Since Christmas was yesterday i decided i  am going to make this one extra long just for you people's as my gift to you!

*(Y/N)'s P.O.V*

It was warm, like a blanket had been draped over me and yet i felt like i was floating in mid air. There was no ground left to support me and no air for me to breathe, i felt at peace like nothing could harm me now. As i opened my eyes i was met with a darkness  so familiar, it was scary at all...it was comforting like i'd been here before "(Y/N)" someone chanted "who's there?" i asked though i didn't open my mouth. "it's me (Y/N)...it's your krssshh!"the end of the person's sentece was like static, for some reason my mind wasn't allowing me to listen. As if the truth would hurt me in some way, it was so dark like if i put my hands centimetres away from my face i wouldn't be able to see it.

Whoever this person was i can't remember, or more like i'm not allowed to remember suddenly the intense darkness changed so i saw flashes. I was in a white room. Darkness. The were people running around frantically. Darkness. "you're going to be okay?". Darkness. Someone was filling a syring with a strange green liquid. Darkness. The green fluid was injected into me. Darkness. I was being held down as i thrashed around in pain. Darkness. And then suddenly...nothing, there was nothing after that i-...i can't remember.

The thought of losing everything, my childhood, all knowledge of my family and friends. The fact that i'm hurting everyone just because there's some kind of block on my mind stopping me from remembering, it was all to scary. I was to remember, i want to know what my parents faces look like, i want to know if i have any siblings, i want to know if i have a crush or if i was ever bullied at school. All these things...and yet for some reason i wasn't allowed too, why did it have to be me? Why was i the one who wasn't allowed ot remember my life? Why was i the one not allowed to have anything? All these thoughts swim around in my head everyday, my head always aches when i try to remember and i always try to remember no matter how much it hurts because i deserve too don't i?

As i opened my eyes for real this time, the ceiling of my room greeted me the warmth was indeed a blanket and no one else appeared to be in the room but i could faintly hear people talking downstairs. Lifting the covers off i sat up in the bed holding my aching head (that rhymed!...nevermind XD so did that but i'll just shut up now) i swung my legs over the side and hopped off of my comfy friend.

Stepping out into the hall, my bare feet made no noise as i walked towards the living room where i heard them discussing, hiding behind the wall i listened intently "...'s all well but she's remembering, i fear that when she does it will hurt her" Kaien's voice sounded "i realize that, that's why she must discover these things on her own, we must not tell her anything" Kaname said "but sooner or later she will discover things like how the head of the vampire hunters association used her as a weapon" my eyes widened at this "or how she's the Guardian" i furrowed my brows in confusion 'Guardian?' i thought to myself.

Stepping out form behind the wall i cleared my throat getting their attention "oh (Y/N)!" Kaien jumped "hi" i mumbled "how are you feeling?" Kaname asked sending me worried vibes "i'm fine, my head hurts a little but i'm good" i replied "that's good, you scared us when you passed out" he smiled softly. The smile was so familiar almost like i'd seen it in a dream...a dream so far away stumbling backwards i pressed a hand to my head "i love you..." these words echoed in my head. Multiple arms wrapped around me to keep me steady, who is it? Who is this person that says they love me, the voice is so familiar, so nostalgic.

The pain in my head faded and i stood myself upright gently pushing the arms away "i'm fine, thank you" i whispered as they backed away aware of how i was uncomfortable with them touching me since they were still strangers. I rubbed my arm self conscious as their gaze never left my frame "um...do any of you know where Yuki is?" i asked "she's in her room" Zero sighed he leaned against the wall in the corner glawring down at his feet. Nodding in thanks i ran off and up the stairs in said direction.

I stood in front of the white door, admiring the gold paint that decorating the edges, bringing my hand up i knocked on the door 3 times before standing back awaiting her. Yuki opened up surprised at my presence "(Y/N)! Come on in" she said stepping aside and opening the door wider for me. Walking inside i noticed the rooms appearence was much like mine, the head of the large bed to pushed up against the right wall so if Yuki was laying on her leftside then she would be facing the door. The dressing table was against the right wall, a pink carpet lay on the floor though mine was (F/C) instead of pink they were in the same position.

On the right handside of the dressin table were two doors, smaller then the door to Yuki's room but that's where the closet is, as mine is in the same place. On the left is the door to the bathroom, everything else were things Yuki put in herself, posters and such. I walked towards the bed and sat on the edge "was there something you wanted to talk about?" she asked taking a seat next to me "it's just...i'm so confused, i feel like i know you, all of you but for some reason i can't find you in my memory. It's all blank like a notepad, there are small pieces being filled in on random pages yet there is nothing solid yet, and then there are pages of nothing, it's all blank...completely blank" i spoke not bothering to think first.

Yuki seemed shocked at my deep words "wow um...well all you can do is wait i suppose, eventually your notepad will be filled and all you have to do is find another one and write somemore...make some new memories" she shrugged trying to word it as best she could. Yuki rested her hand on my shoulder "there's a lot of time for you to remember okay? And we'll be here to help you every step of the way" she smiled. Thanking her i stood walking out of her room, i'm glad that i got it off my chest i would've goen to Rima but i'm not sure she wouldn't known what to say...in fact i'm not sure she ever knows what to say...

Before i could make it back to my room i had bumped into someone, bending forward at the waist in  abow i apologized "don't say your sorry, it's my fault" a familiar tsundere voice sighed. Looking up my eyes met with lilac orbs "Zero" i greeted, he nodded "how are you?" he asked looking to the side as a faint blush coated his cheeks "i'm...good?" i stated though it seemed to be more of a question then anything else. Zero sighed once again ruffling his silver locks "look (Y/N) i know this might not mean much since i'm practically a stranger to you but...i- nevermind" he cut himself off "wait...what is it?" i asked before he could leave.

Balling his hands into fists Zero ran forward quickly wrapping his arms around my shoulder in a hug, going rigid from shock and the sudden physical contact i blinked blankly. Zero only tightened his grip letting out shaky breaths almost as if he was going to cry "i'm sorry...can we stay like this a little longer?" he asked. Though somewhat uncomfortable i wrapped my arms around his torso and closed my eyes allowing myself to fall into his embrace.

I realize now...the warmth i had felt when i woke up, it wasn't a blanket...no far from it, it was a hug...no, it was more then that. It was a lot of hugs from people my heart recognized yet my mind did not. But who was it that hugged me? Or they? It must've been more then one person...or was it...everyone? Either way, it was nice, hugging someone who actually seemed to care for me i just hope i'll get to experience that warmth when i'm awake next time and i hope that maybe, just maybe i won't feel so alone anymore.