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" Is this what you want?"

His eyes flickered all over my exposed body, breathing in every detail and every flaw possible before they snapped up to satisfy mine again, '' Is this what you want, Draco?''

'' Do you want me?''

He stood as frozen, not moving a muscle, '' Fucking perfect,'' He breathed out, before taking long, dangerous strides up to me, '' Absolutely perfect,'' He whispered again, underneath his breath. The tall body in front of mine pushed us both back, making my back slamming into the wall, and the blonde-boy wasted no time, his hands moved wild, exploring every inch of my bare skin with his cold fingers — paths of goosebumps shivered down my back as he went, '' I changed my mind—,''

My eyes locked in his, the minty breath tasted sweet on my lips as he held close, noses brushing against each other, '' I do fucking hate you,''

Draco's words caused the longing feeling between my legs to ache, to starve for his touch. His head dipped down, his lips roughly tasting the tender skin of my neck, kissing, sucking, biting his way down my chest, my fingers tangled into his hair, tugging the blonde strands of hair back, '' Good because I hate you more—,''

I did. I hated Draco Malfoy more than anyone else.

I felt him smirking at my words, his fingers moving down to pinch at my thighs, wanting me to jump onto him — and I do, without faltering.

He let me down on the top of my bed as he backed away, raising a brow at the truth in front of him, that I'm laying, wholly exposed for him to do whatever he pleases, '' Draco—,'' I breather out,

I was starving, hungry, eager for his touch. I wanted him, and I was more than impatient for the touch he brought, '' Draco, please—,''

'' What is it?'' He grinned, slowly licking his lips at the sight of me, '' Needy girl,''

A jolt of electricity shot throughout my nerves, my body almost flinching at the feeling as I clocked my eyes in his, '' Touch me,'' I sucked my bottom lip in between my teeth, knowing it would provoke him,

'' You want me to touch you?'' He mocked, slowly unbuttoning his shirt — my eyes grew wide with each button, the slow, gentle pace caused my breath to hitch, my hues fluttering down to watch the pale, porcelain skin,

'' Answer me,'' He charged, flinging his shirt to the floor as he towered over me — the toned muscles flexed against mine, '' I need words, Leiah. I need you to —,''

'' I want you to touch me, Draco,''

His lips inches away from mine as he pulled away, hands gripped my thighs before placing them over his shoulders,

The touch of his cold fingers digging coarsely into my warm flesh soaked me wet,

He kneels back, stroking his nose over my body as he goes — the touch he brought, the eager, hungry touch affected me too much,

With his head right in between my thighs, he lets out a peel of dark laughter, '' I have you right where you're supposed to be, don't I? Needy girl.''

My back arched in pleasure the instant his lips kissed my inner thighs, teeth scratching my sensitive skin, '' So fucking perfect,'' Draco groaned, blue eyes bored through mine as his freezing hands shoved underneath the gap between my mattress and lower back, dragging me closer to the edge of my bed, — giving himself all of me, every inch of me is now, at this moment, his.

'' And so fucking wet,'' He hummed, leaving a kiss on my stomach, my fingers grasped at my covers, clenching hard around the soft fabric, '' You're only this wet for me, right?''

The demanding vocals made me wince, my toes curling as he lets his tongue out, slowly trailing it over my skin, over my chest, up my neck all the way to the sensitive spot behind my ear, breathing hard in it, '' Right?'' He snapped again, '' You only taste this good for me?''

I felt my legs squeezing together, my head nodding at this question as my hair spilled out over the sheets, '' Such a good girl, for me,'' He smirked, nibbling on my ear before finding his way down my neck, leaving small, purple marks,

I'm his now,

This was his way of showing me that no other by could ever touch me in the way he did,

That his touch was the one I shook violently for,

The one my body trembled beneath,

The one my skin melted for,

And I did. I craved him, in more way I even believed to be possible,

I wanted him in ways I never wanted anyone before,

Draco's hand traveled up to my throat, fingers gripping around it as the other hand sought to find mine, braiding our mixture of cold and warm fingers together, pinning them over my head,

I was lost in the pleasure, and he hadn't even touched me in the way I starved for — all I knew was that I needed him, the boy I hated, the boy who hated me, even more, was the boy I craved to the fullest,

The minty breaths bolting his lips turned hot, heavy — he needed me, he wanted me perhaps more than I wanted him, his touch turned rougher, more impatient, '' I need to feel you, now,'' He sighed, catching his breath as he once again kneeled back, '' Now—,''

My mind wandered as his fingers seized the buckle of his belt, tugging it open — the thoughts of him inside me, filling me up,

'' Cedri—,'' I moaned,

And the second I did, the instant I realized what I just had spoken — I suffered my breath,

The jolts of electricity pounding throughout my veins turned numb,

Fuck.

I squeezed my eyes shut, feeling his nails digging coarsely into my skin, ''What the fuck did you just say?'' He growled, inches away from my shocked features, '' Look at me,''

But I refused to, too startled, too scared of his temper to flay my eyes wide, '' I said — look at me, you pathetic whore,''

I was dead. I knew that because if this — I was doomed to him,

I peeled my eyes broad, feeling the raging breaths fanning my cheeks as he narrowed furious eyes in mine, '' I asked what the fuck you called me,''

I shook my head at his gritted teeth, the pure venom dripping off his tongue at his talks, '' Draco—,''

The cold hand burst around my throat, his fingers clenched to hurt me as I whimpered at the brutal touch, '' You're nothing more than a desperate, filthy mudblood,'' He spat at the panicking look of me before forcing himself off, grabbing his shirt off the floor and just as he was meant to slam the door shut — he turned in his marching, sending me the most deathliest of stares, '' Remember that—,''

I crawled back in my sheets, my heart broke as I came to mind of what I just had done,

He was gone, and the little piece of Draco Malfoy I was granted — I would never have again.

