her white panties showing.

Completely lost, I closed my eyes again and sighed when she sucked my neck harder, probably leaving a mark. I brought my hands to her back, stroking it, instigating Camila to continue what she was doing. But instead, my girlfriend pulled away with an angelic expression, sitting up on my lap. Her lips were completely red and somewhat swollen. I stared at her with a frown, and she just smiled, bringing one of her hands to the hem of her shirt, pulling it up and over her head, revealing her beautiful rosy breasts with already hardened nipples. I couldn't help myself and moaned at the sight, that was so sexy.

"I won't abandon you..." She said, holding my face carefully as she sealed our lips in a long kiss. "If what we have doesn't end up working out..." She laughed humorlessly. "I want to be your friend, I accept anything, as long as I don't have to get out of your life..."

"You promise?" I asked, looking deep into her eyes. "You promise you will never leave me?"

"I promise, Lauren."

I smiled sheepishly and glued our foreheads, feeling her hands begin to roam my body.

We started kissing again, but this time we smiled through this one. It was delicate. Camila's velvety tongue was caressing my tongue, and I, as if I was still a virgin, didn't know where to put my hands. I couldn't help but smile as we kissed. Camila brought one of her hands to my forearm and placed my hand on her ass.

With an incredible agility and delicacy, Camila pulled me by the neck, and I sat up on the bed, with her legs hugging my waist and with her sex against my stomach. I could feel how aroused she already was. Camila descended her hands down the side of my body, and parted our lips. I kept my eyes closed, I was still kind of dizzy with all that situation, and I only woke up when my shirt was pulled up and over my head and thrown on the floor.

Before a more intimate contact could happen, I felt Camila's hands roam my back, stroking it. She laid her head on my shoulder and kissed it. Her kisses began to go up the side of my neck until reaching my ear, where she kissed and bit my earlobe, whispering right after:

"Today, right now, I want you to feel how much I like you."

I smiled and pressed our lips together again.

Since she was kind of sitting on my stomach, I managed - with a lot of difficulty - to remove my panties during our new make-out session.

Camila's wet kisses started going down, down my chin, down my neck, down my collarbone, down the valley between my breasts, until her warm mouth began sucking my right breast. I couldn't help but let out a hoarse and somewhat loud moan, and I felt her smile against my nipple. I brought my hands to her hair, tying it in a ponytail in my hand, to then guide her.

Camila alternated between biting, sucking, licking and kissing my breasts. She would go slow and then fast, changing the speed as I instructed her with my hand. I couldn't control my moans, which came out of my mouth loudly and hoarsely. I was so aroused that I had to cross my legs to see if it relieved my overwhelming urge to cum intensely.

"Oh my God, Camz..." I moaned. "Camila..." I pressed her mouth against my left breast, they were so sensitive that I wouldn't last for much longer.

"I want to give you the best orgasm of your life..." She said close to my ear in such a seductive way that I moaned softly. She brought her hand to my right breast and squeezed it, to then trap my nipple between two of her fingers, squeezing it. "Or the best orgasms of your life." She licked my earlobe, and that was it, I couldn't take it anymore, I ended up cuming.

It was an intense orgasm and I was embarrassed for having cum just by having her talking in my ear and stroking my breasts, even though after the kisses and everything she did, I had my reasons. I tried to keep my eyes open, but unsuccessfully. My breathing was way too uneven and I was sweaty. On the other hand, Camila was smiling sheepishly, brushing her nose against my cheek as she kissed it, while her hand stroked my waist.

I brought my hands to her waist and pressed her sex against me, which made her moan close to my ear in a hoarse way. Camila was so... wet.

"Camz, let me..."

"No... Today it's about you, you're always on top, just accept to be the bottom today..." She smiled and kissed my lips. She was trembling, and it seemed that pressing her sex against my body almost made her orgasm.

"I... I won't enter you... I'll just relieve you."

I smiled when it was clear that she didn't have the strength to fight me. My right hand immediately moved between her legs, and I ran two fingers over her completely soaked panties, which made us moan together with the contact. I pushed the fabric aside and then started masturbating her, she was so wet that I could easily penetrate her, but I didn't, I just masturbated her a little, and with my free hand, I pulled her by the nape, kissing her neck and leaving a hickey on it. I increased the rhythm of my fingers, and she couldn't take it anymore, cuming intensely and moaning my name loudly.

"There you go, baby. Now I'm ready for you again." I smiled and she laughed. "Watching you cum as you moan my name is so arousing. Let me taste you, just a little bit."

"Lolo... You said you were only going to relieve me." She said breathlessly while her body was lying over mine. "But you still haven't removed your fingers..." She took a deep breath against my neck, and I smiled, running my fingers once again along her sex. "Lau-ren!" She moaned, and I laughed, removing my hand from inside her panties.

"Camz..." I moaned at the sight of my fingers completely wet with her cum, and without being able to control myself, I brought the two fingers I used to masturbate her into my mouth. Her sweet and so feminine taste was wonderful.

Without saying anything, with her cheeks flushed, and with a shy smile on her face, Camila began to trail kisses all over my body. She kissed every inch of my belly with an unnecessary calmness that was driving me crazy, I was already writhing beneath her. Her hands were caressing my thighs and I could already feel my pussy throbbing again. She got off the bed and knelt on the floor, right next to the bed, and pulled me by the legs, making her face be right in front of my sex. She blew against it, making me moan. Her nails scratched the side of my thighs, and all I could do was squirm. Still not satisfied with her torture, Camila kissed the inside of my thighs, and took care of licking all the cum there, which ended up resulting in two hickeys, one inside each thigh.

It didn't take long for her warm tongue to come into contact with my pussy. I arched my back and cried out, her tongue roamed every inch of my intimacy, and time or another she penetrated me with it, making me scream her name like a real whore. When her tongue came into contact with my clit, I shivered and tugged on her hair, making her look at me with a smirk.

"Camz... Please..." She got on the bed and straddled me again.

"Tell me what you want."

"I want you to... to make me cum." I said slowly and with some difficulty, I was dying of arousal.

"How do you want me to do that, Laur?" She asked, starting to masturbate me.

"I want you to enter me with your fingers, Camila, and I want you to make me scream." I pulled her by the hair when she threatened to penetrate me with her nimble fingers, but didn't actually do it. "Camz..." I moaned hoarsely close to her ear. "Please..."

Without further ado, Camila penetrated me and I moaned her name loudly, louder than all the other times. She laughed and moaned at the same time, making me shiver. Camila made slow and precise movements, I couldn't stop moaning and trembling. I tried to kiss her lips but ended up giving up due to my overwhelming arousal and due to all the sensations she was causing me with only two fingers. When Camila entered me with a third finger, I scratched her back, and heard her moan along with me. I pressed her chest against mine, which caused our breasts to rub against each other, making us both moan even more.

When my girlfriend started penetrating me quickly, yet carefully, I couldn't help myself anymore and surely had the best orgasm of my whole life, which tasted even better when I saw that she had cum along with me, just by watching me, without touching herself.

"Jesus... Fuck, Camila!" I said smiling as I stroked her hair gently.

"That was worth every second of my delay." She laughed and I accompanied her. "Lauren... You with that hoarse voice of yours, crying out my name, there's nothing better than that." She confessed, and I felt my cheeks burn.

"I think we should go shower..."

"I agree."

I would certainly let Camila top me from now on, which didn't mean we couldn't take turns.

Especially when she made me forget about the bad things in life.

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NOTE: Hot damn ;) In the next few chapters, Lauren will have to make some decisions... Hmmm... I'll update tomorrow again, I promise.