feeling used
But I'm still missing you

And I can't see the end of this
Just want to feel your kiss
Against my lips
.

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(Y/n) pov

"Kurapika?! What do you want for breakfast?!"I said as we met in the hallway  coming out of our rooms.

"It's up to you (y/n)!" He said and sat at the table , I decided to make scrambled eggs and coffee.

As the eggs are made and the coffee was ready I reached up to grab the coffee cups!, as I did my shirt lifted showing something I hoped he would never seen.
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And now all this time is passing by
But  I still cant seem to tell you why
It hurtd me every time I see you  realize how much I need you

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(Kurapika Pov)

As I looked at (y/n)  struggle her shirt lifted and I saw the tattoo of the spider my eyes turned scarlet I couldn't control my self any more

"(Y/N)!! Why didn't you tell me that you are in the Phantom troupe !?" I yelled as I got closer and closer and she started to back up .

"I-it wasn't my choice t-they forced me to!" She said trying to defend her self.

"Get out!" I said in a low tone then I screamed it louder .

"GET out!!! (Y/n)! We're done." I screamed as tears ran down her face.
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I hate you, I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to but i can't put no body else above you
.

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(Y/n) POV

after Kurapika kicked me out  I left to gon and killuas place they were the only ones I could turn too!

(Kurapika POV)

after breaking up with (y/n) I decided not to kill her since I did at ONE time love her! I called haley,she was a popular girl and I kinda always liked her.

Phone call-

Kurapika- hey lilly? I broke it off with (y/n) and I need someone now

Lilly- OK I'll be  there soon!

End-

(Y/n) P.O.V

"he kicked you out?!" Said killua and gon in anger.

"Y-yes!"I say as hot tears roll down my cheeks.

"Why what happened?!" Gon said and tilted his head.

"He saw the spider tattoo!" I said with hurt in my voice.

"did you tell him what you told us ?! that they would've killed you little sister if you didn't join" gon asked

"I didn't have a chance!" I say as I wipe  tears.

"You can stay with us!"they said at the same time.

"Ok, t-thanks" I said and cried more.

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I hate you I love you
I hate that I want you, you
Want her you need her and I'll never
Be her!
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Kurapika p.o.v

'Was I too hard on her?!, maybe she had a reason?' I thought as the buzzer buzzed and lilly came

"Hi kurapika!"she said as I gave a faint smile

"Hey!" I said deeply.

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I miss you when I can't sleep
Or right after coffee or right when I
Can't eat

I miss you in my front seat still got
Sand in my sweater from nights we don't remember
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Kurapika pov

Because I was sad she bringed a lot of movies and we just sit there and watch them.

y/n  p o v

"here! your all set up" gon said then they left after I thanked them.

' I think ill just go for a walk' I thought then left make my way down town (a/n XD)

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Do you miss me like I miss you messed around and got attached to
Friends can break your hart to

And I'm always tired but never of you!

If I pulled a you on you, you wouldn't like that .

I put this reel out but you wouldn't bite that .
I type a text but then I never mind that!

I got these feelings but you never mind that!

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Y/n p.o.v

'Does he still love me?! , would he understand that I had to do what I needed to ?!' I think and keep walking.

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Oh oh keep it on the low still in love with me but your friends don't know !

If you wanted me you would just say so
And if I were you I would never let me go !
I hate you !
I love you I hate that I love you don't want to but I can't put no body else above you.

I hate you I love you I hate that I want you
You want her you need her and I'll never be her!
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Kurapika P.o.v

As we just sit there I can See lilly getting closer by the minute!

As if it was an instinct I put my arm around her!

Y/n p.o.v

As I was walking  I found myself in front of kurapika house .

And I see him with his a around some girl so I just sit and watch for a bit !

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All alone I watch you watch her she is the only thing you ever seen

Then how is it you never noticed just how much your killing me ~

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Kurapika p.o.v

We got so close I kissed her  then looked up to See. Y/n in the street.

Y/n p.o.v

Now I'm in full tears as I see his lips against another girl and he runs out to the street. And I take out my knife I keep for protection

Kurapika: I hate you I love you I hate that I love you don't want to but I can't put no body else above you!

Y/n: I hat you I love you I hate that I want you, you want her you need her and I'll never be her~

Kurapika p.o.v

She takes the knife to her throat

Y/n p.o.v

"I love you! "I said then sliced my throat!

Kurapika p.o.v

"Y/n !"I ran to her in tears and found a note in her coat pocket

Note : I'm sorry I never told you I was in the Phantom Troupe, but I didn't want to join I had to so my little sister could live then three years later she died, I'm sorry .

I love you kurapika

~love y/n

After reading this letter I was in tears I should have let her explain now the love of my life is dead in front of me !

"I love you to!"I whisper and close her eyes.

Then kill myself

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I hate you I love you I hate that I love you don't want to but I can't put no body else above you

I hate you I love you I hate that I want you , you want her you need her and I'll never be her

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This was my first one shot hope you like it sorry if it's horrible

Song : I hate you I love you

Bye
-mikowshi- chan😁