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ISPIDYI.

Rebel.       

  "Still not getting laid? Ang init ng ulo mo." Tatawa tawa si River habang iniaabot sa akin ang isang bote ng beer. Napailing ako. I have no appetite. I just remember her face and her body in more ways than one. Damn the obsession to bed her rises everytime. "You know what, magpacheck ka na kasi baka may deprensiya ka."

"Gago."

"Not getting laid is not really the issue here. Your issue is that Viviene is not getting you laid. Why her? Marami namang iba diyan." Kalmadong tanong ni River habang umuupo sa two-seater couch. He owns the whole club where we at located in the heart of BGC. Maingay ang paligid at ang nakakahilong amoy ng halo-halong usok ang nagpainit ng pakiramdam ko.

"You'll see, she'll come to me."

"She what? If she will, she should have already." Kinuha ni River ang cellphone niya at ipinakita sa akin. "This is her, right? Sinong kasama niya sa video? Masyadong bitin!"

I chugged my beer straight. The ten-second video summarizes everything. My bait. Viviene will come to me in no time.

"Well, she looks hot. And hotter in person."

Ininguso ni River ang dancefloor at naroon nga si Viviene, mag-isa at wala sa sariling umiindayog ang beywang sa trance music. Malawak ang kanyang ngiti at mukhang kanina pa nakainom. Men were crowding her, some were following her moves and others were touching her waist. I clenched my jaw. Halos mabasag ang bote sa aking kamay. Frustration drawn all over me. How could she be this easy at sa akin ay hindi?

Galit akong naglakad papalapit sa dance floor, tumayo si River at sinubukang iharang ang kanyang kamay pero pinalis ko iyon. I heard him call some of his bouncers. Sa isang hila ng kamay ko ay parang papel na inagos si Viviene papalapit sa akin. Gulat niyang inimulat ang mga mata niya at saka ako tinapunan ng matatalim na tingin pagkatapos ay ngumisi ng maluwag.

"Oh, the scheming jerk."

"Hi, My Lady." Bati ko na nagpipigil din ng inis.

"Get off your hands off me, jerk."

"Why? Hindi ba nagpunta ka dito para sa akin?"

"Wow! Ang kapal!" Pumalakpak pa siya. "Ano sa tingin mo ang magpapahila sa aking para tunguhin ka? The scandal you leaked? How dare you? You want to fvck me and when I did not let you, you ruined my career! Ganyan ka ba talaga ka-hayok?"

"Whoah, careful with your words, Baby." Hinila ko siya papalayo sa crowd. "Let's talk somewhere else."

Nagulat ako nang nagpatianod siya at hindi na din nagmatigas pa. She was weak and her eyes bore with uninterested stares. Isinakay ko siya sa sasakyan ko at hindi ako nahirapan. Nagmadali akong nagdrive patungo sa unit ko. It was just a five-minute drive away from River's club. Sumunod lang sa akin si Viviene habang nagpapatiuna ako.

"Is this your plan?" Viviene threw her arms around her chest when I opened the door to my unit. Her eyebrows raised. She look pale, her sundress is not for a night club partying and she has no makeup. "You want to bring me here to fvck me? Ganyan ba kababa ang tingin mo sa akin? Bakit ba kasi ako?"

Hinila ko ang kamay niya papasok ng unit at pabagsak na isinara ang pinto. "You are expecting me to think highly of you when you throw yourself on those men at the club? Hindi ba dito din iyon mauuwi? Some other man will bring you home and fvck your brains out. What is your problem with me? Ilang linggo ka nang palaisipan sa akin!"

Mahina siyang natawa. "Palaisipan? Dahil hindi kita hinahayaang hawakan ako kaya gigil na gigil ka?" Naglakad siya papalapit sa akin. Her cheeks were naturally rosy, her amethyst eyes went a tone darker tonight, her scent filled my nose and I know what River is talking about getting crazy, this is exact definition of crazy. "You want to fvck me, Rebel?" Nahigit ang paghinga ko. Her breath, although with a tinge of alcohol, remained naturally fresh and minty.

Inilapit niya ang labi niya sa akin, napaatras ako. "Do not get there if I were you." Banta ko.

"Meron ka bang solusyon sa problema ko? If you do have, then do whatever you want to do with me."

