I sat on the porch with my head in my hands, fighting to hold back the tears in my eyes as my eyes kept tracing the cracks and whatnot on the sidewalk leading up to my house- I was snapped out of my thoughts though, by a car door slamming shut and running footsteps.

            Looking up I saw Cade, who might be Barricade for all I knew, and I stood up and shook my head when he went to step closer- If he stepped any closer I would lose the courage I had gained, the courage to ask him if what Optimus had told me was true… if he really was a Decepticon.

            “Lucy, are you alright? Are you hurt at all?” He asks quickly, his eyes searching me for any injury I might have received- and I almost lost the courage to ask him. He looked so worried about me and I almost believed it, but for all I know it might be an act put up by him- if he really was a Decepticon that is.

            Taking in a deep breath and mustering up the courage I still had left, I spoke. “I’m fine… Barricade.” I whispered his name, what could possibly be his name, and his eyes widened- at first with shock and fear, then later to sadness, guilt, and knowing. Does that mean he really was….

            “So you are with the Autobots then, and they told you who I was?” He whispered, and my breath hitched in my voice as tears came to my eyes due to his words. “Wait Lucy, there is a reason I never told you!” He says, when I took a step back and covered my mouth with my hand as tears welled up in my eyes.

            “How am I supposed to trust you?! You basically used me because of what I was! Were you ever my friend?! Was everything we did together, every word you spoke… was it all lies?” I asked, as tears started pouring out of my eyes and trailing down my face as I looked at the one whom I loved and trusted with everything…

            Cade, or should I call him Barricade now, shook his head and went to take a step forwards but stopped when I took another step back. “Lucille listen to me, it may have started out that way but… I grew to love you, after getting to know you I fell in love with you.” He whispered, but I shook my head at his words.

            Though I shook my head he kept trying, he kept going on about it. “I was assigned to get to know you, to eventually make sure the Decepticons got you so we could use you… I never meant to hurt you Lucy, I planned on telling you sooner but I couldn’t.” He whispers, his eyes staring into mine.

            “I tried to warn you about the Decepticons attacking, but you thought I was pranking you…” He whispered softly, and I looked away from him- everything we had done with each other might all be a lie… He was assigned to trick me from the beginning, how was I supposed to know if this was a trick or not?!

            “Is my mother ok? Did any of you hurt her?” I asked, my voice rough and showing no emotion- there was no emotion to show Barricade, not after learning to truth about who he was and what he was. My best friend was a Decepticon, my crush was a Decepticon, and he had been assigned to defy me and get close to me…

            He had won his mission, he had gotten close to me and gained my trust- gained the trust of my family as well! Then he went and tore it all apart, he finally showed his true colors about being a Decepticon... Barely silenced sobs tore through my body, as I kept looking away from him.

            “Your mother is safe, she knows the truth as well… she took it the same way, but I told her the truth- about how it had all started as a mission, until I fell in love with you Lucy… please, just trust me and believe that I am telling you the truth!” He says, making my head snap towards him.

            I glared darkly at him, dark enough that it made him wince and take a step back, and I shook my head while scowling at him. “Trust you?! After what you did? I will never trust you again Barricade, you were my friend and I loved you but now… now you are a traitor.” I whispered, I knew he could still hear me though, as I turned my head away from him.

            He was having an inner war with himself and I could feel his eyes burning into my back, not from anger but from other emotions that meant he wanted me to change my mind- I simply only glanced at him, ignoring the shining tears in his eyes that could possibly be an act as well, and shook my head at his non-verbal question. We were over as friends, as possible lovers, and everything else….

            “Go away Barricade, before the Autobots arrive… I won’t stop them from destroying you.” I whispered, and watched in sorrow as he took a few steps back from my harsh words- his eyes showing fresh pain, sadness, and other emotions- before suddenly they faded away, and so did his human form. Next thing I know, his police car is tearing down the street away from me.

            As soon as he was out of sight I collapsed on the front porch, wrapping my arms around myself as I sobbed about the loss of my closest friend and the one I loved more than anything… I ignored the sound of tires as an all-to-familiar black GMC Topkick pulled up in the driveway.

            Suddenly there were footsteps running towards me, and the first one to get there was my uncle Lennox- who immediately asked me about what had happened. I told him everything, crying during the entire thing, and he kissed my forehead before glancing over at Ironhide and silently telling him to help calm me down.

            I felt Ironhide sit beside me but I ignored it, I just kept my eyes shut and continued crying from the pain and sadness I felt- and I didn’t realize the mech, my father, wrap an arm around my shoulders and pull me to him to comfort me. I just buried my head in his neck and continued crying.