Clairs POV

Lucy, Addison, Maddy and I have spent the entire morning shopping, trying on random things and buying way to many clothes that we will most likely never wear. I bet my dad will regret giving me his credit card, but hey I needed something to take my mind off Aiden. It worked for the most part, at least until I would find something cute and wonder what Aiden would say.

Last night after I ripped up that letter I called Lucy and told her I needed a girls day. Of course she understood and agreed without much questioning.

Currently we are sitting at Olive Garden waiting for our food to get to our table.

"Clair what was up with Aiden coming to dinner last night?" Addison asked from across the table. I was hoping she wouldn't bring it up, I guess thats the end of not thinking about him.

"I don't..." I replied immediately but I was cut off by Lucy.

"Wait he was at your house last night? Is that why you needed a girls day? I thought it was just because of school. Oh my god why was he there?" Jeez that girl is way to curious.

"I don't know why he showed up and honestly I don't care thats why I didn't go." Dang it. I wasn't going to tell them about the letter but stupid me I let it slip.

"Wait go where?" Lucy asked as our food gets set down on our table.

"Is that why he went to your room?" Addison is digging for information that I don't have nor want.

"You saw him go to my room?" I am a bit mad that she didn't tell me he was up there. But honestly what would I have done if I knew? Told him to get out? Probably not. if I had went up there with him last night alone I most likely would have gave into him. I suppose Addison saved me from making a huge mistake.

"Well I saw him go upstairs, at first I thought maybe he was just going to the bathroom but then I saw him come out 30 minutes later. I figured you were in there but when I checked you were out in the tree house with Josh."

Thirty minutes? What the heck was he doing in my room for thirty minutes? It couldn't have possibly took him that long to write that stupid letter. Or could it? But why would he even spend that long on it and not even say anything. Whatever the reason I can't care about it, I can't care about him.

"He wrote me a note telling me to meet him somewhere."

"A note?"

"Meet him where?"

"Why what did he want?" Lucy was beyond curious, not because she loves drama but because she's worried about me. She knows, just like Josh, the effect that Aiden had, well has, on me.

"I don't know, the note said he had something to tell me but I didn't go so obviously I didn't find out." I didn't mean to be rude to them but this wasn't something that I wanted to discuss today.

"Why didn't you go?" Addison and I may be close but she has no idea what actually happened with him.

"Because he's not worth it. He has had his chance and he blew it." Thinking it was one thing but actually saying it out loud was heartbreaking.

"But you love him." Maddy has been quiet this whole time so I'm not sure if I was more surprised by what she said or the fact that she was the one to say it.

"I did but I don't anymore." Again my heart felt like it was breaking.

"Who are you trying to convince, us or yourself?"

"Lucy I don't love him, I can't. He's done to much to hurt me , I will not put myself through his shit anymore. I'm done with him, he's nothing to me, ok well I'm working on that last part."

"Wow, okay, well I'm proud of you honey I really am you deserve to be happy." Lucy gently squeezes my hand and continues eating.

"And Addison not a word of this to mom got it she has..." my phone starts ringing in my pocket, I take it out to see who it is. "Hold on Josh is calling me." I turn away from them and answer the phone. "Hey Josh whats up?"

"Do you know a Cameron?"

"Cameron who?

I hear him asking the guy what his last name is but I can't hear the guys response.

"He says his last name is Tinker, apparently he's a friend of Aiden's."

"Yeah he is but why did you call me? I can't stand the guy." I put up with Aidens torment because I know somewhere deep down he's a good guy, but Cameron and the rest of his friends are grade A assholes, I blame them for making Aiden the way he is now.

"He's at your house that's why I called."

"Why is he there?" The guy has never said a word to me, well besides calling me a nerd and countless other names.

"He says he wants to talk to you, do you want to talk to him?"

"Not really" Maybe the old me would have gave him a chance to talk, maybe I would have thought he was there to apologize, but the new me knows better. Guys don't change, especially guys like him. I used to think Aiden was the exception but now I know that the good guy he played that first summer was just an act. He's no better than any of them.

"Give me the phone! No you need to leave! I need to talk to her. She doesn't want to talk to you. Can I just ask her something? What are you going to ask her?" I didn't expect to hear the last voice. I could clearly tell it was Aiden but he sounded different, I can't really pinpoint what was different though.

"Clair? Clair we need to talk."

"I have nothing to say to you." Liar, but if I see him now today's progress would have been for nothing.

"Clair Bear please just.."

"Don't call me that."

"Why? I always used to call you that."

"Key words used to, I'm not doing this over the phone.

"Then come home and talk to me, give me a chance to explain. Please."

"Fine I'll be there." I'm doing this so that I can finally have some closure, so that I can once and for all be done with Aiden Ellington. Or at least thats what I told Lucy but in all honesty I always have had a problem saying no to him. Which scares the shit out of me.