"Viviene—"

Hindi ko pa natatapos ang salita ko ay inilapat na ni Viviene ang labi niya sa akin. With her insisting the kiss, I noticed how different it was coming from her.

Viviene.

I am drunk. Yes, I can always say that I am drunk. But how dare this man make my blood boil not in anger but with desperation of touching him. Ikinapit ko ang kamay ko sa magkabilang kwelyo ng kanyang damit at mas nilaliman ang halik ko. I learned this in many kissing scenes but no, this is how I really wanted the kiss.

Naglakbay agad ang kamay ni Rebel sa aking likod patungo sa aking leeg. He playfully touched my neck while we tick turns with the scorching kiss, he devoured the corners of my mouth with his tongue and he may not be an actor but he was so good at this. Bumangon ang nakakapangilabot na pagtayo ng balahibo sa aking balat. I can feel my undies moist with the velvety cream that I released as my legs clenched with excitement.

Rebel expertly massaged my breast taking his time while slowly pushing me to somewhere until I fell on the soft couch. Yumukod si Rebel para abutin ang aking labi, pababa sa aking leeg. He was tracing my skin with his tongue while his one hand was feeling my legs, going up and deep until he reached the lacy fabric of my panty.

"Wet, huh?" Dinilaan niya ang pang-ibabang labi niya habang dinadama ang pagitan ng aking mga hita. Imbes na sumagot ay napapakit ako. There he goes again, his touch was in no gentle demeanor. His callous hands played with my mounds and the electrifying heat burned all my common sense and poof on a thin air.

His digits expertly teasing my folds made me realize that I am a notch away from a delicious heaven. Bumibilis iyon depende sa lakas ng aking pagsinghap. The louder the moan, the faster it gets. Parang hinehele ako sa nakakaantok na ritmong iyon, napakapit ako sa kanyang balat. How vicious this man could get? How can he exploit me with his clothes intact? How dare me hate him and enjoy the lewdness of the moment?

"Say my name, Viviene." Madilim na utos niya pero hindi ko iyon magawa. Every small veins in my body were telling my brain to let go but I don't want it yet. "Say. My. Fvcking. Name."

"R-rebel. Rebel!" I screamed with incessant release of cream on my thighs. Hingal na hingal kong ibinagsak ang aking ulo sa headrest. My skin on my chest were red. Wala sa ayos ang suot kong dress. Rebel's hair were a bit tousled. Bumagay pa nga iyon sa kanya. Pinasadahan niya ang kanyang buhok at dinilaan ang kanyang labi nang makatayo siya sa harap ko at pinakatitigan ang panghihina ko.

"Fvck I am giving you a good time, Viv." Maangas na wika niya.

"I want more." Ungol ko, the alcohol intensified my need despite the depression I really feel. Pakiramdam ko ay gusto kong magwala, gusto kong magalit. Viviene do this, Viviene do that. It has always been that way! This is wrong, I know. That is why I want to do it. I want to stop caring on what people will say. This is my life.

"I fvck rough and hard, Viviene."

"I want it." Yes I want it. Gusto kong mamanhid sa bilis ng pangyayari ngayong araw. Why did I wish getting closer to this jerk? Inabot tuloy ako ng malas. Despite of the nerve-racking aftermath of my orgasm, ramdam kong umangat ang aking likod mula sa sofa. I closed my eyes and in a few moments, my back restead to a fine silk sheets. Tinitigan ko kung nasaan ako, isang silid na may malapad na kama at merong salamin sa kisame.

"Sira ka, parang motel ang kuwarto mo." Itinuro ko ang kisame kung nasaan ang repleksyon ko. Rebel smirked, and oh boy, he's sexy.

"That's the idea. I want to see you."

"You mean all the girls you are fvcking."

"Can you not ruin the night?"

"What now? Come on. Do what you need to do and will get over this."

Tumayo si Rebel para magtanggal ng damit. Pinagmamasdan ko lang siya habang ginagawa iyon. Walang ingat kung tanggalin niya ang butones ng kanyang polo. I gasped when I had a peek of his chiseled chest. At nang matanggal din niya ang butones sa bandang tiyan, napatunganga ako ng husto sa nakahulmang abs doon. Was he even pulled out from a tear sheet magazine? Mas maganda pa ang katawan niya kaysa doon sa mga nakakapareha kong modelo sa shoot!

