It's been a long time since you left
But I find myself digging into the walls
Trying to pull what's left of you out
Riddling the plaster with nail marks
And pinholes
And finally with colossal holes
As if I have found your heart beating still
Still living here with me
And I have ripped it from its hiding place
To listen to its whispers in the light
I can feel you
Just behind the chipping paint
And I need you out
Out of my home and out of my mind
I rip out my nails
And ruin the manicure
That my friend thought would cheer me up
But I don't mind because it
Didn't help anyways
I dig my bloody, beaten fingers
Into the walls
Again and again
Dark red seeping into every surface
Every single thing that I can reach
Like our love
Is finally seeping out of the walls
I can see wood
And insulation
And I cannot dig any further
Out of this prison where I can feel you still
And back to the outside world
If you would come and pick up your missing pieces
That I stole but wish I hadn't
Then maybe I could have some peace.
You won't come back
What do I matter
A shattered soul
To the man who sits
On top of the world