[Its not my video but it's awesome]

Jacks pov

I lay in my bed as always, just looking out at the rain. Then I see him, with his red hair walking past on the street. But he's not alone...he's holding hand with a girl.

I go up to the window to see who the girl is and when I see her I collapse on the floor.

M-Marzia? How....

It feels like my heart has shattered into a million pieces and I can't stop the tears.

I try to scream but all that comes out of my month is sobs.

My body starts to shake uncontrollably and I can't stop it.

I try to breath normally but I can't, and when I try I just end up panicking even more.

I'm panicking because I'm trapped in this hell forever now, I gotta meet Mark and Martzia when I go outside because I'm not allowed to move back to Ireland...then my parents would kill me.

I just can't handle to see him with someone else.

It's like he put a knife in my heart and let it be there to let me slowly die alive.

I can't run, I can't escape this.

It's your fault dumbass.

It's your fault for lying.

It's your fault for not telling him how much u love him.

It's your fault for acting weird.

It's your fault for hurting Mark from the beginning.

It's your fault that any of this happened.

I start to cry harder when my brain starts to run away in thoughts.

All I want right now is for it to stop, I don't want all those thoughts but I have them and they can't be deleted.

I hate them.

I hate me.

I hate me for everything I have done, for everything my thoughts say I have done.

Because I know my thoughts are true.

All of them are so true it's killing me.

It's killing me so badly.

I can feel my heart raise even more before I black out.

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My eyes are heavy and it's hard to open them but I success.

It hurts everywhere but when I see that I'm on the floor that explains pretty much everything.

When I remember why I'm on the floor I start to cry again.

I drag myself onto the bed just in case I black out again.

My brain give my self orders, that's the only way of my body doing anything.

Take a deep breath.

Relax.

Stop crying.

Go on your phone.

Press on YouTube.

Answer comments.

I just answer comments for about 2 hours before I decide to record.

As I start to record I put on the best fake smile I could and tried to act normal.

When I edit I start to see myself.

How sad I look, how the sparkle in my eyes are totally gone.

I hope my fans won't notice.

While the video is uploading I lay in my bed watching the rain again.

It rains a lot here, or yeah it has the last days.

"The weather match how I feel" I mumble to myself.

My eyes slowly close and I drift into sleep.

-

"Jack? Jack? Are you there?"

I look up to see Mark over me and he gives me a kiss.

"Hello Jacky, why do you seem surprised?" He laughs.

I look around in the room...our old apartment where Mark still lives.

"Why...I thought...we broke up?"

He looks confused at me before laughing.

"What the hell are you talking about?"

I sit up looking around. What is this?

"I though...you broke up with me...and now I'm here again..?" I mumble.

He's beautiful red eyes suddenly turns red and he start to laugh again, but this time he's scaring me.

"M-Mark?"

He pushes me so I lay down again and then sits on top of me.

"You wanna breakup with me, huh? Then imma break your bones first."

I try to break free but he holds me down. I start to cry hysterically.

"N-no Mark p-plea-se d-don't..."

He lifts his hand to punch me in the face.

"I hate you Jack, I hate you."

-

I wake up in panic, crying.

When I see where I am I slowly start to relax.

I've bin having dreams about him every since he broke up with me.

They all end with him saying the same thing.

The last words he said to me that day when he broke up.

I hate you Jack, I hate you

Hello hello hello!

What do u think about this?

I'm exited to write this XD

And yes, it's okay if u want to kill Marzia XD

If u guys team up against her a lot then I may kill her but idk

Love ya<33