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His mother's words tore through my mind, the truth she tried speaking tossed inside,

'' You chose to forget about Draco,''

'' You loved him, Leiah,''

'' The two of you were meant for each other,''

'' But you wanted to let him and the love you shared go,''

There was no way, no possible way for me to love him, for me to be in love with such a heartless, vile boy. Nothing made sense to me anymore, not him, not her, not even myself,

I hated Draco Malfoy. He did everything possible for me to despise him, and then I'm supposed to believe that I had fallen in love with him? That he was the reason I managed to keep going after Luna passed away?

Never.

I flung around in my bed, the clock ticked far past midnight, and even if I was tired enough to fall asleep there and then, my mind didn't give me the release I needed. All I could think of was him —, Draco and why, if the impossible were to be correct,

Why would I ever have chosen to forget about him, to forget about us,

The stone-covered floor scored cold underneath my bare feet as I sneaked my way through the hallway, halting right outside of his room, the room I've supposedly slept in for months, the door stood open, not much but the gap broadly enough for the lights still turned on to shine light across the darkened hall,

'' Draco?'' I whispered, my fingers gripped around the wood, pushing it open even further, '' Draco, are you awake?'' My eyes grew wide at the look of him, resting in his bed with nothing but the sheets covering him, a book glued to his hand as blue eyes snapped to mine, standing startled in the doorway to his room,

'' What brings you here?'' He questioned, flopping the book over the covers before propping himself up, leaning against the headboard,

'' Did you lose your ability to speak?'' He snarled, annoyed with the shocked look on my features,

I shook my head, swallowing thickly as I tried to hide behind the door, still in nothing but my night robe, '' I—,''

'' As you may know by now, I've—,'' He pointed towards me, eyes fleeing over my bare thighs, '' That's nothing I haven't seen before,'' - a smirk curled over his lips, his exposed chest slightly rising and falling beneath the green fabric,

I felt the embarrassment chewing within, the truth that he remembers everything, every detail of what we've been through, and I stand more than clueless across from him, breathless to his act, '' This was a mistake—,'' I choked on my own spit, my tongue tangled on my words as I turned around, walking away from him,

My hands rushing through my hair in defeat, of course, he'd do this, of course, he would mock me, taunt me for doing what I did — he made everything worse, the feeling of wanting to remember, fled my mind the second his arrogant self stared me down,

I flinched, my entire body coiled by the cold arms wrapping around my waist, pulling my back into his chest, '' You walked out on me once, darling,'' His breaths fanned the back of my neck, iced fingers digging into my flesh, '' I'm never allowing you to do so again,'' - with that, he dipped down, his arms pinched around my thighs and back as he lifted me, carrying me back to his room,

'' Draco, don't—,'' I tried to speak, but he hushed me down, tilting his head to the doors in the corridor, '' We don't want to wake Blaise and mother up, do we?'' He mumbled, looking concernedly proud of what he just accomplished, that he got me, once again, wrapped around his little finger,

He let me down right inside of his door, closing it shut behind us, '' I shouldn't be here, it's—,''

'' But something brought you here, didn't it?'' He bites back, towering over me as my eyes leveled his bare chest, the toned muscles flexing of the heavy breathing, the porcelain skin paler than ever — his skin looked beaten, his body thin, and even if it shouldn't, the look of him, his worn figure, caused my heart to ache,

My eyes flickered up to his, eyelashes battling, '' It did, but it's not—,'' I chewed my lower lip in hesitation, making his eyes to roll impatiently, '' I wanted to ask you something,'' Blue eyes narrowed in mine, jaws slightly tensing as he stood close,

'' Go ahead,''

I felt my fingers twitch, nails boring into my palms as he eyed me down, holding tall in front of me, '' Is it true, what your mother said, that we—,'' I cleared my throat, still unsure to if I should be talking to him about this, because if this was how Narcissa described it to be — he was suffering, he had to be in so much pain for being this close to me, yet so far away, he loved me, and I disappeared from his life, just like that.

He walked into me on the stairs yesterday, hopeful to see me again, excited to have me back, only to find out that I failed him, that I let him go, without giving him the chance to explain it,

'' Do I love you, Draco?''

