What Do I Do?
Taehyung's Perspective
"We're dating."
Was I dumb? Was I stupid enough to tell this to the person that didn't like the idea of me being with their sister? I had to say something, otherwise Jimin might catch on. Ona always said her brother wasn't great when it came to figuring things out, but Ona and I were inches away from each other. How else could you explain that?
I love Ona. No question about that. I knew I was in love with her and knew that I wanted to be with her. I shouldn't have to keep that a secret, right? Secrets are usually seen as bad. Even I hate keeping secrets because of the pressure it causes to keep them hidden. I'm not the bad guy, right?
I stepped forward, throwing an arm around Ona's shoulder to show how serious I was, staring at Jimin directly. I couldn't show weakness or cower under his narrowed gaze. Jimin always said he wanted to make sure Ona was with someone that would stand up for her and make sure that someone would keep her safe. I felt qualified for those things, so I had to show Jimin just how protective and brave I was for his baby sister.
"I love her." I continued, making Ona's body tense and even having Jungkook let out a small breath as he awaited something to happen. I knew Jimin was getting less calm by the second. I knew my best friend like the back of my hand. When he grew angry, it would build up. It was something you couldn't rush other wise you might get knocked backward. I definitely made sure I kept a safe distance from him.
"How?" He asked, crossing his arms like a father would.
"You're asking me how I could love her?" I asked him, earning a slight nod from him. To describe that would take me a million years. What is he expecting me to say?
"Maybe we should go sit down somewhere?" The girl Jimin brought said. I think her name started with an "S". I remember Jungkook mentioning her, but I was too busy worrying about my own life at that moment.
"I agree." Ona spoke up.
"We should stay here just in case I need to do something." Jimin said without hesitating. When we were younger, Jimin had gotten into fights before, mainly to beat up the guys that had picked on me, hencing how we became great friends. Then, when I started to defend myself, he became less of a fighter and more of a softer guy. But sometimes I could see the younger Jimin peak through. This was one of those moments and it was difficult being on the receiving end once again.
"I'm in love with your sister," I started again. "You can't change my mind on that." I could feel Ona breathing quickly, knowing she was five seconds away from most likely having some sort of panic attack. I rubbed my thumb against her shoulder to try and calm her down. I wasn't letting anyone, let alone Jimin, ruin what we had. I would have to be a fool to let this go.
"Ona, come here." Jimin muttered. Great. He was going to play the loyal game. Everyone knows how devoted Ona is to Jimin as he did raise her while their parents were away. I knew Ona was always insistent on keeping her's and Jimin's relationship solid and golden as it was very important to her. Right now, I was feeling a little nervous as to what was going to happen.
"Jimin.." Ona sighed, moving a little but not enough to cross to his side of the feud line. I will say, I never let my arm fall from her shoulders as it was the only thing keeping me somewhat calm.
"Jimin, come on," Jungkook finally spoke. "I've seen them together. They really love each other. He would never hurt her."
"You knew this whole time?!" Little did Jimin know he was getting paid to keep his mouth shut. How funny that is, right?
"Does that matter now?" Jungkook rolled his eyes. "I felt like vomiting everytime Taehyung did something romantic for her which means he is a sweet guy for Ona. I felt like I was watching a drama every time he would flirt with her or kiss her. By the way," He turned to me and pointed a finger. "Do that again and I will throw you at him," He pointed at Jimin before looking back at the beast himself. "Truth is, Taehyung would never harm Ona. And if I should say, she is madly in love with him. So, who is the one really hurting her here in this situation?" Jungkook crossed his arms. "You're threatening to keep her away from someone she is in love with while Taehyung is willing to make her feel loved."
Well, holy shit. I was not expecting that from the maknae. I must say, I am actually surprised he stepped in and even mesmerized by his courage to go against angry Jimin. I looked down to see Ona always wide eyed and shifting her gaze between the younger and the older as they had some sort of mind battle with each other, as if we were disconnected from some telekinetic conversation between them.
"That doesn't give them the right to go behind my back--"
"Your back has been turned around from the obvious! It's your own doing!" Was that me? Did I just yell or was that Jungkook? Well, from how everyone was looking at me I can tell you it wasn't the latter. I sighed, shaking away the invisible electrical anger shocks that sparked inside of me. God, being with Jimin all of these years, made you pick up on his furious side. "What I meant was, the fact you couldn't even tell your sister was happy or in love shows neglect to her feelings. Me, I made sure she was in that state, I made sure she was feeling loved and cared for while your feelings got in the way of her own. I thought you were her brother?"
"I am. But maybe you should take your own words into consideration. You make her do things that she feels uncomfortable with because you think she should do them and it makes you happy. I heard about the cliff jump, Taehyung. I pushed it aside because I heard you saved her from dying, but it seems like I just saw the good part in it all to not think about the reason of her jumping." Jimin's girl pulled on his arm, making him back up a few steps as he had gotten carried away and walked nearer to me.
