CHAPTER 35- Hosptial

Demi's POV

It's been weeks since I've seen Nicko. Every Saturday my mom drops her off at his house and picks her up. Ever since the day he kissed me I can't see him because I know if he asked me to come back to him I would be running back into his arms in a heartbeat. Slowly but surely, the pain was ending and now it was replaced by loneliness. Instead of being angry with him I longed for him, his touch alone could probably make me melt. My phone began to ring and I saw it was my mom.

"Hey."

"Hey Dems! Look I can't pick Mia up today, I have a doctor's appointment."

I sighed, knowing this day would come. "Alright, it's okay I'll go."

"Okay baby, I'll see you tomorrow."

I hung up and buried my head into my hands. The time was 6:30, which meant I needed to start heading over to Nicko's. I was barely paying attention so it was a good thing the route was so familiar. I pulled through the gates and walked up to the door, mentally preparing myself to see Nicko. Surprisingly, he didn't answer the door when I knocked. After about five minutes, I used my key and walked through the house. I found him laying down shirtless on the bed sleeping with Mia beside him. The sight made me want to curl up into a ball and cry, I wanted to lay down beside him and whisper that I was his and that nothing could change that.

But I would be lying.

"Nicko." I sat on the edge of the huge bed a few feet away from him and touched his shoulder. He wrinkled his nose and turned over, automatically reaching for me in his sleep. His arm wrapped around my waist and pulled me down, snuggling into the crook of my neck.

"Go to sleep baby." He muttered, and I knew he was dreaming. Hesitantly, I relaxed in his arms, and closed my eyes a bit, it felt so good to be held by him again, and despite my better judgement, I drifted off to sleep.

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I was awaken by Mia crying out and Nicko stirred next to me. I looked around blearily and he stared up at me.

"Hi?"

I blinked a few times, "Hey, i'm sorry I knocked a few times and you didn't answer so I used my key and you just pulled me down so I accidentally fell asleep." I explained, calming Mia down by pulling her into my arms.

"Oh." He sounded somewhat disappointed and I stood up.

"I should get going, it's late and now she'll be up all night."

He stood with me and I kept my eyes on his face rather than his well defined body, "I'll walk you out."

At the door, I handed Mia to him to say goodbye and had to look away as he kissed her forehead and spoke in an adorable voice to her.

"I was thinking." I murmured, as he gave her back to me. "Maybe next week she can stay the night."

Nicko's face broke out into a big smile and he nodded eagerly, "I'd like that a lot actually."

I nodded and stood there awkwardly for a second before he leaned in and kissed me on the cheek, letting his lips linger on my skin as he spoke softly.

"I know you're probably done with hearing this, but I love you and i'm sorry." He pulled away and I could feel the tears forming in my eyes as I nodded and walked out of the house back to my car.

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I threw my phone onto the bed in disgust as another article talking about me "finding another boy toy" and that I went on a date last night. It's all bullshit, last night I stayed on the couch cuddling with Mia. My phone buzzed and an unknown number popped up on my screen.

"Hello?"

"This is Los Angeles Hospital, may I speak with Demi Lovato?"

I sat up, "This is she."

"We have Nicko Baker here and you're the only name and number that is one his medical history sheet. He's asking for you."

I felt my blood run cold, "What happened?"

"Alcohol poisoning. He called an ambulance for himself and had to get his stomach pumped."

I locked my jaw, "Right, I'll be there soon."

I hung up and walked downstairs to where my mom was playing with Mia.

"Nicko's in the hospital, I have to go make sure he's okay. Will you watch her for a bit?" My mom nodded, obviously alarmed as I walked out the door.

I walked into the hospital with steel in my eyes. I was pissed at him, I break up with him because of his drinking and he has the nerve to call me to come when he's landed himself in the hospital for it?

"Nicko Baker." I retorted to the receptionist, and she typed into the computer.

"Room 374, third floor."

I flashed a smile, "Thank you."

The second I stepped into Nicko's room, all of the anger drained out of me. Nicko was sitting up, his head in his hands, crying hysterically.

"Nicko." I whispered, and rushed over, pulling him into a hug. He let out a sob and grabbed my tightly, holding onto me like a lifeline. "Shhh Nik, calm down. I need you to breath for me." I whispered, running my fingers through his thick hair. Slowly, he began to breathe in and out, eventually his hysterics reduced to just tears.

"Talk to me baby." The words slipped out of my mouth without thought but I didn't regret them.

"It.. It started with the article." He choked out and I leaned my forehead against his.

"Nicko that article wasn't true. I didn't leave my house that night."

He took a shuddering breath, "I started drinking, there wasn't any point anymore. Then I got a call..." He broke off again and I squeezed his hand to help him continue. "My dad's dead."

I gasped and pulled him into my arms again, "Nicko I'm so sorry."

He sighed, "I know it's weird i'm so crushed by it because we didn't have a good relationship but he was still my dad you know?"

I nodded and intertwined our fingers, "I'm so sorry."

He shook his head, "I just kept drinking, I felt like I was going to die so I called the ambulance. I'm sorry for calling you I just didn't have anyone else. I half didn't expect you to even come."

I leaned my forehead against his, "I'll always be here for you. I don't hate you Nicko. I just... I can't be with you."

He nodded, "I understand."

I bit my lip, "Do you know any of the funeral arrangements?"

Nicko sighed, "I have to go to New York for a little bit, I'm leaving in two days. I have to make sure my mom is okay. As much as he hurt her, she still loved him."

I smiled, "I know the feeling." Nicko looked up at me with a sad expression and I immediately regretted my words. "Well what time do we leave?"

He gaped at me, "What? Demi you have Mia and we-"

"You honestly think I'm going to let you do this alone?"

He looked down, "I didn't think you cared."

I raised his chin with my fingertips, "Do you honestly think that low of me?"

He shook his head, "No, I think that low of myself."

I found myself glancing at his full lips, my entire body practically begging me to lean in and just fall back with him. Nicko sat up a bit and moved in closer, sliding his hand up to hold my neck.

"Just say the word and I'll stop." He murmured, so close our noses were touching. I closed my eyes, trying to figure out the war between my heart and my head.

"Stop."

He froze, and slowly pulled back with a tortured expression.

"Okay, I understand."

I shook my head and leaned my forehead into his shoulder, "I'm just... I'm not ready yet."

He hugged me tightly, "I'll be waiting."

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