In the vid, skip to 0:30 for it to start. The beginning is rapping which you wont understand, neither can I.

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---JENNIE'S POV---

Come back home!

Can you come back home? Eh!

Don't leave me at the end of the cold world and come back to my side

Come back home!

Can you come back home? Eh!

I'm pushing back all the pain

I'm still waiting for you like this

Now you gotta do what you gotta do.

The song ended as I breathed heavily. That was tiring! The 2NE1 sunbaenims got 4 members to sing the whole song. I. I sang the whole song alone. Plus dancing! The solo artists out there are amazing.

"Good job Jennie. You sang very good!" My choreographer said.

"Yes! It was very stable. Strong and powerful. You worked out well with the dancing and the look in your eyes," my vocal teacher said.

"Thank you!" I bowed. This is one of my class. Dancing and singing mixed. Also my stage teacher who teaches me how to act or look when on stage.

For each day, each dancing lesson, each vocal lesson, I have to learn 1 or 2 songs per each. It's tiring. I just finished learning the song Boy In Luv by BTS oppas this morning, now I just finished learning the song Come back home by 2NE1 sunbaenims. Tiring. Tired. Thirsty. Torture.

Knock. Knock.

"Are you guys done?" Jokwon oppa stood near the door. He was already in the room and I didn't even noticed.

"Jokwon oppa!" I yelled but in whisper.

He walked to me with another random guy and greeted the teachers, "Am I interrupting?"

"No," My vocal teacher said, "We're finished for now,"

"Oh, it'll take a few minutes," the guy said.

"Wait! For now!?" I yelled. I quickly looked up at the clock to see the time. Almost 7pm. Fudge...

"You know it. From now to 10 is enough time for you to learn the song Heaven by Ailee," my choreographer said.

Wait-Heaven?

"Heaven? By Ailee sunbaenim? I know that song already," I said.

"Can you sing it good?" My choreographer asked.

"I think.. I sang it with Jungkookie before," I said.

"Jungkookie? You're calling him Jungkookie too?" Jokwon oppa asked.

I smiled and laughed.

"Let me hear the chorus part. If it's alright, I'll let you have a 15 minutes rest," my vocal teacher said.

"Yay!" I clapped. Wait. I'm not good in singing in front of people. Strangers.

"Why? Come on Jennie! I wanna hear it!" Jokwon oppa whined.

Deep breath.

"Okay.." I cleared my throat, "Heaven Heaven Heaven Heaven Heaven! x2

If we're together, we will never cry. Never never cry,

Heaven Heaven Heaven Heaven Heaven x2

Forever together. Never gonna be alone~oh woa oh woa..." I sang.

"Ooh!! Jennie!!" Jokwon oppa clapped and the others, "You're so good!!"

"She is," the guy who came with Jokwon oppa added.

"Alright. That was good," my vocal teacher said, "You're lucky your voice is strong like Ailee sunbaenim's," she patted my back.

I smiled and laughed. My choreography teacher and vocal teacher left.

"Oppa! Can you buy me pizza!?" I quickly asked Jokwon oppa.

"This kid! Asking me for food when ever you get a chance!" He yelled.

"But I haven't eat anything. All I ate today is topokki, fish cake and dumpling! That's not enough!!" I whined. I grabbed a water bottle and drank.

He shushed me by covering my mouth. There's water in my mouth!! "I don't have my money and we're about to talk in business right now," he whispered me, "Seonsaeng-nim (teacher), this is Jennie..." He looked at me.

"Madden." I told him. We both laughed.

"Don't you have a korean last name?" He asked.

"No... I don't,"

"Like your dad or mom's last name?" He asked again. Seriously, can't people just pronounce the word Madden?

"No, my dad is american and my mom is vietnamese. My mom's last name is Nguyen!" I offered another last name for him.

"Madden. Madden is easier," He patted my back. I laughed.

"So you're not Korean at all?" The guy asked. I shook my head. "That's interesting." I smiled.

"Thank you,"

"Jennie, this is Kim Ji Wook," Jokwon introduced.

I laughed on my inside. Sorry but all I heard was KIMCHI. I'm hungry. It's gonna be hard calling him by his name without kimchi running through my head.

"Annyeonghaseyo!" I shake his hand.

"You're very pretty and talented," he complimented me. I don't like him.

"He's one of the employee in JYP. He's in charge of the trainees. About everything that trainees are involved," Jokwon oppa said.

"Oh.." I nodded.

