I had a sparkling.

Now she is having a sparkling. Two actually.

And I'm happy.

I'm a grandparent now. Time flies faster then usual and now I see how long I have lived.

Also from what I can tell I'll be watching the next generations keep growing..and also keep leaving.

See that's what my brother and I were trying to avoid.

Our sparks last longer then anyone so we can live up for what seems like forever.

But if we make a family just like I have...

We'll have no other choice but to watch as our loved ones pass and new ones born. While we stay alive and hope one day for our time to come soon. To be able to see that one we first loved and always will love.

That's what my brother fears and refuses to create a family of his own. He can still love but due to obvious reasons. (Size and life cycle) he fears he'll lose his "maiden"

I'm rambling.

The point is, I have finally gotten to the point were I feel old. I think every parent goes through that stage.....

But it feels strange to me.