The tensed look fell, his shoulders sunken, the bravery in his eyes burned out,

Silence, complete silence except for the heavy breaths between us. He looked at me like he'd seen someone that he hadn't met in years, a glimpse of hope sparked within the ashen skin, '' I like to believe that you did,'' He tore the blue eyes away, taking steps back,

'' I hope you did,''

'' I hope you still do,'' Draco mumbled underneath his breath, sending me the guiltiest of glares, '' I did something horrible, Leiah,'' He shook his head, blonde strands of hair fell over his eyebrows as his spine rested against the wall,

I didn't know what to say, what to do, even how to breathe at this point. The reality of this was clouding; the fact that these words are spoken by the boy I believed to hate was too much, but even then — my blood flushed, the need of knowing more triggered within,

'' Do you love me?'' I whispered, seeking for him to look at me, '' I mean, did you love me?'' His eyes snapped to mine without delay, his back forced off the wall as he quickly stepped back up to me, holding only inches away — the blue hues lightly prickled in tears,

His eyes,

I fell lost in them, without hesitancy,

'' I did, and I still do,''

I felt my jaw shaking, my insides bending, the sinking feeling washed heavily over me, nearly flinching by the cold hand brushing against my cheek, '' You don't remember this now, but we...''

Draco sighed, the air around us thickened as he cupped my cheek, letting my head rest in his hold, '' We had something—, something I can't even begin to explain, but we will get it back, no matter what it takes. I can't lose you,''

''I promise you that,''

I wanted to think about all of this as lies, but this, right here — was the most honest, most sincere I had ever seen Draco act with me, he loves me, and he will do anything to get me back, '' Why?'' I asked again, my words left in stutters, '' Why did I do this, Draco? If I loved you so much, why would I ever take you away?''

His eyes bored through mine, his breaths slightly hitched at my question, he shifted uncomfortably, nearly frightened to tell me why — why I gave up on something that seemed so pure, so raw, so real,

'' I hurt you.'' He pulled his touch away, running his ring-covered fingers through his hair, '' I did something that I regret deeply to this day, but I did what I did, for you,'' The miny breaths tasted more than sweet on my lips, the hoarse vocals broke, '' I was stupid, foolish to do what I did and if I—,''

'' If I ever had the chance to do it differently - I would've,''

My heart shattered at his regret, at the eyes flashing in hurt, the voice splitting in torture, '' Do you want this again, Draco?'' I breathed out, paralyzed in his embrace, blood whirling in my ears, the sound of a mighty ocean swirled, '' Your mother thinks she has a way to fix this—, to fix me,''

The soaring look turned confused, brows furrowed, '' What?'' He looked stunned, surprised to what I'd told him, yet a feeling of relief fluttered around us,

I nodded at his words, my feet striving closer, '' Do you want her too? I mean—, if you had the chance of having me back, would you want that?''

'' Would you want me?'' - without a second thought, his hands flew to my neck, bending it back to look at me, his eyes studying every inch of my features,

" There is nothing I'd want more—,'' His nose brushed against mine, the feeling of longing caved my bones — even if I had erased him from my mind, it was as if my body still needed him, craving him,

My eyes fluttered close, so did his, and in a heartbeat between the both of us, our lips collided in the most magical of ways,

'' You're mine,'' Draco breathed into my parted lips, his tongue battling mine, '' You're fucking mine, and you will come back to me—,'' The cold hands moved down to my hips, pinching my thighs to pick me up,

'' You will always come back to me,''

Wrapping my legs around his waist as he slammed both of us into the wall, his lips still kissing mine, my hands held all tangled into his hair, '' I'm right here,'' I whimpered out, pushing myself closer, holding onto him harder, '' I'm right here, Draco,"

"I want to be yours again,'' I could feel how his whole self flinched at my words, he pulled back, still having me pushed up against the wall,

'' What did you say?'' He asked, nearly breathless, eyes flickering all over, '' Say it again,'' His cheeks blushed, eyes softly locked in mine,

'' I need to hear you say that again,''

I blinked quickly, my lips swollen, my skin flushed as the courage grew within. Even if I didn't remember, this was it. This felt as if it was everything, and I needed him back. I needed the memory of us back,

'' I'm yours, Draco,''

That sent him over the edge. He craved more of me, he needed all of me, my back off the wall as he carried me to his bed, lips still plastered to each other. Draco sat down, with me straddling his lap, his hands ripping the night robe off — the feeling of his skin brushing against mine, was more breathtaking, merely to if my skin was made for his, the way he touched me,

The way his hands slipped around me, longing for me — he hadn't touched me in months, and it was drowning him, from the inside out. I could feel how much he'd missed me with one single touch, how eager he was to taste me, to have his arms wrapped around me,

'' I missed you—,'' He groaned, hands moving down to my lower back as he grasped my waist, urging for me to move my hips, grounding myself over his clothed thigh, '' I missed this—,'' He spoke again, fingers coarsely digging into my flesh, making my hips buck into his,

The coiling feeling of my heat, rubbing against his thigh made me moan straight into his divided lips, my hands sought their way to his shoulders as my nails scratched the exposed back, '' Draco—,'' I slurred, too consumed in the feeling of him, too distracted of how he pushed my hips back and forth, to even speak,