"How are you and the training here?" He asked.

"Fine.." I got awkward.

"Tough?"

"A little bit," I said.

"So.. JYP told me about you," he started.

I smiled when I heard that. JYP-nim didn't forget about me when I'm training here.

"He said you've been working extremely hard on everything. On the diet, on the singing, dancing, and even rapping and composing," he said.

"A little.. But no, I don't really rap or compose. It was just playing around with Rap Monster oppa, Suga oppa and J-hope oppa. I can't rap or compose." I explained.

"Eh! I heard you rapped a little before. It's alright," Jokwon oppa annoyed me. I shot glared at him. I don't know how it looked like but I think I mostly pouted.

"Haha! It's alright." Jiwook-nim said, "I came here to see your condition,"

Did he said condition? As in sick? Huh?

"Grading your singing skill, you're better than most of the trainees in JYP now. On you're dancing, it's the same as singing. It's better than most of the trainees in JYP right now." He said.

Jokwon oppa and I smiled when we heard that.

"I still need to see more from you so.. maybe tomorrow, I'll be observing you. JYP told me you wanted to be grouped with the trainee group, right?" He asked.

I nodded, "Yes!!"

"Alright. I'll observe you from tomorrow, if you're good enough, you can transfer back to JYP and get trained with the others," he smiled.

"Really!?!?" I yelled, "Ahhh!! Oppa!!! Yess!" I hugged Jokwon oppa without knowing. He hugged me back and jumped with me.

"It's late now. You should continue training. I guess I'll see you tomorrow?" He said.

"Wait that's it? You came just to say that?" I looked confused, "You could've send Jokwon oppa here with some money and he can tell me it when we're eating,"

"Ya Jennie! I'm not a messenger!" Jokwon oppa pushed me away. I laughed.

"Haha, but I would've come here by my self anyway. I wanted to see you personally after... I heard Jokwon-ssi and BTS were asking JYP for you to get trained," he smiled.

....No Comment.... I have no comment about that.... I didn't know about that until BTS oppa told me I'll get trained with them and in their company.

"The BTS kids were close to her and so is Got7 and her trainee friends. After I heard her sang personally, I thought she had talent so.. I risked and asked JYP nim with the Bangtan boys," Jokwon oppa said, "Luckily, he accepted our request,"

"Ah!! I can see that," Jiwook-nim nodded, "Alright.. I'll go now," Jokwon oppa and him headed to the door, "Work hard,"

"Jennie! Fighting! Bye!!" Jokwon oppa yelled as he closed the door.

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"Jennie, you'll be Jungkook," my choreographer said. I nodded and stood in middle, "You, be Jimin, you're fine with jumping right?"

"Yes," the guy said.

"Jennie, can you carry him?" My choreographer asked.

I turner my head and looked at him, "He's skinny, I'm good."

"Ok, I'll skip to that dance part ok?" He went ahead and did.

It's 9:30 now. Since I already know how to sing the song Heaven by Ailee sunbaenim, my vocal lesson is done!! But my dancing lesson is not over yet. I'm now practicing BTS oppas' dance for their old performance. The performance of them and the other 23 back up dancers. Sigh~~ I'm Jungkook. The person dancing in the middle.

"Let me skip to that part....... GET READY!" He yelled.

"BTS!" Rap Monster oppa's voice from the computer.

*BOOM*

And now, for my next number,

Return to the classic.

I jumped to the middle and acted tough like Jungkookie. I walked back to the middle as everyone had their arms up like a machine. I hit the air hard like I just punched it and each of the dancers one by one turned.

We danced it well even though it was complicated. I was the main dancer, as Jungkook, of the whole group. The dancers already learned this with BTS oppas already. Long before in 2013. I just learned this about few days ago, about a week. The dance is hard, difficult, tough, strong, quick and very robot-like. After the whole dancing, we went back to the song "No More Dream" by BTS oppas. Like usual, Jungkook, me, had to carry Jimin, a backup dancer, up and let him kick the other members.

"THANK YOU!!" I yelled and bowed to every single back up dancers. It's late and they came here to practice dancing with me.

"It's okay, we were about to practice this again anyway. We also have to practice other stuff.. After this," one of them said.

"Oh, well thank you for practicing with me!" I bowed.

"Woot! Good job!!" The BTS oppas came in and clapped.

"You were watching?" I surprised.

"Yea! Jennie! You're good! Better than Jungkook!" Jimin oppa patted my back. We laughed.

