Shin POV

I put Y/n down to the chair at the back of the house. She doesn't say a word after apologized to me. - Tries to stare away every time I looked at her. Cute. I'm not mad at her. At all... How come I get mad when she called my name? The name she gave to me. It's just... I'm quite shocked that she suddenly called my name. I've been thinking about it since I heard my name from her tempting lips.

Maybe it's time for her to know the truth.... I shouldn't wait any longer. I can't keep it forever anyway. I'm not planning to. If the truth does not come out as I plan, I really want to hear her explanation about how she came out with my name. Just like when she called me when she was little. Because I'm really certain that she can't remember the truth without me.

I looked at Takuya-san that comes with a teapot to our small table at the back of the house. I used to spend my evening time on here before I found Y/n, for once again. Most of the time, I spent it in my gallery room. Spend my day and night in there, besides being here or hang around on my usual tree.

"You can leave, Takuya-san. Let me take care of the rest. You should get in." I gave my order to Takuya-san. I just want some moment alone with Y/n as soon as possible. - Without interruption from Takuya-san, of course....

"As you said, Shin-sama." Takuya-san put the teapot in front of me as I stand to pour the tea into the cup. He leaves the table as I ordered and leave me with Y/n.

"Are your ankle still hurt, Y/n?" I started the conversation. I don't want this silence atmosphere distress Y/n since she doesn't look comfortable to be with me right now.

"It's... It's fine."

"Did you get a good night's sleep?" I put the cup that I've poured with a warm tea and placed it in front of her.

"Thanks." She murmured her gratitude to me. "Yeah. Kinda..."

"I'm not mad at you, if that worried you, Y/n. I'm sorry if I make you feel guilty."

"You sure did..." She said with a soft voice; making me smile to hear it. I also arranged the fork and knife to the side of her plate since Takuya-san doesn't have time to set the table properly when we got here.

"It's okay, I can do it on my own. My hands are perfectly fine."

"It's not a trouble for me to do it for you, Y/n." I take my seat as I crossed my leg. "I found it very enjoyable to do it for you."

"Don't tell me you want to become like Takuya-san." She said and held the cup to her lips. I've succeeded to make her talk comfortably with me again.

Nevertheless, her statement makes me smiles. I've never intended to be like Takuya-san. Even Takuya-san has never dreamed of being a butler for me...

"Uhmm.... Can I ask you something?"

"You don't have to ask for my permission, Y/n. Ask away." I leaned on the chair; waiting for her question as I look at her.

"Is there someone important called your name as Shin-kun?"

Her question surprised me. I can't even smile after I've heard it. I can't express my feeling into words. How overwhelmed I feel right now.... How anxious and happiness comes at the same time. Is it because I waited for her till now? Or is it because I scared to lose her after she knows the truth? No... Lose her is not an option for me. She is mine.

"You don't have to answer my question if you...."

"There is someone...." I cut her words. - Refused to let that negative thought bothers me. Y/n needs to know the truth. Either is bad or good for her to take, she'll face it. I'll bring her memories back. Perhaps... it's time for her to remember.

"A little girl, wasn't it?" She quickly asked me.

"She's a grown up now. She's become a fine lady; too beautiful to my eyes." I formed my lips into a smile for her. Her face suddenly looks so shocked. Catch my attention within a second.

"Y/n.... are you okay?" I asked her, worried.

"You said the same thing in my dream."

"Dream?" I frowned. "Do you care to share it with me, Y/n?"

"I've dreamed that I followed a girl and then... she meets with you. You had white wings in my dream; sat on a tree branch. The girl called your name as Shin-kun."

"Then, you saw the girl?"

Y/n shook her head. "Just her back figure. She looked familiar to me. Do you know her? You called her..."

"Little one." I don't need to guess since I know who she is talking about. I don't know how she can dream about the past. I can't control her dream, but she supposed not to remember anything.

"Yes! That's right! You know her, then..." Y/n slowly tapped her chin.

"In the middle of my dream, she's gone. You were there for a second, saying the same thing that you said earlier before you were gone too. Why I'm dreaming about that? And my heart feels heavy every time I keep thinking about it...."