He removed his pants and his shaft sprung free. Tila nagising ako doon. I bit my lower lip and spread my legs, wide. Really wide that Rebel's eyebrow shot. Ang sakit din ng balakang ko dahil halos pormang naka-split na ballerina ako sa kanyang harapan, yun nga lang ay nakahiga ako sa kama.

"What are you doing?" He asked.

"Well, based on my estimate. The circumference of your Birdie Monster won't fit my Kitty." Desisyon ko na parang isang eksperto.

"What?" He gave me a weirded look.

I pouted my lips on his love muscle. He blurt out a s*xy laugh again.

"I would see you ovaries if you'd do that." Sinarhan niya muli ang aking binti.

"You are one beautiful weird fox, Lady." Sabi niya pagkatapos ay siniil akong muli ng halik sa labi na parang cute na cute sa akin. Hindi pala cute na cute. Because he was biting my skin! Iniabot niya ang parehas kong kamay at pinagsama iyon. Mula sa sidetable ng kanyang kama ay mayroon siyang kinuhang kung ano. He locked both of my hands to a leather cuffs and my eyes widened.

"What are you doing?!"

"I told you, I fvck rough, Viviene. Are you on pills?" He clasped the leather cuffs to a huge hook on his headboard that made it impossible for me to move. I was dumbfounded with what is happening. Is this how it really was?

"K-kaka-take ko lang kanina nung para sa hika ko. Okay lang naman kung nakakapagod ito, I can manage." Paliwanag ko.

"No, I mean, contraceptives. I hate using condoms."

Tila binuhusan ako ng malamig na tubig.

"Hindi! Hoy gagi ka! Wag mo akong bubuntisin! Wala na nga akong career, mas mawawalan pa. Mag-ingat ingat kang loko ka!"

"Why are you so talkative? Are you like this on bed?" Reklamo niya.

"Ngayon lang. Mahirap naman kung nagsasalita ako sa kama ko nang wala akong kausap hindi ba?" Wika ko.

"Bend over." Utos sa akin ni Rebel.

"Ganito?" Dumapa ako. I felt Rebel's hands on my knees and he's pulling me up.

"Bend your knees." Utos niya.

Sumunod naman ako agad. I bent my knees, my elbows pressed on my mattress, supporting my weight, the contracting force from the cuffs made it impossible for movements.

"Nice ass." Sumipol si Rebel habang nasa likuran ko.

"Ang bastos mo!" Reklamo ko kahit pinamumulahan ako ng pisngi.

I felt hard muscle pointing on my entrance. Teasing my wetness from behind. Unti unti ay sinubok ni Rebel ang aking entrada at napasinghap ako sa sakit, sinubukan kong pigilan ang pagrereklamo dahil alam kong makakasanayan ko din naman. Mataas ang tolerence ko sa pain, tuwing nasusugatan nga ako, balewala na lang iyon sa akin pero iba ito ngayon. Masakit, oo, pero tila gusto kong magpasakop sa sakit na iyon. I was imagining this for couple days already and I cannot let this pass. I am curious as hell.

"Fck you are damn tight!" Bulalas ni Rebel habang sinusubukan pa din niyang ipasok si Birdie Monster kay Kitty.

"Nasa kalahati ka na ba?" Tanong ko. Hindi na maipinta ang mukha ko sa sobrang hapdi.

"I--I haven't moved an inch."

"What?" Binagsak ko ang mukha ko sa kama. "Ang hapdi na!" I complained. Rebel slowly gliding in his muscle and when he had a chance, he pushed himself a little harder and an almost inaudible screech I heard from within.

Parang nagbukas ang lupa at kinagat si Kitty ng pusang bungi. I almost felt his muscle inside my stomach!

"Oh! Ang sakit, Bes.." Di ko napigilang ibulalas. Naramdaman ko ang pagtigil ni Rebel sa ginagawa. He pushed his muscle and I cried even more.

"Araykupo! Walanghiya kang Rebel ka! Braso mo ba yan? Parang may nararamdaman akong wristwatch sa loob!" Panay ang ngawa ko dahil sa sobrang sakit.

