"I silently let my tears down,
Can you hug me once?"

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[A/N POV]

After a moment of dead silence Jungkook spoke with nervousness audible in his voice. You could sense how much guilt he must be feeling inside, to hide such an important news from his family- his hyungs.

"I-I'm really very sorry for that but for the time being we just want to keep our marriage as secret." He spoke stuttering in between.

Namjoon crouched his brows in utter confusion and changed glances towards you and him. It was so awkward.

"I-I'll cook something for you guys." You finally spoke to break the awkwardness. Basically, it was an excuse to escape from the situation and you ran away in the name of 'cooking food' putting all the explanation load on dear husband.

Namjoon's mouth was flung open until now. But after some minutes the sudden bombarding of questions and answers session started, as expected.

"What does she do? How did you two meet? What-" He asked hysterically glancing from you to Jungkook as it was still unbelievable for him. It took good fifteen minutes for him to believe that Jungkook really is a married man and you're his wife.

[Y/N POV]

"I'm sorry but Si- um... Jung- Jungkook can we talk for a moment?" I stuttered while grabbing his attention.

The first time I'm calling his name. I can feel weirdly happy from inside. Maybe for once I can talk to him like a wife rather than servant, for once, even if it's fake. This one time would be written in the history of the life of Y/N, with a golden pen. I'm pretty sure I can never forget this day. It's giving me butterflies.

Why?

Because no matter how much I respect his thoughts about me, somewhere at the bottom I do feel jealous, very jealous of Sua who is getting the special treatment which I always wanted.

Namjoon shifted his shocked gaze from Jungkook towards me and finally spoke.

"Sure why not? I know you guys are also taken aback by my behavior. I'm Kim Namjoon. You can call me RM too. I'm sorry uhm- " He introduced himself like a gentleman he is. I'm pretty sure this man right in front of me doesn't need to introduce himself as everyone is already aware of who is he. Such an inspiring and famous personality is greeting me, this sure is ethereal.

"It's fine. I'm Min Y/N. I thought you might be remembering me from the fansign." I tried my best stay calm and talk professionally whilst giving a warm smile. Meanwhile, Jungkook was staring at us maybe thinking of what story to cook up next in this revelation of our contractual marriage.

"You are that bold girl! How can I forget?!" He gasped amused when realisation of the fansign event struck his mind.

"Hyung just a moment." Jungkook cut the conversation in between and blurted out coldly. Namjoon understood the tension of the environment and so he gave us space to sort out things.

I must say this man is really mature and observant. His future partner would be really lucky to have his support by their side.

We shared an awkward smile and Jungkook dragged me to the kitchen, making sure he doesn't look 'mean' in front of his dear Hyung or maybe he really didn't intend to be harsh on me like those typical toxic jerks who would do anything to bind you.

At the very least, I'm grateful he isn't like that, he maybe a jerk and disrespectful sometimes, but he never became a barrier in my professional life and he didn't impose toxicity on me- manhandling, abduction and stuff which could've made me mentally sick. Being a lawyer, it's an everyday view to witness cases like these and they honestly, scare me. I maybe strong physically, I maybe good at speech and verbal wars, but inner me is still a teen who craves someone to support her not destroy her dreams.

He was supportive, back then and even now. Above all, whoever he chooses to be with, he'll be loyal. I know that very well. I guess that's what I like the most about him and that's what I fell for.

"I called you so many times! Can't you pick up once?" I was staring at him lost in my thoughts when his sudden flip in attitude caught me off-guard .

He sounded pissed off, his voice raised a bit louder, obviously it was my fault to not pick up the calls. Well you are a good actor. The sudden switch of moods is appreciable. I'm used to his scoldings so I focused more on what to do next.

"Sir, please lower down your voice! He would suspect something if he hears us. I'm sorry I was busy. Moreover my phone's battery was dead. We don't have time to argue. We have to behave like a married couple. Not for me at least for yourself." I said in an attempt to calm him.

"Fine. There wouldn't be a next time." He replied, his voice still filled with anguish.

"Are you feeling better now?" I asked concerned as I remember he was having strokes of dizziness in the morning.

He nodded his head not in the mood to talk anymore and I can sense how much annoyed he got, clear on his face.

"I brought some food from outside. No need to cook. Heat it up, I'm waiting outside." He answered shortly.

"I understand. You take the dishes on the table I'll come in a minute." With this he went outside to deal with Namjoon leaving me alone with the kitchen work which I'm grateful for, at least his anger would decrease by a percent.

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Almost twemty minutes passed with no sign of between these two men, the older whth a total shocked expression plastered on his tanned skintone, sometimes raising his brow unable to believe what he was hearing and the younger trying his best to give him a proper explanation. Jungkook told the whole story to Namjoon, except for the Sua part. He was afraid that his hyung will hate him.

I didn't come over, as a result he got impatient, so finally he came to take me. His brows crouched in confusion looking at me busy finding something desparately below the table.

"What are you doing? Come fast! You'll literally make me lose face." He whisper yelled.

I got up startled by his voice and bam! My head hit the table top.

"Sir, can you please take out that ring? It fell below the table. Can you move the table?" As expected of him, boy didn't care at all. I asked him while rubbing my head.

