"Get down on your knees, right now—,''

He slowly freed the tight hold of my body, and I force myself off him in a heartbeat, sensing my blood boil within,

He played me,

I flung around, facing his stare filled with desire, his entire body longed for mine, '' What did you say?'' I spoke, my fingers brushing through my hair, taking tender steps back to him, pushing my body against his,

'' Do you want me to get on my knees for you?'' I mocked him, my thumb moving to drag his lower lip down,

My sudden doings caused his breaths to hitch, jaws clenched as his eyes gawked into mine,

'' Do you want me to feel you, Draco?'' I battled my eyelashes at him, slightly pouting, '' Do you want me to taste you?''

He swallowed thickly, his breaths ragged by my behavior, '' Y — Yes,'' He stumbled on his tongue as the air around us throbbed in starving, '' I want you to taste me, darling,''

I rose a brow, placing both hands on his chest as I leaned into him, lightly brushing my lips against his, ''Do you want this, Draco?''

Slowly stroked my fingers over his torso, down to his pants as I began unbuckling his belt, '' Do you want me?''

My figure is close to his, fingers battling with his belt as his hands wrapped around my lower back, the touch filled with passion,

'' Say it, Draco,''

I whispered into his parted lips, pulling his belt wide,

'' I need you to tell me how much you want me,''

Draco's hands pushed me ultimately into him, our lips collided, '' Fuck, I want you—,'' He growled, '' I want you so fucking bad,''

But he quickly stops as he realized that I wasn't kissing him back, tending back as he held a shocked look, '' What are you—,''

'' Then it's too bad that I'm not yours to have, Draco,'' I smirked, chewing my bottom lip — his face shifted in anger, his veins popped out as he forced himself past me,

'' You're going to regret this, Riddle, you foul—,''

'' No, there's where you're wrong, darling,'' I chuckled, my hand tensed around the doorknob,

'' I won't,''

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I immediately left to find Adrian, still infuriated with him for spreading lies,

We didn't sleep together, so why would he say that we did?

I felt this sinking feeling rushing over me as I poured my way through the dungeons, not understanding why he would do this. I liked Adrian a lot, and I didn't want to believe that he would do this,

I wished for all of this to be lies, for Draco to be lying to me,

But as it usually held with me,

This was probably too good to be true,

The heartbreak and the suffering I have lived through these past months has been too much, all the way from my mother not being able to come out of hiding to Cedric wanting to break my heart, and lastly, Draco actually breaking it,

He broke my heart, and yet, I refuse to blame him for doing so,

I can't impute him because Draco made it clear that he hated me — he even told me he did.

And I hated him,

So what did I expect?

That he would fall completely and utterly in love with me?

For a kiss?

For him touching me?

I'm not even sure that I wished for him to do so, for him to love me, because what I felt for him — wasn't love. It was desire, compassion, need, but it wasn't love,

I'm too messed up to love anybody,

I wasn't even capable of loving Cedric back, and he loved me, he wanted to be with me, but I couldn't,

I couldn't feel anything for him, except lust,

The two people I have ever loved in my life was my mother and Luna.

I'm too conflicted in my own mind for anyone else. I never seem to get my feeling under control — I never held someone to understand me, never had someone to relate to, except for them, my loving mother and my angelic best friend,

And that's why I didn't let Adrian touch me like that, that's why I didn't sleep with him because he was too pure for me — my mind was too dark for his, too clouded by darkness I inherited from my father, maybe that's why I was drawn to Draco?

Maybe he was just as fucked up as I am?

He has to be.

There's no way that a person like himself, that cruel and heartless, could love someone,

I felt my face twist in disgust as my mind spiraled back to the blond-haired boy — shoving the doors to their chambers open, making my down the shadowed stairs,

My eyes staring over the dimmed room, and then, my eyes caught to his, Adrian's. He rested on a couch, his head leaning against the armrest, fingers fiddling with the book in his hands — he was handsome, he looked so at harmony, reading his book,

I nearly missed how upset I was with him by the easy look on his face. It

His eyes snapped to mine the second he heard my footsteps marching down the stairs, " What are you—," - by the sound of his voice breaking through the shivering silence of the fireplace sparkling, my mind clocked back to presence again,

I stormed up to him, '' Why, Adrian?''

'' Why would you do that?''

His face fell into confusion as he pushed himself off the furniture, '' What the hell are you—,''

'' You know exactly what I'm talking about, you told your whole team we slept together, Adrian,''

My breaths ragged, standing feet away from him, '' I didn't—,'' He held, his eyes bored through mine, '' It wasn't like that. I only said so, because Malfoy, he kept—,''

My brows furrowed, my hands dropped to my sides as I caught onto his words, '' Draco did what?''

'' He kept talking about how fucked I was for being with you, how you'd never let someone like me in,'' Pain tore through his vocals, '' And I had to say something because —,''

His tells and how he's speaking them made me swallow thickly, not grasping what's about to happen, what he means with all of this.

I shoed closer, stretching to take his book away before he rips it apart in frustration,

'' I feel for you, these past weeks with you has been—,'' He huffed, a hand rushed through his hair, '' I can't explain it, but there's something about you, something I never felt before,''

'' I've been a total idiot my whole life. I've been treating people like garbage, but now, with you — I don't want to do that anymore. I want to be better for you.''

