*Jungkook*

When Tae had pushed me on the cold bathroom floor, his hips pressed against mine, it felt like a dream. It became even more unrealistic when suddenly his lips were on mine. His lips were soft and gentle. Then I pressed harder, I wanted to feel him more, to taste him. We kissed passionately. After some time, I opened my mouth a little and left out a moan.
Tae took this moment, to run his tongue over my lower lip. Instantly, I kissed him back hard. At the same time, I moved against his hips which were still pressing against me. Since Tae only wore his thin jogging pants I could feel his length push against my own hips. I let out a new moan. This time, Tae made good use of my moan and let his tongue slide into my mouth, were it was looking for mine. The kiss became more playfully as his tongue drew circles around mine.

The tension in the room was palpable. Both of us were aroused and Tae looked like he wanted to take it to the next level. His hands were exploring my body. Firstly, his slim fingers were running through my hair. Then, his left hand went down, caressing my naked chest, until his fingers reached the seam of my pants. He slit one finger under the fabric, which was followed by a second one. I felt my skin burn under his touch, lingering for more. But at the same time, I wanted Tae to slow down. I was not ready yet for whatever excitement might come next. I was about to beg him to stop, when he pulled his fingers out of my pants, and, his breathing coming out ragged, he said « We need to stop. Now! ».

I cannot remember about what we talked next. This did not feel real. Him, this beautiful boy, kissing someone like me. I could not believe it. It felt like a dream. I know that he kissed me again and said something like « We will have to talk to Namjoon ». Since I did not react to his words, he pinched my cheek and smiling at me with his lovely boxy smile. 

« This ain't no dream Koo. No need to wake up. You are already wide awake! ». I smiled back at him.

Tae's hand was on the doorknob and he was about to open the door, but before, he kissed me once more. His lips on mine felt so soft. I had found Paradise on Earth.

***

When we had had breakfast and were back in the bedroom, Tae explained that he had promised Jimin-hyung to go shopping that morning and that in the late afternoon he would have to study for his final exams. While Tae woke up Jimin and got dressed, I slipped back under the sheets of my bed. I did not want to dream because right now reality was better than every dream, but the warmth of my bed would give me the impression that Tae's body was still wrapped around me.

Nevertheless, I must have fallen asleep at some point because when I woke up, it was already 11 a.m. The hyungs were gone; only Suga's and Jin's laughter came from the kitchen. 

After some time, I noticed some vibration. Shit! My phone was ringing. When I finally found my phone hidden in my sheets, the ringing had stopped. I had 3 missed calls and 2 new messages.

The fist message was from my mum, telling me how proud she was of me and that she missed me. The second one (and the missed calls) were from Eun Ae-sshi. Finally! She had been ignoring my messages and calls for the last two days. 

Let's meet at the Han River. I need to tell you something.

Her message was short. Nevertheless, I felt relieved. She was finally talking to me again. Happy that Eun Ae-sshi had found it in her heart to forgive me, I replied to her message, letting her know that I would be there in about half an hour.

I grabbed my backpack, stole on my way out of the kitchen one of Jin's freshly made pancakes and left the dorm. I felt like today was gonna be a good day, the streak of bad luck was finally over. With these positive feeling, I made my way to the Han River to meet my best friend.

***

When I arrived at the river, I noticed instantly that Eun Ae-sshi was not alone. Next to her in the grass was sitting Ye Rin, a close friend of hers. I had met her on a few occasions, but we had never become very close. I always felt that, for some unknown reason, she did not like me. It is complicated to put this feeling into words. Ye Rin-sshi had never said anything mean to me, nor had we been into a fight. But even though we had exchanged some words before, she seemed always hostile for some reason, like she wanted to keep me at bay. This time was no different. She was sitting there, plucking some grass, not saying a word but staring coldly at me. 

When Eun Ae saw me, she got to her feet. Ye Rin did not bother to get up to greet me. She seemed like she hated being here. I started having a really bad feeling about this meeting, but I tried to stay calm.

After exchanging some kind words, Eun Ae came straight to the reason of her invitation. She was always straightforward, this was what I liked about her. 

« You were a real jerk last Friday! », she said. 

Ok. Sometimes, she was too straightforward. Her words, even though they were true, did hurt me. 

« I am truly sorry », I told her and I really meant it. 

« Anyway... », she went on, « I know you for nearly a decade now. We met in kindergarten, therefor I know that you did not kiss me because you love me. Well not in this way at least. It is no passionate love you feel for me. We share a different bond, right JK-sshi? ». 

I felt ashamed for my action again but nodded. All along, I could feel Ye Rin's cold eyes on me. It seemed like she was angry for some reason.

 « That's what I thought. And I forgive you for that, Jungkook-sshi. You are my best friend and as such, you are really important to me. Also, I believe that you are finally ready for hearing my truth. », Eun Ae went on.

 « Your truth? », I wondered. Eun Ae was smiling, her long brown hair was blowing in the wind. Ye Rin, who was sitting a little further from me, seemed  to sit uneasily in her spot, her fingers were pulling out more of the grass around her feet. 

« You already know Ye Rin, right? You have met her before and I had introduced her as my good friend. Well... she is more than that. She is my girlfriend ».

My mouth fell open. I had not seen this one coming. I looked from my best friend to Ye Rin, then back to Eun Ae. I was confused. But at the same time, something deep inside me had already known this, for a very long time. 

« Sorry for not telling you earlier. But I felt like it was just not the right time yet. You were not yet ready for it. I hope you understand ». 

I nodded, then I smiled at her and also at Ye Rin. I finally understood why she might feel angry at me and why she felt so odd to be here today. 

« Thank you for telling me. And sorry again... for the kiss... Eun Ae-sshi. I am truly sorry. Please forgive me. You too, Ye Rin-sshi ».

« It is fine Jungkook. If I am right, then there is also something that you need to tell me », Eun Ae said calmly. I looked at her, my eyes opened wide. How did she know? On the other hand, if she was like me, it was normal that she had noticed. 

Instantaneously, I felt panic rise inside of me, panic of being discovered. Afraid of the judgment that might follow, but at the same time this was Eun Ae, my best friend, who just confessed that she was gay - or at least bisexual - too.This need to hide my true self was still very strong and deeply anchored inside of me. I wanted to hide the truth but at the same time, I wanted to shout it out loud so that the whole world could hear it. Without even noticing it, I spoke.

« I kissed a boy. I kissed Tae. And I liked it ».

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Credits to the owner of the Fan Art, NoranB  💜