I'm popping pills like popcorn
Just to stay awake.
I spin stories like cotton candy
Just to get away.
Every moment is a maybe,
But I tell myself a thousand times
That I can do it, I can do it
If I care enough to try.
People tell me that my shortcomings
Are because of lack of effort,
So I stay up 'till four AM
For A's and extracurriculars.
People tell me that I don't look the part
So I cake my face with masks
And I work out and spend pretty pennies
On shoes that click and clack.
I've a massive exam tomorrow,
But I'm meant to be a "teen,"
So I take shots of red bull and vodka
And come home at three to start studying.
I need a perfect resume,
So I do volunteer work on Thursday nights
And engage in athletics,
And I dance and I write.
At face value I'm perfect.
Straight A's, pretty face, and everything on the side
I don't question if it's worth it,
Because I want to be the perfect child.
I can do it, I can do it.
But wait! I've said it too many times
And now it's lost its meaning.
The facade falls away, I'm left with blurry eyes
I'm doing lines to forget
Smoking away regret
I'm the reckless wreck,
No wonder they never wanted a kid.
I can do it, I can do it
And I suppose I can
But I've given too much of me away
That I can't get back.