Nobody notices your pain,

but they notice your mistakes.

Chapter Playlist: Walking The Wire by Imagine Dragons | Paralyzed by NF
 

-1 week later-

Jason honestly thought that this Justin kid was quite fascinating. They way he did certain things was what made him so interesting. Surprisingly, he hadn't tried to escape again. He was glad he didn't because he was getting tired of people not listening. His thoughts were interrupted from the sound of music filling his ears.

The vibes that came off of him went from calm to irritated. He hated the happy music that was playing throughout the house. He stood up from his desk chair and walked out of his room, following the sound. The voices were muffled from where he was on the second floor. The noise got louder, however, as he got closer to the steps.

He was halfway through walking down the spiral stairwell when the lyrics became clear but not too loud. He listened closely to the song and his annoyance rose higher on his scale.

"Oh, I'll take your hand when thunder roars. And I'll hold you close, I'll stay the course. I promise you from up above. That we'll take what comes, take what comes, love. We're walking the wire, love. We're walking the wire, love. We're gonna be higher, up. We're walking the wire, wire, wire."

He finished the the adventure and stood at the bottom of the staircase. The clash of a spatula against a pan caused him to turn his head towards the kitchen. What he found amused him very much. Justin was going around the kitchen while dancing with a spatula in hand. Jason gaped as he sung along to the song.

"So look out down below. Look out down below. Look out down below. Walking the wire, wire, wire. So look out down below. We're walking the wire. We're walking the wire. We're walking the wire, wire, wire."

The song came to a stop and Justin slowed his dancing to a half so he could flip a grilled cheese sandwich. The bipolar side of Jason kicked in as he was done being amused. His legs started moving towards his phone as his brain told them go and he himself told them to stop. The phone happened to be open to YouTube so he picked it up and started typing a song into the search bar. He tapped the second video and set his phone down on the island a little to harshly. Justin jumped and immediately spun around.

A shaky breath left his mouth as he saw Jason standing there. "You can't scare me like...," he trailed off as the song began.

Jason's mind sang along to the song he always listened to when he twenty-one, right after his only cousin died. He was Jason's literal best friend after his dad had died.

"When did I become so numb? When did I lose myself? All the words that leave my tongue, feel like they came from someone else. I'm paralyzed. Where are my feelings? I no longer feel things, I know I should. I'm paralyzed. Where is the real me? I'm lost and it kills me inside. I'm paralyzed.

When did I become so cold? When did I become ashamed? (oh) Where's the person that I know? They must have left. They must have left. With all my faith. I'm paralyzed. Where are my feelings?I no longer feel things, I know I should. I'm paralyzed. Where is the real me? I'm lost and it kills me inside. I'm paralyzed.

I'm paralyzed. I'm scared to live but I'm scared to die. And if life is pain then I buried mine a long time ago. But it's still alive. And it's taking over me where am I? I wanna feel something, I'm numb inside. But I feel nothing, I wonder why. And on the race of life time passes by. Look. I sit back and I watch it, hands in my pockets. Waves come crashing over me but I just watch 'em. I just watch 'em. I'm under water but I feel like I'm on top of it. I'm at the bottom and I don't know what the problem is. I'm in a box, but I'm the one who locked me in. Suffocating and I'm running out of oxygen.

I'm paralyzed. Where are my feelings? I no longer feel things, I know I should. I'm paralyzed. Where is the real me? I'm lost and it kills me inside. I'm paralyzed (I'm just so paralyzed). Where are my feelings? (yeah, I'm just so paralyzed). I no longer feel things (I have no feelings). I know I should (oh how come I'm not moving why aren't I moving ay yeah). I'm paralyzed. Where is the real me? (where is the real me, where is the real me?) I'm lost and it kills me inside (I'm paralyzed, I'm paralyzed). I'm paralyzed (I'm paralyzed)"

Justin was listening to the song intently, furrowing his eyebrows every now and then. Jason studied him as his tongue stuck out of the corner of his mouth in an adorable way. Wait what? Jason shook his head softly and Justin looked up at him as the song finished.

"This song was probably the most relatable song I've heard."

Jason nodded his head his in agreement and sat down on the stool in front of the breakfast nook.

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Jason felt a presence sit next to him on the couch as he unlocked his phone and tapped on my contacts. It took a few rings for them to answer.

"Hello?" a raspy male voice said through the phone.

"Hello," Jason greeted and glanced at Justin who sat next to him. He made a motion to tell him it was a private phone call so he stood up and started walking up the steps.

"Is that you Jason?" Jason's uncle asked through the phone.

"Yes."

An intake of breath was what he heard before he began talking.

"Why'd you do it Jason?"

Jason sighed angrily at the question. "You already know the answer," he muttered as he gripped onto his knee with his free hand, knuckles whitening.

"A whole party Jason, a whole house of innocent kids."

"Nobody is innocent, Alexander!" He shouted as he stood up and knocked the coffee table over, breaking it's contents in the process.

"Do not shout at me!" he shouted back. "I get it, it hurts! But that doesn't give you the right to take innocent lives! You are so lucky I love you enough to not tell the cops where you are."

Jason got even angrier and ender the call abruptly. He growled loudly and whipped his phone at the floor, smashing it into pieces. "Shit!"

He heard Justin's light footsteps coming towards him. He turned around and saw him with a concerned look on his face.

"Is everything alright?" He questioned.

He hummed a 'yes' and put a fake smile on his face.

Justin's brown eyes went from his phone on the ground back to him and he then raised his eyebrow. "Are you sure?"

Jason nodded his head. "Yeah, I just...saw a spider on my phone."

What kind of excuse was that? His mind asks.

I have no idea, he reply to it.

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It's not the best but here ya'll go!

Imma watch Michigan vs Villanova or play COD WW2.

Love ya <3

-Lilly