I gave a weak smile to her. "Do you want to know who is the girl in your dream, Y/n?"

Y/n nodded and curiously looking at me. Like her, I'm curious for myself too; curious to see her response after this. I hope everything goes smoothly as I planned.

"It's you, Hinamura Y/n." I've said it without any hesitation. Her face looks surprised again. The normal response that I thought she will show.

"No... no way." She slowly shook her head. "You're kidding, right?"

"Do I look like I'm kidding, Y/n?" I said.

"How come that girl was me? I've never seen you before. I don't even know you. I live with my parents until they've died. I've never been here!"

I'm not surprised with her angry tones. More like unsatisfied to me. She probably thought that I'm lying. Make up my own stories. I can read from her eyes....

"Tell me, Y/n. Do you remember your childhood memories? When you were nine years old?" I confidently asked her.

"Of-Of- Of course."

She lied. I smirked as I held the cup to my lips. She makes this hard to explain, though...

"Do you remember that I asked about your burning scars on your ankle last night, Y/n?" I put the cup back to the table.

"Yeah..."

"You can remember your memories back if I touch it. That's my mark that I've put on you. - As a mark; that you are the one and to seal off your memories. Do you want to know the truth? Do you want to remember everything?" I looked at her eyes as I waited for my answer. The decision is on her hands. But... sooner or later, I should place her to where she belongs. An empty place beside me....

Your POV

A mark; to seal off your memories. You try to absorb that words and try to understand the situation that you're going through. Your late father said that burning scar caused by his mistake. You sure he'd never lied about it. You want to believe that theory, however... the fact is far more complicated than you've known. The proof is something that you should've searched for.

Now, you're in a line between you wanted to believe everything that Shin's said or not. It's right that you don't remember your childhood memories. Not until you were ten or eleven. Any memories before that age, your mind goes blank.

Nonetheless... If what Shin's said is true, why he sealed off your memories? What has happened until he decided to put that burning scar on your ankle? If you are really the same little girl that he's talking about, why Shin do all of this? Everything's probably easier for you to recognize Shin from the first place if he doesn't seal of your memories.

​​​ "Y/n... nothing will be solved if you're not facing it. I'm always with you all the way. If you're scared, you can ask for me to do that later." Shin said.

He makes you feel eager to know all about it as your heart beats faster. Are the lost memories going to be scary? It's not going to take your sanity or changes who you are, right? It's just a lost piece of the puzzle that should be complete your chapter in your life so far.

​​​​​​ "I- I want to know." You raised your head as you stare at Shin. "If what you said is true, if that is my lost memories, I want to know about it. You better aren't lying to me."

"I'm not, don't worry." Shin smiled a little. He doesn't touch anything that's been served for him except took a sip of his warm tea.

You pushed the chair slightly to the back as you stand up and look at Shin. "Here, my ankle. I-I'm ready."

"No. You don't have to get up, Y/n." Shin quickly stands up and pushed you slightly to your seat.

You tilted your head, looking at him. Should you stretch your legs for him to touch your ankle?

"Why don't you finish your breakfast and we'll do it later?" Shin sat on his chair back.

"After all, you need the energy to go through it, Y/n."

Your heart beats still going fast. It sounds like your lost memories are scary. You picked up the fork that placed beside your plate and started to enjoy your meal. Not really enjoying, just briefly eat to fill your empty stomach. You're quietly chewing your meal meanwhile, Shin still looking at you. You don't even care about you've been staring at right now. Your mind only starts to wonder if it's going to be a painful process to you or not.

Shin POV

Once Y/n done with her meal, I get up from my seat and carrying her in my arms. She rejected my intention to carry her like before, but I'd never agreed to let her walk by herself. She has me to be her legs. - Which is, she can use me forever if she wants. The more she depends on me, the more I'll feel blessed to help her and the more I feel important for her. Just like she was so much important to me.

"Where we're going? Don't you suppose to bring my memories back?" Y/n asked me when I'm entering the house from the back door. She certainly confused since I suddenly carry her into the house without telling her anything.