"Jennie is really good. She learns quick. She's already better than all the backup dancers when they learned this long time ago," the choreography teacher joked.

"No!! I still need to learn more from you all," I said.

"Should we do it again?" V oppa said, "I wanna do it again so much.."

"What the dance?" I asked.

"Yeah sure! It's been a long time!" Jungkook said.

"I.. Can't.." Suga oppa said.

"Why? Ah!! The Appendix?" Rap monster oppa laughed.

"Well.. I had it and at that time I didn't get to practice much of the dance.. So I really don't know it well," Suga oppa said.

"Eh!! You're just too lazy to dance aren't you, hyung?" J-hope oppa said.

"Maybe.." He stared into space and answered.

I laughed, "Come on oppa! I wanna dance with you all again!!" I whined.

"Okay, okay." They all said.

"Jennie," the choreography teacher called me, "Be Jimin for now. Jimin has been practicing his flips and he injured a little bit. Let him rest and you can substitute for him for now," he said.

"Uh....." I tried to remember Jimin oppa's position through the whole dance, "Okay!" I nodded.

The dancing is the same as the others. Just that the first half of the dance, Jungkook is the main dancer in the middle, the second half is Jimin oppa as the main dancer. There's a part where he jumps from up high but I think I could do that. Hm... What else. No more dream..

"Oppa!" I gasped, "In the song No more dream.. I have to lift up my shirt?" I asked Jimin oppa.

He stared back at me and we both looked dumb.

"You can just fake pulling it up or don't do it at all..." Suga oppa told us.

"Oh!!" Jimin oppa and I nodded. Hehe!!

"Jennie-ah, should we practice a little of the kicking scene?" Jungkook asked.

I stared at him blankly. Wait-- "Oh! Yeah! I forgot.. I'm Jimin!" I smiled.

"Ok, you know it right? You and I will stand behind them then when the music starts again, just run to me and I'll pick you up," Jungkook explained.

"Okay! How?" I asked.

"Like this," he said. He stood next to me. My arm was put over his shoulder. His hand crawled around my waist and he picked me up easily with his other hand under my knees.

"Woa..." I screamed. My arms locker tightly around his neck.

He laughed and keeps on throwing me up and down.

"Dude!" I yelled in english, "STOP!!" I tightens my arms to his neck. My hands grabbed his shirt tightly as I shut my eyes.

"Woah!! Jennie! You're light!" Jungkook laughed.

"You do Jennie!" Jimin oppa said.

"I remembered," Jin oppa laughed, "Before, all of us together is enough to carry her," he laughed out loud.

"Haha!" The others laughed.

"It was hard even when we're carrying her all together!" J-hope oppa laughed.

I opened my eyes and glared at them. They look short.. Before I had to look up to them. Now.. We're the same height!

"Haha! I remember that!" Jungkook added in.

My glare went back to Jungkook. I'm supposed to look like I'm going to kill him.. but... seeing him, smiling, up close is.. so weird. My anger left right away. A smile is about to grow even when I don't want it to.

I quickly looked away. My actions got awkward. I don't want to meet his eyes. I want to get off. Get away from him. But this is such a comfortable bed to sleep on...

I'm weird...

"Aish.. Put me down..." I pouted. I wiggled my feet to make him loose balanced.

"I don't want to," Jungkook denied. He held me tighter and stronger, "We have to practice, remember?" He raised his eyebrows at me.

I sighed. I don't know how to answer him. I was speechless for no reason.

"Hyungs, can you line up for Jennie to kick your backs?" Jungkook asked them.

I laughed at the way he asked that. His hyungs stood still and stared at him with a face, "Are you serious?"

"Wae?" Jungkook looked confused. I laughed more because of his stupidness.

"You're asking us to stand still for Jennie to kick our backs?" Suga oppa raised his eyebrows.

"Yea.. Why?" He asked back.

"Hyungs, you're supposed to do that..." Jimin oppa added in.

Wow.. Jungkook and Jimin oppa are just..

"Wait.. What's going on?" V oppa had his blank face. Rap Monster oppa laughed.

I am done with these three youngests of the group here.

"It is what we're supposed to do.. But the way you asked us.." Rap monster oppa scratched his head.

"It's like, 'Oh hyung! Let me kick your back!'" J-hope replayed the question.

"Hyung! Jennie wanted to kick your backs, can you turn around please?" Suga oppa said again with a straight face.