"Letse ang sakit..." Di ko na napigilan ang mapaluha. Agad agad na naramdaman ko ang pagtanggal ni Rebel ng Birdie Monster niya kay Kitty. Dahan dahan ko siyang nilingon, bakas ang gulat sa guwapo niyang mukha. He was eyeing his engorged muscle and he was the exact definition of 'surprised'.

"You are still a virgin?" Manghang tanong niya. Marahan akong tumango habang iniinda ang sobrang hapdi.

Hinawakan ako ni Rebel sa bewang at ipinaharap sa kanya, ipinahiga niya ako sa kama at matamang tiningnan "Bakit hindi mo sinabi?"

Humikbi ako, "Would it matter? 'Di ba ito ang gusto mong mangyari para tigilan mo na ako? Napakasakit naman niyan!" Halos magpapapadyak pa ako sa inis habang itinuturo si Birdie Monster.

"Do you still want to continue?" Seryosong tanong niya.

"Kapag inihinto natin, magiging masaya ka ba? Titigilan mo na ba ako? Eh napunit mo na nga! Push mo na yan. Dali." Pangungumbinse ko. "Game." I parted my legs in front of him but he did not try to penetrate me, instead, he chose to lay me on my stomach. Pinakawalan niya ang parehas na kamay ko mula sa leather cuffs at nanatili na lamang ang mga mata ko sa kanya.

He reached for my lips again and caressed me with his warm kisses. He pushed his tongue inside my mouth and I caught it with my tongue, battling against each other, sensually feeling each of the walls of our mouth without surrendering. The kiss went on by biting every lip, until it went on to touching and caressing each other. He fondled my heavy breast and I was looking for something to grip until I felt his strong muscle, I let my hands feel it.

"Sht, Viviene, I will come in your hands." Hindi na ako nag-isip pa, hindi ako tumigil at pinanatili ang ginagawa ko. So this is how he wanted to be filled? I started moving my hands in a tender and quick pace until his shaft became warmer and thicker than it already is.

"Ah..." I felt a hot liquid dripping on my stomach as Rebel growled. Huminto si Rebel sa paghalik sa akin at pumikit ng mariin. Bumilis ang paghinga niya at pakiramdam ko may nagawa akong kasalanan sa kanya. I bit my lip as he opened his eyes and kiss me.

"That's my first." He whispered in between heavy breathing. "I don't come with hand jobs."

He fished for a tissue box on his side table and wiped my hands and his stomach with it. He positioned himself in between my legs and played with my Kitty using his Birdie monster again. This is another attempt. Sana wag nang magpabebe si Kitty.

"Oh.." Nakakakiliti sa pakiramdam. Maya maya pa ay naramdaman ko na naman ang pamilyar na hapdi dahil sa pagsubok niya sa pagpasok.

"You'll get used to this." Rebel said.

I held my breath as he carefully pushed himself inside me.

"Tight and lovely. I am your first, damn it." Kinagat ko ang pang-ibabang labi ko, parang nagniningning pa ang mga mata niya nang sabihin iyon. I would understand. Isa itong karangalan para sa isang lalaking nasibasib na ang lahat ng katas simula nung bata pa ang kanyang edad.

"Masakit! Mag-ingat ka naman dahil napakalaki niyan! Hindi yan ilong ng elepante for cheesecakes!"

"I will, Baby.." Hirap din ang mukha ni Rebel habang sinusubok ako. When he successfully entered his shaft, hindi siya agad gumalaw. Namangha ako ng husto na nagkasya talaga iyon.

Kawawang hymen...

"I will move now." He announced and I nodded. Rebel pushed in and out of me. His thrusts were slow and I was patient despite of being painful. Maya maya pa ay nawala na ang inhibitions ko, pleasure is coming in. Sinasalubong ko na ang bawat hagod niya. Rebel looks so vulnerable when he's turned on. Sinamantala namin ang katahimkan ng gabi. Mahihinang ungol ang kumakawala sa amin. Nangangatal na ang baba ko sa sobrang kalasingan, my mouth parted everytime Rebel hit something.

"Rebel, I think, I will.. I will..." Paano ko ba ipapaliwanag iyon.

"Come? Baby?"