"Guys, stop.." I think that was Ona but my mind was in a blood fury; a rage I felt when dealing with Im Jaebum, but for some reason, it was stronger. Maybe it was because Jimin was saying I was all wrong for Ona, that I didn't deserve her. Meanwhile, Jaebum had just picked up on my jealousy and true feelings for her, using that against me.
"I have realized that and I have made sure to correct my wrongs," I removed myself from Ona to step closer to Jimin, causing Jungkook to move with me as if I was planning to hit Jimin. I just might if he starts to question my love for her or keeps us apart, but for now, I am restraining. "I am in love with her. I will say it a hundred times to make you realize that because saying 'I love Ona' makes me feel like I have something amazing and makes me happy that she chose someone like me to give her love, tell her she's beautiful, and always let her know she is never alone. You are not taking that away from me. And I won't let you take her away from that." I stood my ground firm and strong.
"Ona!" The girl...Seo, that's her name, I remember now, yelled. We all turned to see Ona running off, faster than the speed of light.
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Ona's Perspective
I couldn't take it anymore. His voice and his voice became a mixture of maddening sounds in my ears, making me feel like being mad was being sane. We're all mad here. That seems to be a quote worth living on as it holds a definite truth to my life and how things work.
All I could feel was my legs becoming numb from the fast pace I kept up, the perspiration making me feel sticky and way too hot to even feel connected to life or air. But it was better than the dense air between those two. I needed to escape, to let my mind feel like it's able to think. I needed a place to stop and allow me to feel closer to earth as I always find that a short cut to a calming sensation to help me breathe. And I knew what place that was.
I picked up my feet, moving past pedestrians with their phone against their ears and stores with music trickling out.
The sun was pushing its unbearable heat against my body like a heater was strapped to my back. I was feeling the summer and it wasn't making me feel happier at all.
Was I insane from running so far just to reach this point? I couldn't help but wonder but after twenty minutes of running and resting, I reached the edge of the cliff. The familiar sounds of waves crashing against the dark walls of the cliff below made me feel so light and calm as if I was injected with a large dose of morphine.
"What do I do?" I whined, slumping to my knees and burying my head in between them. It was a good question, but one that was hard to even answer.
Two of the most important people to me argue over my love life as if it was their's to decide. It wasn't fair for Jimin to assume he was the ruler over who I dated or loved. And it wasn't fair for Taehyung to know how I felt in the relationship as if he could read my mind. I do have a voice but it seems like it has gone, as if swept away by some imaginary vocal wind.
Jimin's thoughts and words always mattered to me as we always helped each other through life. I won't ever forget what he's done for me but this time, it's different. Something he can't help me with. Taehyung's thoughts and words have made me feel nervous or even warm. I felt as though I could end up in a situation I would love or be terrified of. I loved him. No doubt. I couldn't remove that emotion as it seems to be tattooed to my troubled heart.
"Why is everything so complicated?" I groaned, feeling the stress-filled tears build up.
"Ona?" I jumped as the voice called out, making me turn to see Yoongi, his blonde hair covered by a grey beanie and his headphones around his neck. He seemed as emotionless as ever, but something told me he was genuinely concerned. Great, someone else to get wrapped up in my problems.
"W-what are you doing?" I was mildly curious. This must be some coincidence.
"My Ona senses were tingling. There was a disturbance in the Ona force," He said as he sat down beside me. I wouldn't be surprised if he was telling the truth as he always seemed to know everything and never lied. He was always so straight forward without thinking twice. When I looked at him questioningly, he smiled a little and shook his head, making me feel weird. I haven't really seen a smile on him, so it was like the world was ending. "I have been coming here for a while. You and Taehyung just decided to infiltrate my quiet place."
"I'm sorry." I said.
"What's wrong?" He asked, scrolling through his phone, through the music in fact. Was he seriously asking me what's wrong and then block me out once I spoke.
"It's complicated."
"Jimin found out?" Yoongi didn't even look up as he kept scrolling.
"W-what?" I gave him a wide-eyed stare as he was nonchalant about everything. He scared me sometimes and I only really talked to him when he spoke first. This is why.
"I know you and Taehyung are dating. You're not that great at hiding it to be fair, or he isn't," He shrugged. "Whenever Taehyung got a text from you, it would play your favorite song. Whenever he would watch television, it would just be the dramas and animes you liked. Also, a few times during a nap, he kept muttering your name in his sleep. He must have been having good dreams since he kept getting louder as he spoke."
When Yoongi said this, I wanted to scream and hit him, but I don't know what would happen to me. Instead, I made my face look forward as if his words didn't phase me. Meanwhile, I was struggling to breathe properly.
"Yes, Jimin found out. And now they are fighting as to what happens in my love life." I sighed.