"Seriously Y/N?! Even in this situation you're thinking of wearing jewels." He spoke in disbelief, unable to understand how much that ring means to me.

I didn't care and constantly pushed the table. He face-palmed himself and finally helped me. I got my ring.

My wedding ring.

I instantly put in back on my finger caressing it and he gave an awkward look peeping at the door afraid if by chance, Namjoon walks in and hears something. Without wasting anymore precious time, I went to Namjoon and we talked for sometime.

"Y/N I remember now. The cool girl from the fansign! You're just soo bold. I think Jungkook's lucky to have you." He spoke in a warm tone teasingly. I feel everyone else is warm here except my husband.

Husband?

What a joke! There's nothing husband like in him. Who am I even kidding? Myself? Very well yes. It's heartbreaking to see Jungkook loving someone else with all his heart when I'm literally.... Fighting for him. Afterall, it was my choice, this life is his, I shouldn't meddle in his feelings. At the very least, he's...

Alive.

That's what that matters to me. Please stay alive Jungkook. I can't afford to lose you again.

"I see you are wearing your wedding ring. I feel sorry that Jungkook can't do that because of those endless rumours." Namjoon's words pulled me out of my trance and I touched my ring as a reflex.

"I'm okay as long as he's happy." I said smiling widely towards him making Jungkook was staring at me perplexed.

"By the way, what happened to your hands? They're bandaged. Did you get hurt?" Namjoon asked as his eyes travelled from my hands to my face, noticing the bruises and I instantly hid my hands at my back mentally cursing myself.

Oh fish! What'll I say now?

"Umm... I actually... Ya... I practice boxing so I got bruises from there." I lied awkwardly giving him an assuring smile.

The bruises are actually blisters caused by oil and cuts by knife while I was learning cooking. I was really the worst cook you could ever meet but I tired to improve myself, just for him and I certainly can't reveal the truth. I don't want Jungkook to be the bad guy.

"Boxing?! you know it? Even I want to learn it ! You're soo cool!" His eyes widened in surprise and he complimented.

"Jungkook also practices boxing. I see, you guys have similar interests! I wish you two all the best for future . Don't worry I won't reveal your little secret." He exclaimed patting at Jungkook's shoulder as if assuring him to iur secret and I'm pretty sure it won't go out of these four walls because Namjoon is a man of words.

"I'm flattered! Thankyou so much." I replied thanking him, that's the least I can do for him as I know how much of a big shock it would have been to know his best friend, more like younger brother got married that too so suddenly.

He said assuring us and showing his dimple smile. It's really attractive. No wonder I always crave for a friend like him.

Meanwhile Jungkook was staring at me. Maybe because of the similar interests thing?

"And you punk!" The leader mode got switched on and he pointed towards Jungkook speaking in a warning tone.

"Take care of her. If she gets hurt then remember I'll make your schedule busier!" He warned and I bet I saw shivers running down Jungkook's skin. Man! That was hilarious.

'Why do I have to listen all the scoldings? First from mom-dad now hyung! Hyung really you should take my side! Min Y/N... This woman is really making my life so difficult, as if it's ever been easy. ' He thought to himself clenching his jaw.

"I know you very well . Such a childish boy! Consider yourself lucky that you got a mature girl like her. " Namjoon spoke taking my side.

"I'll take good care of her." He replied fake smiling. This cocky bastard....

Is an idiot. I chuckled thinking.

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I was controlling my laugh till now. I never expected that RM would support me instead of his bandmate. Moreover getting compliments by a legend like Namjoon is like getting one of my dreams fulfilled!

We shared some talks about ourselves. Honestly it was great to talk to Namjoon. He really knows how to talk nicely unlike this brat!

"I'll take my leave now." He spoke getting up from his seat and Jungkook and I went to see him out.

"Jungkook. Let's talk a bit." He spoke affirmatively and I understood he wants some privacy, as a result they both got out of the door leaving me inside the house, so that I can't listen what they are saying.

But I have big ears you know? Specially when it comes to secretive things, I can hear them way better than others. I kept my right ear on the closed door to hear what they are talking about, as I was getting the vibes that this might me about me and bingo! I heard everything.

"Yes?" Jungkook asked curiously.

"Take Care means... Don't do anything which might cause you trouble in future." He said peeking downwards towards Jungkook and I can his extremely flustered face, meanwhile I was controlling my laugh at that statement standing at the door.

"I-I yes. I'll take care of it hyung! Bye." He shoved him off as soon as possible, as he knew seeing him one more minute would result in such assumptions which are quite risky for his dear cheeks which gets flustered up red everytime when someone teases him.

With this Namjoon left and I on the other side of the door was screaming internally and blushing hard at his high level thoughts. Looks like IQ 148 brain works like this. Honestly I'm a big pervert so I imagined things that is why I was screaming. I need to bathe in holy water asap. God! Today was filled with many surprises. Can't believe so many things happened in just one day. But I'm grateful towards Namjoon for being understanding.

AUTHOR'S NOTE:
Her thoughts are somewhat relatable right?
I know you guys well! 😆