Tumango ako. Pinagpapawisan na din ako ng malamig hanggang sa maramdaman ko na lang ang panginginig ng katawan. I think I peed but it was so pleasurable, so magical and so.. so..

"Fck, I came." Bumuhos muli sa tyan ko ang mainit na likido mula kay Rebel sa aking tiyan. Ibinagsak ni Rebel ang katawan niya sa akin. I felt is juices swamped all over my stomach but I was not grossed out at all. Rebel breathed heavily and rested his head on my neck.

"Pagod ka na?" Tanong ko. I couldn't believe that I am acting like this when someone just popped my cherry. Ganoon siguro pag marami ka ng napagdaanang bagay, you will move on fast.

"I'll clean you up. You may rest for now."

I don't remember when I fell asleep. Pagkagising ko ay nakasuot na ako ng puting t-shirt at ang suot kong sundress kagabi ay nakasabit na sa wooden coat hanger stand ni Rebel na mukhang bagong plantsa. Nakaramdam ako ng kirot ng aking pagkababae pero pinilit kong tumayo. I need to go home.

"You're awake." Bumungad sa akin si Rebel. His white boardshorts hangs on his waist and his upper body was bare. Meron siyang bitbit na tray. Hindi ko lamang napansin kagabi na loft type ang unit niya. Merong wooden stairs papaakyat sa kanyang silid, his walls even his cabinet doors were made of mirrors.

"Uuwi na ako." I stood up and tried to reach for my clothes but Rebel stopped me with his body. Ibinaba niya ang tray sa kama at saka ako hinila para maupo sa gilid ng kama.

"We still haven't talk."

"Talk? What do you mean 'talk'? About this?" Ipinaikot ko ang aking daliri sa aking sarili. "We fvcked. Siguro naman ay titigil ka na. Ikaw ang malas sa buhay ng pamilya ko, alam mo yon? And you know the worst part? Sinasadya mong manira ng buhay."

"You cannot get away from me, Viviene. You need me."

"Oh come on. I will make you pay for everything but not for a good fvck with me, again. Hindi ako kagaya ng iniisip mo."

"You'll be my girlfriend."

Hindi ko alam kung lasing pa ba ako o mas madaming nainom si Rebel kaysa sa akin. "Niloloko mo ba ako?"

"That's my proposal. Be my girlfriend and your name will be cleared."

"Are you—" Hindi ko maituloy ang sasabihin ko dahil imposible naman iyon, however, words tumble inside my mouth before I hold it, "Are you inlove with me?"

Pagak na natawa si Rebel, tiningnan niya ako mula ulo hanggang paa. "I just need a short-time excuse to my parents forcing me to get married, Viviene and this is my way of making it up to you."

"How could you make it up to me? Sinira mo nga, hindi ba? Ikinalat mo ang scandal ko baka nakakalimutan mo."

"Tell me that I am the one with you. That it was our private video."

"Gagawin mo 'yon?" Gulat na gulat na bulalas ko. He shrugged.

"I think it is the best way, a solution to both of our problems."

"Question.."

"Shoot."

"Why me?"

Natigilan si Rebel at pinasadahan ako ng tingin. 

"Don't answer. I know, I am beautiful, hot, a certified dream girl."

"Viviene." Ngumisi si Rebel at hinawakan ang parehas na kamay ko, "Our stars aligned and you became my best option. You fell on my trap."

"You blackmailed me. Galit sa akin ang Mama ko ngayon." Naku ang sarap sabunutan ni Rebel!

"All the more that you need to introduce me to her. I am a bachelor, I have a business and I am good looking, who would say no to me?" 

"Mayabang ka but surely, my mother would say no." Naglakad ako papalayo.

"Not if this can redeem you career. Let's just say that this will be our damage control. Both of us will benefit on the situation."

I shook my head. I am not really sure if it will fix anything. Tinalikuran na ako ng lahat. Mamamahinga ang career ko at galit sa akin si Mama. Kung tatanggapin ko ang alok ni Rebel, Mama might understand. Pero hindi, mahigpit siya. Kahit siguro iharap ko sa kanya si Elvis Presley na idol niya, baka paalisin din iyon sa harapan niya.

"I just want to go home and think things through. I'll keep in touch." Nagmamadali akong nagpalit ng damit at saka umuwi ng bahay.