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Hello again dear readers.

Ugh that sounds so cheesy. Anyways, I decided to continue blogging because you guys seems to like it. I haven't done much today, but again the clock is just 1 am. Well, I woke up and then I laid in bed answering comments and stuff. Yeah, that's pretty much everything. And I guess I ate something to. You guys seems really worried about that I don't eat. But really it's fine. I'm fine. Again, the biggest lie ever. Hah idk why I even do this. At the end it just breaks me more. Not because of you guys, but because of Mark. He think I'm lying about all of this. That's what breaks me the most. That's the thing that slowly eats me from inside and out. That he doesn't believe me. I don't know what I need to do to prove him I'm not lying. Probably nothing. Probably nothing because he won't listen to me anyways. Oh, and yeah I have decided to take a break from YouTube for a while. The video about that will come out later today. I will keep blogging though. It's just like, when I record videos to YouTube I need to pretend a lot. I need to pretend that I'm happy while playing the games. And I can't do that anymore. I will not quit YouTube, but I will take a short break until I feel better. Because sometime I need to feel better, I can't be fucking depressed because Mark leaved me for my whole life. Or at least I hope so. Soon it's Christmas. It's just 34 more days until Christmas Eve. I'm not going to visit my family in Ireland. I can't bother doing anything. It's just a name of some days after all. Nothing special. Maybe I'll upload a video at Christmas Eve or Christmas Day. Something like that. It will be a Christmas present to all of u guys. Because you read this and listen to me. Maybe Felix will be here to Christmas. He said that he would try to come here. Marzia lives here now. I don't know if she lives with Mark or by herself. It wouldn't surprise me if she lived with him. He suddenly have no problems moving on really fast from someone he "loved" so much. Yeah Mark, you read right. And I know you will read this. And then you will hate me. But no problems, because you already do. That's the thing. What did I even do so wrong? Do you even remember that girl in Sweden that were after you? She kissed you. I remember. It was like she stuck a knife in my heart. I forgive you for that. It wasn't your fault. But I can never forgive you for this. For making me feel this way. This is 3000 times worse. So worse. This time I can't hug you and feel my heart heal again. Because you're not here. You're with Marzia somewhere. I hate that. I don't hate you, I hate that you left me. But I don't hate you. I love you. Okay, now imma stop writing about this. It just makes me sad. I hate being sad. I am sad all the time now days. I hate that. I hate everything....ugh I hate that I'm hating everything. I hate that I hate myself and my life. Haha I should make like a book XD. This would be chapter two, "I hate everything". Okay I'm going to stop writing now, for real. I'm going to fix my video to YouTube. Im outta here, LIKE A BOSS!!

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Helluu!!

This is a short chapter with just a blog.

Yeah.

I felt like writing this.

It will be just blog things until something happens in Jacks life.

Right now nothing really happens so it's boring to write about.

It's funnier to write like this.

I hope u like it.

Oh, and I will update this when I feel like it. So today you got 2 chapters, maybe more if I feel like writing.

You won't probably get so many next week because I'm going away to visit my grandma and grandpa for a couple of days and I won't have so much time to write.

Love ya<33