Jungkook, Jimin oppa and V oppa finally understood. They laughed and couldn't reply back.

"Hyungs! I don't know how to ask!" Jungkook yelled and laughed.

"You could say 'Hyung! We need to practice the kicking part!'" J-hope yelled.

Everyone laughed.

"Hyung! Line up and get ready to be kicked!!" Jin oppa added.

They laughed until they teared up. I laughed with them while being carried. It was comfortable. I laughed really hard and hid my face in Jungkook's chest. Without knowing.

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I ran on the back up dancers' guys hands and back and reached the top. I jumped down from up top and hit the floor safely.

Ow!

POW! Yeah I'm Leth to the B

POW! I got the top grime dargs with me

POW! If you don't know about me

POW! Yeah I'm Pow! (Everything repeat again)

We ended this song. The song No More Dream came on.

Hey you, what's your dream? x3

Is that all your dream is?

That's a lie, you such a liar

See me, see me, ya, you're a hypocrite

Why are you telling to go a different way?

Take care of yourself.

Please don't force me.

(Lalalalala)

I lifted my hoodie up, I mean, Jungkook's hoodie up. Because it was thick, it didn't get to be lifted up much. Enough to show some skin though.

What's your dream? x2

(Lalalalala) Is that it? Is that it?

We formed a line and I was in the front. We did a wave with our body but in a circle.

Don't know how to live

Don't know how to fly

Don't know how to decide.

Don't know how to dream now!

Open! Open! Open your eyes now!

(Dance! Dance! Dance a dance now!

Dream! Dream! Dream a dream now) ---is wasn't in it but I wanted it to be included because it's meaningful.

Stop hesitating, stop being indecisive, wassup!

The music dropped. I hid behind Suga oppa and Jungkook hid behind Jin oppa. When the music is back, I quickly ran out as the others turned. Jungkook was there in the middle with his arm open. I hung my hand around his neck then jumped and let him carry me. He leads me to their backs as I kicked them one by one and they all fall down.

That's a lie, you such a liar

See me, see me, ya you're a hypocrite

Take care of yourself. Please don't force me

(Lalalalala)

We formed a line from left to right. Jungkook was next to me. Our feet stepped together from left turn, right turn, left turn, and right turn, making a square on the floor.

What's your dream? x2

(Lalalalala)

We did the same but the opposite.

Is that it? Is that it?

We quickly gather together and formed a pose as Rap Monster oppa fake made a shot gun. I tried to looked serious.

"Wooooooooootttt! Good job!" The back up dancers cheered. They came to me, mostly the guys, came and patted my back. One of them gave me a water bottle for me.

"Thank you!!" I thanked them.

"Good job Jennie!!" Jimin oppa ran to me and hugged me.

"Thank you! I'm sweaty now.. You probably don't wanna hug me," I pushed him away and tried to smell the hoodie. Nope, it still smells like before. It smells like Jungkook and his sweat, with a little mixed of clone.

He laughed at me, "Aish!! I don't care! You did a good job as me!!" He pulled me in and hugged me. His hand rubbed my head and squeezed my cheeks. Haha, i missed this. I feel kind of chubby now.

"CHICKEN DELIVERY!" Someone yelled at the door.

"Chicken!!" I yelled answered and ran to the guy. Dropping everything. I grabbed one of the bags and smelled the best thing of my life. I am loving who ever ordered this.

"How much is it?" Our choreographer asked the guy.

"Uh... Here," he showed him a receipt. Wow!! That's a lot of number!

"Ok, here, keep the change." Our choreographer said, "I bought chicken for everyone!!" He yelled.

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"Jennie, can you passed me the ketchup?" Jin oppa said.

I was too busy eating my chicken. There's a rule everyone should know when I'm eating, "I'm Busy."

"Jennie! Please?" He said again.

I kicked Jungkook and signaled him to do it. He grabbed the ketchup and passed it to us.

"Guys, you're enjoying?" Our choreographer came and sat with us on the floor.

"Thank you hyung! It's very delicious!" J-hooe oppa smiled.

"Ah good, you a worked hard today!" He patted on our backs and ate with us. "Ah right! Jennie!"

"...."

"Jennie?" He asked again.

"Jennie!" Everyone yelled out my name.

"Huh?" I looked up and continued to eat.

"He's calling you," Suga oppa pointed to our choreographer.

"Jennie! No more eating!" V oppa nagged me and took the chicken out of my hand.