His chest pounded roughly, his skin heated by the pleasure to have me here, to have me back, '' Will you cum for me?'' He mumbled, tearing away from my lips, trailing wet, lively kisses down my jawline, over my neck. Draco's acts earned paths of soft moaning from the back of my throat, '' Fuck —, I've missed those sounds,'' His hand seeking to cup my cheek as eyes rolled back, my nerves on the edge of ecstasy,

Draco tended back, blue eyes searched for mine — he stared deeply, smirking at the view of me almost reaching my high on his leg, of me rocking myself over him, grasping at his hair, of my body being on complete edge for his — another hushed moan escaped my lips, feeling his ring-coated thumb dragging my lower lip down, '' Never hush yourself, darling—,"

" You're mine, and I want to hear every single sound leaving those lips,''

The way he spoke to me, in that demanding yet gentle voice, made my insides twist, my back arched to be closer to him as he started to move his thigh, '' Now cum for me, darling,''

My eyes squeezed shut, my hips kept rolling on top of his, sensing the fabric of his sweatpants stroking against my clit, my underwear soaked, and I couldn't take it anymore. The feeling of this, the taste of him, was more than I could handle, '' Draco—, I'm—,''

My head thrown back, my eyes rolling to the back of my head as I breathed heavily, feeling him pushing himself closer, his hands sheathed around my hips, helping me rock my way through the orgasm shredding throughout my every vessel, '' There she is, there's my good girl,'' He grunted into my skin, holding onto me as I shook in pleasure,

'' Always such a good girl for me,''

I felt myself swallow, collecting myself after the breathtaking peak I just reached, meeting his eyes for a slight second before he pushed us up, flinging me around till my spine collided roughly with the mattress, silky covers shrugged gently against my skin. '' Will you stay here tonight?''

Draco's chest heaved heavy against mine, his hands tangled up in my hair and the feeling of hesitation flooded over me, '' Please, stay here tonight — I just got you back,'' The minty breaths sweet, the soft, longing look in those enchanting blue eyes, the charming blonde strands of his hair completely messy over his forehead, and I was trapped,

Even if I had no recollection of the love I've held for him, he took my breath away, and I was his, no matter what, '' I'll stay,'' The shyly smile arching on his lips made me more than soft as my heart ached at the thought of it. We need to fix this,

I need to remember.

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The second I clocked my eyes open, the boy, who's arms I fell asleep in last night, was gone, nowhere to be found in his room. I tossed around in the emerald sheets, feeling the strokes of sun tickle my eyelashes, my skin soft against the covers as my mind fluttered back to last night, to the words the blonde boy had spoken, to the way he made me feel — I felt a shy smile tickle my lips by the thought of it, that I loved him, that somewhere deep inside there were memories of him and me,

'' Oh—,'' I heard a dark, raspy voice stutter as I cringed, nearly flying off the mattress, tugging a sheet around my almost exposed body, '' I didn't. I thought that Malfoy—,'' Blaise mumbled, scratching the back of his head in embarrassment as he looked at me, standing ashamed and startled in front of him, with nothing other than Draco's sheets covering me,

My eyes grew wide, my arms wrapped around to hug my almost bare self further, '' Blaise, what are you—,''

'' Fucking hell, Blaise—,'' Draco shouted from down the hall, severe, sharp steps sounded closer before he gripped the back of his best friends collar, hauling him back out the door, '' Didn't I tell you not to go in here,'' Draco pushed himself in front of Blaise, blocking his every chance to get a glance at me,

'' Draco, it's not—,'' I breathed out as I stumbled closer, looking around me to find the night robe he ripped me off last night, '' It's not like that, you should know that by now,'' Draco flung around, blue eyes bored through mine as he stepped closer, towering over my startled self. He was intimidating, yet gentle,

'' I know exactly what it is and isn't like, but this—,'' He held, rolling his tongue over his bottom lip, gesturing to my trembling body, '' All of this, is mine and I don't appreciate when others get to look at the things, that is mine," His words caused me to suck in a harsh breath, still not used to him claiming me, still in the loss of my own memories,

His heated breaths fanned my skin as I chewed on my bottom lip, making his eyes flicker down to watch it, '' The things you do to me, Riddle—,'' He mocked, his cold hand moving up to cup my chin, stroking his thumb across my bottom lip, '' You're—,''

'' Breathtaking,'' Draco's features slightly fell, the corner of his mouth twitching, " Mother wants us downstairs, she has matters to discuss,''

I lightly nodded at his words, feeling my nerves twist, my breaths ragged — I knew exactly what she wished to tell us,

How to break the spell that held my mind in chains,

And the cruelty that comes with it.

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