"You need a bed to lay down, Y/n," I said to her. I think I'll just put her in my bedroom rather than hers. Not that I can't take her to her bedroom but I found it enjoyable if Y/n stay in my room. It's feel fascinated to see her in my lonely room; lying in my bed that I rarely used. Just thinking about it makes me smirk silently.

"Do I need to lie down? You just have to touch my ankle, right?" Y/n curiously asked me, again. Of course, I can just return her memories with touching her ankles. But, she will be in pain and unconscious for a certain time. It's better if she lay down on a bed beforehand.

"Shin-sama." Takuya-san hurriedly comes up to me when he saw me carrying Y/n into the house.

"Are you done with your breakfast, Shin-sama?"

"Yes. I'll take Y/n to my room. In the meantime, please don't bother us if you heard anything, Takuya-san."

"Heard anything? Like what?" Y/n interrupted me. She blinked her lovely eyes as she waits for my answer.

"I don't know... Maybe Takuya-san will hear moaning sounds from you, Y/n." I winked at her. Her cheek begins to blush as she looks directly to Takuya-san.

"What the... No, Takuya-san, don't believe him."

"As you wish, Shin-sama." Takuya-san slightly bows to me. He opened the door that leads to the stairs to my bedroom since my hands preoccupied with carrying Y/n. He even followed me to open another door to enter my room.

Once I entered my room, I put Y/n on the bed. She seemed bewildered as she looks at me and Takuya-san.

"Do you need anything else, Shin-sama?" Takuya-san standing near to the door with his right hand already holds the doorknob; ready to walk out and leave my room.

"No. Just remember what I've said," I said, giving him my order.

"I will, Shin-sama."

I watched Takuya-san leave my room before I give my attention back to Y/n. She already leaned on the end of the bed while looking at me. - Waiting for my next move with a confused face. Hmm... her posture on my bed looks somewhat tempting to me....

"Scare?" I asked her.

"A little. Why did you say something like that to Takuya-san? He may be thinking that we're going to do something... not appropriated. Plus, why you put me in your room?"

"Not appropriated. Then, should we do it, Y/n? Just in case if you want to make sounds to Takuya-san. It's not good to lie to him."

"Hell, no!!" Y/n crossed her arm. "I just want my memories back."

I grinned at her. She rejected my idea with a blushed on her cheeks. She's not lying about her rejection, but her cute face that rejects me, it looks intriguing.

"Well, is it going to be painful?" She asked me; quickly changed the topic as she blushing fades bit by bit.

I sat on the bed, smiling as I stare at her eyes. "Depends..."

"On what?"

"Your metabolism, heart rates, your health condition is important too." I purposely teased her. I want to lose some tensed that got on her. I can perfectly see in her eyes. She's scared. Since the blood of an angel flows in my body, I still possessed some power as an angel even though I've been cast out from heaven. It's not stronger as before, but I'm perfectly strong to mortal. I can easily read their feeling.... Some of the feelings, and I easily know if they lied or not.

"Really?" She honestly believed me. That was easy. She's not believed in me this easily when I've said about the truth earlier.

"Just lay down." I pushed her shoulder lightly to the bed; straightened her feet as I'm taking a position next to her left ankle.

"Are you ready, Y/n?" I asked her and let out my left wing. It's much more comfortable to use my power in my true form.

"Y-Yeah..."

"Here I go." I glanced at my left palm, slowly wrapping it around her ankle. It's going to be painful for Y/n. I know since she just a mortal. When I put this mark before, she was unconscious. Right now, she's completely awake and I know it's hard for me to look at her when she in a painful state.

"S-Shin! That hurts!!!" Y/n screamed at me and continues to scream out of her lungs. She tries to move away her feet, but I restrained her from doing so without any struggle. I closed my eyes tightly so that I don't have to see her painful face. It's hard for me to look since I'm the one creating the pain over her. But it'll be over for any second now...

"I'm sorry for hurting you. It'll be over soon, Y/n. I promise." I said, letting go of my hand as she stopped screaming and fainted. I glanced over her mark that slowly fades away. Right now, she's in a world of her own memories.

I stood up and take my place closer to her face.

"Don't worry. I'm here when you wake up, Y/n." I said, kissing her forehead for a minute.

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