"That's stupid," He shook his head. "They both are. Well, everyone besides me in the group is, but they seem to be the biggest airheads in the group," He sighed, before turning his whole body to face me. "You do realize you are an adult, right? Don't become a pabo as well or I'll disown you from my friend list," What is even going on? "Jimin's opinion doesn't matter and Taehyung's love for you seems more legit than the beauty Jin thinks he sees when he looks in a mirror." If this wasn't a serious situation I might have laughed at Yoongi's major sass right now.
"What are you saying?" I rested my chin on top of my knees as I turned to look at him.
"Do what you want, for God's sake. Simple as that. You don't need me to tell you that. Like that day on the beach: some things never seem to change. You love Taehyung. Do that. Love him and don't make someone else tell you that's wrong," Yoongi said. "Now, leave me be so I can listen to my music." After that, Yoongi placed his black headphones on, blasting his heavy rap that made him close his eyes and tilt his head back.
I sat there for a second before standing and thinking his words over. I sighed, turning back around to stand at the edge of the cliff, loving the feeling of the soft breeze tangling my dark hair. I could leave Yoongi be, but going back to the tension that was Taehyung and Jimin seemed like a suicide mission.
I looked back to see Yoongi not even seeming irritated by my presence as he was laid back against the ground, his music the only thing separating us. I turned back to see the heavy falls of the waves down below, taunting me by each hit it delivered. That time I jumped, when Taehyung saved me, I was scared...but I was also free. As if my problems were left behind on the cliff and I was someone new in the air, being cleansed as I plunged into the cold, blue depths of the salty water.
Was it insane to say that feeling was something I wanted now? I felt like a silly child for feeling so stressed from something so stupid. But at the same time, I just wanted it to stop.
I moved one foot over the edge, teasing the open air before me as I balanced on the other. It was like I was a tight rope walker testing the strain of the rope beneath, but I wasn't going to be trying to keep my body up or remain up right. The urge to jump off and scream with a free feeling was so tempting it hurt.
"Ona!" I heard behind me. Maybe it's Yoongi telling me to just leave already and leave him alone. Well, I could. If I go this way. I nodded before moving forward, getting ready for the cold flush of water and the stress slip away from me. As I was off the ground, an arm snaked itself around my waist, pulling me back and having me fall against the ground, shaking hands pushing back my hair as it cascaded across my confused face.
Once I could see, Taehyung's handsome face was above me and looking down as if he just saw a ghost.
"Taehyung?" I asked.
"What were you doing?!" He basically yelled. Soon enough, he pulled me into his arms as I sat in his lap and he rocked us back and forth, his arms tighter than before.
"I was just going to cliff dive." I whispered, head against his shoulder. I felt like a small 5-year-old in his arms as he basically cradled me like a doll. He treated me like a fragile piece of art which comforted me yet made me anxious as well.
"You could have died! Again!" His lips brushed against my forehead, my cheek, then back to the top of my head in a repetitive pattern. " I couldn't live with the fact that you were on one side of the veil and I was left here alone." He breathed out, as if it was hard for him to say.
"I wasn't killing myself. I just wanted to jump." I told him, not even bothering to move as the running, stress, and my own thoughts caught up to me and making me feel exhausted.
"And if I wasn't here?! I would have lost you!" He yelled at me, moving me back as his large, warm hands held my face, his eyes large and worried. His thumbs rubbed against my cheeks soothingly and I closed my eyes at the wonderful feeling.
"Yoongi is here." I said.
"I passed by him as I was running to get you! God dammit. Why would he leave you here like this?" Anger washed over him so quickly at the thought of me being on my own. He was overreacting.
"I was fine last time. I didn't drown before. I can do it now." I tried to reassure him.
"Shut up," Taehyung shook his head, hugging me tightly to him. "I love you, so you don't get to do that to me. You don't have the right to make me feel lost like that. You don't get to try and reason your way out of this. You could have died. Don't go where I can't follow. You hear me?" He moved back to place a kiss against my lips, the warmth making me feel so much. I closed my eyes as he peppered more kisses around my face, lingering more near my lips.
"Where's Jimin?" My voice was basically a whisper as he kept me trapped in his arms.
"Don't worry about him. He'll just have to deal with the fact I am in love with his sister and that you are mine. My Jagiya." He kissed the side of my neck, once again lightly kissing me there and making me shiver slightly. He was right, I could have died and missed this. I would miss his touch, his love, his warmth. What was I thinking? My problems would be swept away by the ocean wind and cold waves? My life would. Right now, life was too sweet to even consider leaving behind.
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So.......its been a while *RUNS AWAY* Sorry its been so long! Work has been kicking my ass! I have been so busy that motivation seems to be a stranger to me. I couldn't find the strength to get to my computer, but today seemed to be good, so I had to update!
That TaeOna love though >.> I swear....TaeOna is life <3
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