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I buried my hand in my palms as I caught his severe step storming into the library, avoiding every stare I felt burning into my skin — even if two days had passed since the night I was more than foolish,

I still couldn't find any strength in looking at him,

How would I ever face him after what I did,

The humiliation of what happened chewed my bones as I noticed how he was staying clear of me. He didn't mock me for what happened, Draco didn't tell his friends, he simply stayed away, and the feeling that what I did, the sense of me saying someone else names in the situation I did, made me think that I hurt him, more than he would ever let on,

The books slamming onto the table made me jolt back, '' Hello ladies—,'' Luna smiled, standing gracious in front of me, meeting the exhausted look on my face. My looks made her giggle, rolling her eyes as she slipped down to the seat next to mine, '' Or not—,'' She mocked my dense behavior,

My head dipped down to my book, rolling my eyes at her, feeling her hand gently stroking over my bent back, '' Are you still upset about you know—,'' Her vocals hushed as she leaned closer, '' Malfoy,''

'' Because that was days ago, Leiah—, you need to...''

'' Luna—,'' I snapped, my eyes bored through hers, '' Learn when to shut it, please—,'' My tells earned a laugh to flee Hermione's lips, her hand slapped over her mouth to muffle it, cheeks colored in red,

'' I will,'' She smiled, cheekily, shouldering me to the side, '' When you learn how to behave. What happened to your manners anyway—,''

'' Well, well, well —, what's so funny over here?'' The irritating, high pitch voice came from behind, causing both Luna's and Hermione's amused looks to fall into an annoyed one, '' You can hear that little laugh of yours from miles away—,''

Luna spun around in her seat, glaring the brown-haired girl down as she walked closer, '' What now, Pansy?'' Luna scoffed, raising a brow,

'' I asked — what's so funny over here, looney—,''

My palms slammed into the table as I flung around, facing the mean girl, '' What did you call her?''

'' She speaks,'' His voice tore my entire existence, shredding every bone caving. My eyes flickered to please him as he stormed closer with an evil smirk plastered to his lips,

I couldn't do this.

I couldn't face him, not after what I did.

I grabbed my book, forcing my chair back as I was about to leave, feeling the warm, little hand that always brought me comfort wrapping around my wrist, '' Please don't go,'' Luna uttered, knowing that this was more than I could handle yet she wanted me too.

She always wanted me to face the fears in my life. She wished for me to stand my ground to not bend my ways in the wish for others,

'' Yes, Leiah — please don't leave,'' He taunted me through sarcasm, halting only a foot away, '' We don't want our precious little princess to flee, right?'' His head turned to Pansy's, provoking a laugh to leave her lips,

I hated him. I hated him for doing this when she was here.

I tried to ignore him, to walk away from the scene I felt more than ashamed to be in, only waiting for his next move, '' I'll see you later, Luna—,'' I forced a smile, my eyes snapping to Hermione's to give her the same solace,

'' I heard you had a fun time the other day, isn't that right, Leiah?'' Pansy laughed, patting my back — I bolted around, staring the girl down, in complete disbelief to what she said, '' I didn't know that Cedric had it in him, to finally put you in place—,''

A gasp shakingly escaped my throat — This wasn't about Draco and me.

He didn't tell her, even if I thought that he did,

My mind swirled in question as I looked at him, meeting the blue eyes that always captured me before I eyed her down again; the blood rushing throughout my veins boiled at her mocking as I felt even more triggered at Draco's snickering behind her,

With a thick swallow, my books clenched to my chest, '' If you thought that was funny, why don't you ask your boyfriend what he did the other night instead?'' A shy smiled climbed my lips, and even if I spoke to Pansy, my eyes narrowed in Draco's, '' Or shouldn't—,''

His temper failed him as he pushed me back, my spine collided heavily with the table behind me, '' Shut your filthy mouth, right now,'' He cautions, teeth gritted,

I gawked at him, feeling the heated breath flaring — but he didn't say anything else, he merely pierced his eyes through mine, trying to find some truth in all the unknown, but I couldn't.

I refused too.

My strides past him, cut short by his hand forcing me back, '' Where the fuck—,'' He rose, sounding more than angry at my tries to walk away, his head shaking, making the blonde strands of hair fall over his temples, '' On your way to strip naked for someone else, perhaps?''

I shut my eyes closed, trying to breathe through the tears I felt urging. The color drained off my face, my heart slightly breaking within my own chest,

He can't do this.

I can't keep letting him do this to me.

My eyes flayed wide, the salty liquid glinting, '' So what if I am?'' I raised a brow, '' Don't tell me you're jealous, Malfoy?''

His hand flew to my cheek, icing rings scratching into my skin, '' Don't—,'' He sought to warn, but to no use — He made it clear that he didn't want me, even if everything he did, told me differently and the intrigued mind I lived to have,

I had to know.

Once and for all,

My sights grounded in his hold, whispering the words I was terrified off, '' Tell me not to, Draco,'' - only for him to hear, still feeling the curious stares around us. Still, nothing mattered, no matter how much he'd hurt me, if he chose the right words, if he decided to be honest and speak the mind, I knew he held for me. I would forgive everything, without question.

Draco's body pressed against mine before he shoed back, the cold surface fell into a soft, guilty one, '' I had you, but gladly — I walked away,''

My heart broke.

My breaths stuck in my throat as I nodded, pushing myself off the table,

I knew that what I was about to say, that the words leaving my lips would hurt him, but I had to do it,

Because he didn't want me — I turned in my steps, walking out of the library, smirking devilishly through my pain,

'' Then I will tell Cedric that you said hi—,''

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