I didn't move. My eyes looked at him, "I'll give you one second," I said.

He laughed and tucked out his tongue. I jumped to him, over Jungkook, and tried to grab my chicken. He backed off and bit my chicken then laughed at my face.

"OPPA!" I yelled and reached for him. Jungkook was holding me back and I couldn't get any further.

"JENNIE!" the choreographer yelled. My attention went to him. "You're a girl! There are many other chicken! Sit like a normal person." He nagged.

"But he took and ate my chicken..." I went back to my seat. I got yelled at. This is not fair! He took my chicken! He even bit it when he knows he's going to die under my hand if he does. Why am I getting yelled at?

"Here, you can have this big piece," Jin oppa gave me a big big big big piece.

"Saranghae.." I stared at the chicken and grabbed it.

"Haha! Jin hyung or the chicken?" Rap monster oppa asked.

I looked at Jin oppa and smiled, "Both. Hehe!!"

"Haha, good job," Jin oppa patted my head.

"Jennie-ah," our choreographer said, "You hear me?"

I looked up to him and nodded. My mouth was still chewing on the chicken but at least I heard him.

"Jokwon and the other guy came, what did they talked to you about?" He asked.

"Jokwon hyung?" They all said.

"Jokwon hyung came?" J-hope oppa asked.

"Why?" Someone asked.

Why... I forgot.

"I forgot.." I looked blanked and tried to remember.

"You forgot!? Really?" Rap monster oppa laughed.

"He came with another person.." The choreographer added.

"Ah Right! That guy.. He was the person in charged of the trainees' activities in JYP. He said he came here to see how I'm doing and will bring me back to JYP," I smiled. I remembered now!!! Yay!

"Wait what?" Jimin oppa looked serious at me and asked.

"He said I am good enough now. Tomorrow he'll come to see more and will decide if I'm coming back to JYP and get train there," I added.

"What!?" Jin oppa yelled

"Tomorrow?" Suga oppa asked.

"Tomorrow?" Jungkook repeated.

I nodded, "Yea!! Kookie-ah!! All my hard work have paid off now!!" I smiled, "I'm so happy!!" I jumped.

He didn't reply. Show some happiness!

I looked around..

Why is the atmosphere so.. gloomy?

I put the chicken down as I looked at them. They looked at me with pitiful eyes and a little bit of anger.

"What's wrong?" I started feeling scared.

"Nothing.." V oppa looked away from me. J-hope oppa looked away and continued eating.

"Huh?" I asked Jungkook. He stared at me. I stared back into his eyes and asked for an answer. "Tell me!!" I urged him. He looked away awkwardly and scratched his head.

"Jennie.. He said he'll come back tomorrow?" Our choreographer repeated.

"Yea. Why? Is it a bad day?" I gasped in realized, "Tomorrow is Sunday! We don't work on Sunday!!" I realized.

"Oh my god..." Rap monster oppa faced palm himself and laughed in speechless.

I glared at him, pouting. I guess it's called scowled?

"What??" I asked. I'm seriously loosing my patient.

"Jennie.. If he accepts you tomorrow, that means you're going back to JYP tomorrow too, right?" Jimin oppa sorted it out.

"I think.. Yea.."

"Going back to JYP means leaving us.. Right?" Suga oppa asked.

I stopped.

Everything stopped.

No.. No.. I want time to stop now!

I looked at Jimin oppa, he was staring at me with puppy eyes. Rap monster oppa was looking at me with a curious face. Suga oppa bit his inner lip and looked awkward. J-hope oppa didn't even wanted to look at me. Our choreographer sighed. Jin oppa looked on the floor and hesitating on his chicken. V oppa is playing with his chicken piece and was.. talking mind to mind to it. And Jungkook, he flinched the chicken piece on the floor/paper and bring it back. Flinched it and bring it back. He bit his lips and keeps on fluttering his eyes.

No.

NO.

N.O.

I want time to stop. Or rewind! To four months ago! Or to the beginning of today.. Where I slept on the floor in the practice room and they came in to wake me up. When we went out and had a normal life together. Or even when we practiced our dance performance and the BTS oppas were watching me without me knowing! Any of these is fine.

Now.. I don't want to. I don't want to come back home.

I feel like crying...

Heaven... if we're together... we will never cry..

Never, ever.. cry.

Time.. Clock.. Can you just stop?

Rewind.. Stop.. Pause.. Save this for later.. I don't care.

I want time to stop now.