My entire self melted at his words. He was too pure, too honest for me,

'' Adrian—,'' I heaved, in need to tell the boy before me that I couldn't do this, that I could never feel for him the way he feels for me and that breaks my heart, '' I can't—,''

'' Don't—,'' He shut me up,

'' Please, don't say what I think you're about to say,'' Adrian whispers, taking a track closer to me as his hands found their way to cup my cheeks, his eyes pierced through mine,

'' I know about the other boys. I know about Diggory, and I've heard all the rumors about you and Malfoy—, but I'm not like either of them,

'' I won't hurt you.'' His thumbs traced soft circles on my skin, the warmth of his touch spread throughout my whole body,

'' I promise.''

I strive to force myself back from him, sensing every nerve in my body panic— but he won't let me, his hand sought my chin, tipping my head back to face him fully, '' I'm no good at this, Adrian—,''

'' I can't promise that I won't hurt you, and I—, ''

'' I know you can't—,'' He whispered, cutting my stutter off as he leaned closer, '' But even if you do break my heart, you would still be worth it.''

His hand around my waist hauled me closer, pulling me into him and the safety he brought — the moment of silence put both of us into peace,

Maybe I can do this.

Perhaps I can be enough for him, the way he wants to be enough for me, maybe I can—,

As I gawk into his eyes, my thoughts are swiftly interrupted by the door being flung open. The both of us rips our sights away, facing his raging blue ones,

But the second Adrian grasps that the person who entered the room was Draco, his head clocked back to mine, and the hand caressing my chin is quickly placed around my neck, '' Give me a chance, and even if it all goes to hell, at least we tried, right?''

My sights are still coated on the handsome blond boy, dressed in his black suit, holding petrified in his steps,

I look back at Adrian, shredding my eyes away from the boy my heart ached for,

And without doubt, our lips collided, and the shivers spread within me, the moment his soft lips clashed with mine, my heart ceased aching, every worry, every thought simply faded away, and I adored that he had that effect on me,

_____

I snuck my way back to my room, nearly wishing to run into Draco — hoping that we would come looking for me,

But he didn't,

As I locked my door open, thrusting it broadly — I gulped,

Not prepared to see her standing inside of it,

'' Narcissa?'' I asked, and she quickly turned around to greet me, but something was wrong,

Her skin was paler, she suffered to put her red lipstick on - she always puts her red lipstick on. And her eyes, even if she looked calm and tried keeping her act straight, her eyes weren't lying, just like her son's eyes never lie,

My veins ruched in anxiety at my discovery, even if she looked still,

I could tell that something was terribly wrong.

'' Narcissa, what's wrong?'' I asked softly, taking marching steps towards her, '' What happened?''

Her brave act fell as my arms wrapped around her, her body was cold and tense, her arms lingered around mine, '' Lucius, he—,'' She spoke, her lips quivering,

'' He granted our manor to the dark lord today, Leiah,'' Her voice crackled in despair, '' It wasn't thought to happen in a few months, but your father arrived today,''

I felt my blood boil at her words.

I had heard all the chatter on the radio, the people that's been going missing, the body's that been found, and it all comes back to this,

To him,

My father.

Luckily, I had never been around when my father was at his worst. When he killed people to the far and left — when he shattered lives, and in many ways, I'm thankful for that, grateful for the fact that I was a newborn and that I didn't have to watch everything around us break into pieces,

But I am now.

I'm more than ready to face everything he's done, every despicable, unforgivable act,

Because I won't fear him,

I refuse to.

'' I'm so sorry, Narcissa,'' I murmured, holding her head closer to my chest, begging that I could take all her pain away like she's always done for me. '' We will fix this, I promise—,''

She tended away, drying the pale skin underneath her eyes, '' No, love. This has nothing to do with you. You shouldn't have to hear about this, '' She breathed out, and a brave smile arched on her trembling lips.

'' You are too young. This shouldn't be your concern. ''

I glanced at her with warmth — watching the woman that always has done everything for me, that would give her life for mine.

'' I won't let him hurt you,'' I spoke honestly, striving not to let my tears fall.

She granted me with the most humble smile, her fingers seeking to tuck a curl behind my ear. '' You have grown up to be an extraordinary young woman... I wished your mother was here to see it— '' She held, signing out a shaking breath. '' But if you truly believe that I would let you anywhere near your father—,''

Her voice is quickly interrupted by a loud path of hammering on the door, both of our necks snapped to it,

I looked back at her in hesitation, she raises her hand up for me to hold my thoughts for a slight moment, but the hard knocks on the door keep growing,

She stiffly nods her head, allowing me to open my door, but the instant I yanked the door open,

I wished I didn't.

His blue, raging eyes are burnt through my startled ones, hatred radiating off him, '' Drac—,'' I breathed, but before I even had a chance to conclude my sentence, his fingers snatched me by my throat, hauling me out of the hall as he slammed me against the wall, 

'' Was it good?'' He spat, '' Because I saw him take you to his fucking room.'' He growled into my frightened features, gazing into my eyes, without giving me a chance to catch my breath,

His rings bit into my sensitive skin, his hand tightly wrapped,

'' Fucking answer me. Did he fuck—,''

He held the shouting the second he noticed my eyes flickering into my room and then back to him, but I couldn't speak —, his hands were coiled too stingy around my throat, cutting my oxygen off.

His neck snapped to the side, and his whole demeanor weakened,

'' Mother?''

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