9:23AM

It's almost 2 months since I finished YHSMD and no update since then to any of my aligned stories.

This is so not me. For fuck's sake,  50 days and no UD?! The hell?!

A lot of things happened. I was pretty busy at work due to the year end 2018 and the kick off for 2019. Of course, there was the holidays. We had death in the family. And to those who have followed me in socmed, you knew I got terribly sick after Christmas 2018... and I haven't returned to work until now. Yup, I still haven't obtained my medical clearance.

It's getting all frustrating every passing day. And I hate it when I couldn't hold my tears especially in public places like a hospital. I just couldn't contain everything inside after I left the doctor's office. I felt like shit last night sobbing quietly in the hospital parking lot while running down names in my phonebook and messenger list... looking for someone to talk to to pour my heart out.

Frustrating the situation maybe, I was glad I got to talk to my immediate supervisor who told me to chill and rest. Yep, she isn't used  that I crack. I'm known as the one with strong character at work. I can joke around, and argue with our company site director and VP.

And I was glad I got to talk to PK who kept on calling me to make sure I wouldn't wander around last night and kept saying, "Go home, I'll wait for you." 

And yeah, he was there with ready lap for me to sit on, with open arms to wrap me in a warm embrace as I cry on his neck and shoulder, then use his shirt to wipe my snot with.

Now, I'm back at the hospital OPD, getting a third doctor for medical advice. Been sitting here waiting for my name to be called for almost 2 hrs now. Damn it! Why are there so many sick people? Why do illnesses even exist?

I want to go back to writing...the only escape I have for all the bullshits I've been having the past couple of months. It seems that 24 hours a day is too short. I need to rest as I easily get tired and sleepy these past few weeks. 

It frustrates the shit out of me. There are so many stories I want to share. It pains me that all ideas are just running in my mind.

Please, more time... please!

--- Ako si Ryonamiko

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> Dyosa ni PK

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