I was just watching some Minecraft videos, because why the hell not. Just some stuff on some random horror mods and survival stuff. My dad ended up coming up stairs and stared at me and said, "stop watching porn".

Number one; mother fucker, i don't like the thought of sex in general, why would i ever watch two people getting it on?

Number two: even if i DID watch that sort of thing, does it look like i would be so open either way watching it? 😭 nah i'd rather die than watch that crap where others are around me 🙏 (and watch it in general, i feel uncomfortable with people making out in movies, imagine how it would be watching full on action 💀)

Number three: I don't watch porn, I READ it. Like a proper person Uwu (talking about smut btw, duh)

Number four: ew? what encouraged you to say that anyway?? Suddenly i don't feel comfortable around you (again).

Number five: i watched HENTAI-ish things (uhh anime porn-) by accident like... three times 💀 give me a break.

for context - Pink haired Yuri. (I completely forgot the fucking name of it)😔 and then the things sort of like it (never watched it COMPLETELY I got uncomfortable way too quickly 🙏) but "DevilMan Crybaby" haven't watched it all, but DAMN I should have actually read the warnings that shit took me by surprise 😭

And uhh I forgot the last ones name, but yeah, there was something else that was just a LOT (watched it when I was like seven or so.. so it was a pretty old anime for sureee)

Anyway. Yeah, those are quite literally the only things "Hentai" that i've watched (*cough* and like... Gacha heat... when I was a child... and that weird game with the lockers would count?? Damn. My parents should have better parental locks on my shit- WHAT- MF I WAS A KIDDDD 😭)

Anyway. Yeah... uh...

also, i had a really massive nightmare/flashback type of ordeal and that doesn't exactly make me feel any better around my dad now :'] yay (hint: harassmenttttt) low-key wanna move out-

Anyway. I have never been so glad that my room is a complete mess and i'm on my period. Because when i tell you everything was SO vivid, uncomfortable and traumatic and I believed it was fucking real until I woke up and saw the mess that was my bedroom. I had never sobbed so fucking much.

Uh...yeah.. anyway, I feel sick and I haven't eaten anything all day (no food) and just been having a pretty bad day in general. Yay 👍